POEMS

I.

It was a story the pilot told, with his back to his hearers,––

Keeping his hand on the wheel and his eye on the globe of the jack-staff,

Holding the boat to the shore and out of the sweep of the current,

Lightly turning aside for the heavy logs of the drift-wood,

Widely shunning the snags that made us sardonic obeisance.

II.

All the soft, damp air was full of delicate perfume

From the young willows in bloom on either bank of the river,––

Faint, delicious fragrance, trancing the indolent senses

In a luxurious dream of the river and land of the lotus.

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Not yet out of the west the roses of sunset were withered;

In the deep blue above light clouds of gold and of crimson

Floated in slumber serene; and the restless river beneath them

Rushed away to the sea with a vision of rest in its bosom;

Far on the eastern shore lay dimly the swamps of the cypress;

Dimly before us the islands grew from the river’s expanses,––

Beautiful, wood-grown isles, with the gleam of the swart inundation

Seen through the swaying boughs and slender trunks of their willows;

And on the shore beside us the cotton-trees rose in the evening,

Phantom-like, yearningly, wearily, with the inscrutable sadness

Of the mute races of trees. While hoarsely the steam from her ’scape-pipes

Shouted, then whispered a moment, then shouted again to the silence,

Trembling through all her frame with the mighty pulse of her engines,

Slowly the boat ascended the swollen and broad Mississippi,

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Bank-full, sweeping on, with tangled masses of drift-wood,

Daintily breathed about with whiffs of silvery vapor,

Where in his arrowy flight the twittering swallow alighted,

And the belated blackbird paused on the way to its nestlings.

III.

It was the pilot’s story:––“They both came aboard there, at Cairo,

From a New Orleans boat, and took passage with us for Saint Louis.

She was a beautiful woman, with just enough blood from her mother

Darkening her eyes and her hair to make her race known to a trader:

You would have thought she was white. The man that was with her,––you see such,––

Weakly good-natured and kind, and weakly good-natured and vicious,

Slender of body and soul, fit neither for loving nor hating.

I was a youngster then, and only learning the river,––

Not over-fond of the wheel. I used to watch them at monte,

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Down in the cabin at night, and learned to know all of the gamblers.

So when I saw this weak one staking his money against them,

Betting upon the turn of the cards, I knew what was coming:

They never left their pigeons a single feather to fly with.

Next day I saw them together,––the stranger and one of the gamblers:

Picturesque rascal he was, with long black hair and moustaches,

Black slouch hat drawn down to his eyes from his villanous forehead.

On together they moved, still earnestly talking in whispers,

On toward the forecastle, where sat the woman alone by the gangway.

Roused by the fall of feet, she turned, and, beholding her master,

Greeted him with a smile that was more like a wife’s than another’s,

Rose to meet him fondly, and then, with the dread apprehension

Always haunting the slave, fell her eye on the face of the gambler,––

Dark and lustful and fierce and full of merciless cunning.

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Something was spoken so low that I could not hear what the words were;

Only the woman started, and looked from one to the other,

With imploring eyes, bewildered hands, and a tremor

All through her frame: I saw her from where I was standing, she shook so.

‘Say! is it so?’ she cried. On the weak, white lips of her master

Died a sickly smile, and he said, ‘Louise, I have sold you.’

God is my judge! May I never see such a look of despairing,

Desolate anguish, as that which the woman cast on her master,

Griping her breast with her little hands, as if he had stabbed her,

Standing in silence a space, as fixed as the Indian woman

Carved out of wood, on the pilot-house of the old Pocahontas!

Then, with a gurgling moan, like the sound in the throat of the dying,

Came back her voice, that, rising, fluttered, through wild incoherence,

Into a terrible shriek that stopped my heart while she answered:––

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‘Sold me? sold me? sold––And you promised to give me my freedom!––

Promised me, for the sake of our little boy in Saint Louis!

What will you say to our boy, when he cries for me there in Saint Louis?

What will you say to our God?––Ah, you have been joking! I see it!––

No? God! God! He shall hear it,––and all of the angels in heaven,––

Even the devils in hell!––and none will believe when they hear it!

Sold me!’––Her voice died away with a wail, and in silence

Down she sank on the deck, and covered her face with her fingers.”

IV.

In his story a moment the pilot paused, while we listened

To the salute of a boat, that, rounding the point of an island,

Flamed toward us with fires that seemed to burn from the waters,––

Stately and vast and swift, and borne on the heart of the current.

Then, with the mighty voice of a giant challenged to battle,

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Rose the responsive whistle, and all the echoes of island,

Swamp-land, glade, and brake replied with a myriad clamor,

Like wild birds that are suddenly startled from slumber at midnight,

Then were at peace once more; and we heard the harsh cries of the peacocks

Perched on a tree by a cabin-door, where the white-headed settler’s

White-headed children stood to look at the boat as it passed them,

Passed them so near that we heard their happy talk and their laughter.

Softly the sunset had faded, and now on the eastern horizon

Hung, like a tear in the sky, the beautiful star of the evening.

V.

Still with his back to us standing, the pilot went on with his story:––

“All of us flocked round the woman. The children cried, and their mothers

Hugged them tight to their breasts; but the gambler said to the captain,––

‘Put me off there at the town that lies round the bend of the river.

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Here, you! rise at once, and be ready now to go with me.’

Roughly he seized the woman’s arm and strove to uplift her.

She––she seemed not to heed him, but rose like one that is dreaming,

Slid from his grasp, and fleetly mounted the steps of the gangway,

Up to the hurricane-deck, in silence, without lamentation.

Straight to the stern of the boat, where the wheel was, she ran, and the people

Followed her fast till she turned and stood at bay for a moment,

Looking them in the face, and in the face of the gambler.

Not one to save her,––not one of all the compassionate people!

Not one to save her, of all the pitying angels in heaven!

Not one bolt of God to strike him dead there before her!

Wildly she waved him back, we waiting in silence and horror.

Over the swarthy face of the gambler a pallor of passion

Passed, like a gleam of lightning over the west in the night-time.

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White, she stood, and mute, till he put forth his hand to secure her;

Then she turned and leaped,––in mid-air fluttered a moment,––

Down then, whirling, fell, like a broken-winged bird from a tree-top,

Down on the cruel wheel, that caught her, and hurled her, and crushed her,

And in the foaming water plunged her, and hid her forever.”

VI.

Still with his back to us all the pilot stood, but we heard him

Swallowing hard, as he pulled the bell-rope for stopping. Then, turning,––

“This is the place where it happened,” brokenly whispered the pilot.

“Somehow, I never like to go by here alone in the night-time.”

Darkly the Mississippi flowed by the town that lay in the starlight,

Cheerful with lamps. Below we could hear them reversing the engines,

And the great boat glided up to the shore like a giant exhausted.

Heavily sighed her pipes. Broad over the swamps to the eastward

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Shone the full moon, and turned our far-trembling wake into silver.

All was serene and calm, but the odorous breath of the willows

Smote with a mystical sense of infinite sorrow upon us.

I.

Red roses, in the slender vases burning,

Breathed all upon the air,––

The passion and the tenderness and yearning,

The waiting and the doubting and despair.

II.

Still with the music of her voice was haunted,

Through all its charméd rhymes,

The open book of such a one as chanted

The things he dreamed in old, old summer-times.

III.

The silvern chords of the piano trembled

Still with the music wrung

From them; the silence of the room dissembled

The closes of the songs that she had sung.

IV.

The languor of the crimson shawl’s abasement,––

Lying without a stir

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Upon the floor,––the absence at the casement,

The solitude and hush were full of her.

V.

Without, and going from the room, and never

Departing, did depart

Her steps; and one that came too late forever

Felt them go heavy o’er his broken heart.

VI.

And, sitting in the house’s desolation,

He could not bear the gloom,

The vanishing encounter and evasion

Of things that were and were not in the room.

VII.

Through midnight streets he followed fleeting visions

Of faces and of forms;

He heard old tendernesses and derisions

Amid the sobs and cries of midnight storms.

VIII.

By midnight lamps, and from the darkness under

That lamps made at their feet,

He saw sweet eyes peer out in innocent wonder,

And sadly follow after him down the street.

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IX.

The noonday crowds their restlessness obtruded

Between him and his quest;

At unseen corners jostled and eluded,

Against his hand her silken robes were pressed.

X.

Doors closed upon her; out of garret casements

He knew she looked at him;

In splendid mansions and in squalid basements,

Upon the walls he saw her shadow swim.

XI.

From rapid carriages she gleamed upon him,

Whirling away from sight;

From all the hopelessness of search she won him

Back to the dull and lonesome house at night.

XII.

Full early into dark the twilights saddened

Within its closéd doors;

The echoes, with the clock’s monotony maddened,

Leaped loud in welcome from the hollow floors;

XIII.

But gusts that blew all day with solemn laughter

From wide-mouthed chimney-places,

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And the strange noises between roof and rafter,

The wainscot clamor, and the scampering races

XIV.

Of mice that chased each other through the chambers,

And up and down the stair,

And rioted among the ashen embers,

And left their frolic footprints everywhere,––

XV.

Were hushed to hear his heavy tread ascending

The broad steps, one by one,

And toward the solitary chamber tending,

Where the dim phantom of his hope alone

XVI.

Rose up to meet him, with his growing nearer,

Eager for his embrace,

And moved, and melted into the white mirror,

And stared at him with his own haggard face.

XVII.

But, turning, he was ’ware her looks beheld him

Out of the mirror white;

And at the window yearning arms she held him,

Out of the vague and sombre fold of night.

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XVIII.

Sometimes she stood behind him, looking over

His shoulder as he read;

Sometimes he felt her shadowy presence hover

Above his dreamful sleep, beside his bed;

XIX.

And rising from his sleep, her shadowy presence

Followed his light descent

Of the long stair; her shadowy evanescence

Through all the whispering rooms before him went.

XX.

Upon the earthy draught of cellars blowing

His shivering lamp-flame blue,

Amid the damp and chill, he felt her flowing

Around him from the doors he entered through.

XXI.

The spiders wove their webs upon the ceiling;

The bat clung to the wall;

The dry leaves through the open transom stealing,

Skated and danced adown the empty hall.

XXII.

About him closed the utter desolation,

About him closed the gloom;

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The vanishing encounter and evasion

Of things that were and were not in the room

XXIII.

Vexed him forever; and his life forever

Immured and desolate,

Beating itself, with desperate endeavor,

But bruised itself, against the round of fate.

XXIV.

The roses, in their slender vases burning,

Were quenchéd long before;

A dust was on the rhymes of love and yearning;

The shawl was like a shroud upon the floor.

XXV.

Her music from the thrilling chords had perished;

The stillness was not moved

With memories of cadences long cherished,

The closes of the songs that she had loved.

XXVI.

But not the less he felt her presence never

Out of the room depart;

Over the threshold, not the less, forever

He felt her going on his broken heart.

I.

Full of beautiful blossoms

Stood the tree in early May:

Came a chilly gale from the sunset,

And blew the blossoms away;

Scattered them through the garden,

Tossed them into the mere:

The sad tree moaned and shuddered,

“Alas! the Fall is here.”

But all through the glowing summer

The blossomless tree throve fair,

And the fruit waxed ripe and mellow,

With sunny rain and air;

And when the dim October

With golden death was crowned,

Under its heavy branches

The tree stooped to the ground.

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In youth there comes a west-wind

Blowing our bloom away,––

A chilly breath of Autumn

Out of the lips of May.

We bear the ripe fruit after,––

Ah, me! for the thought of pain!––

We know the sweetness and beauty

And the heart-bloom never again.

II.

One sails away to sea,

One stands on the shore and cries;

The ship goes down the world, and the light

On the sullen water dies.

The whispering shell is mute,

And after is evil cheer:

She shall stand on the shore and cry in vain,

Many and many a year.

But the stately, wide-winged ship

Lies wrecked on the unknown deep;

Far under, dead in his coral bed,

The lover lies asleep.

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III.

Through the silent streets of the city,

In the night’s unbusy noon,

Up and down in the pallor

Of the languid summer moon,

I wander, and think of the village,

And the house in the maple-gloom,

And the porch with the honeysuckles

And the sweet-brier all abloom.

My soul is sick with the fragrance

Of the dewy sweet-brier’s breath:

O darling! the house is empty,

And lonesomer than death!

If I call, no one will answer;

If I knock, no one will come:

The feet are at rest forever,

And the lips are cold and dumb.

The summer moon is shining

So wan and large and still,

And the weary dead are sleeping

In the graveyard under the hill.

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IV.

We looked at the wide, white circle

Around the Autumn moon,

And talked of the change of weather:

It would rain, to-morrow, or soon.

And the rain came on the morrow,

And beat the dying leaves

From the shuddering boughs of the maples

Into the flooded eaves.

The clouds wept out their sorrow;

But in my heart the tears

Are bitter for want of weeping,

In all these Autumn years.

V.

The bobolink sings in the meadow,

The wren in the cherry-tree:

Come hither, thou little maiden,

And sit upon my knee;

And I will tell thee a story

I read in a book of rhyme;

I will but fain that it happened

To me, one summer-time,

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When we walked through the meadow,

And she and I were young.

The story is old and weary

With being said and sung.

The story is old and weary:

Ah, child! it is known to thee.

Who was it that last night kissed thee

Under the cherry-tree?

VI.

Like a bird of evil presage,

To the lonely house on the shore

Came the wind with a tale of shipwreck,

And shrieked at the bolted door,

And flapped its wings in the gables,

And shouted the well-known names,

And buffeted the windows

Afeard in their shuddering frames.

It was night, and it is morning,––

The summer sun is bland,

The white-cap waves come rocking, rocking,

In to the summer land.

The white-cap waves come rocking, rocking,

In the sun so soft and bright,

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And toss and play with the dead man

Drowned in the storm last night.

VII.

I remember the burning brushwood,

Glimmering all day long

Yellow and weak in the sunlight,

Now leaped up red and strong,

And fired the old dead chestnut,

That all our years had stood,

Gaunt and gray and ghostly,

Apart from the sombre wood;

And, flushed with sudden summer,

The leafless boughs on high

Blossomed in dreadful beauty

Against the darkened sky.

We children sat telling stories,

And boasting what we should be,

When we were men like our fathers,

And watched the blazing tree,

That showered its fiery blossoms,

Like a rain of stars, we said,

Of crimson and azure and purple.

That night, when I lay in bed,

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I could not sleep for seeing,

Whenever I closed my eyes,

The tree in its dazzling splendor

Against the darkened skies.

I cannot sleep for seeing,

With closéd eyes to-night,

The tree in its dazzling splendor

Dropping its blossoms bright;

And old, old dreams of childhood

Come thronging my weary brain,

Dear, foolish beliefs and longings:

I doubt, are they real again?

It is nothing, and nothing, and nothing,

That I either think or see:

The phantoms of dead illusions

To-night are haunting me.

All the long August afternoon,

The little drowsy stream

Whispers a melancholy tune,

As if it dreamed of June

And whispered in its dream.

The thistles show beyond the brook

Dust on their down and bloom,

And out of many a weed-grown nook

The aster-flowérs look

With eyes of tender gloom.

The silent orchard aisles are sweet

With smell of ripening fruit.

Through the sere grass, in shy retreat,

Flutter, at coming feet,

The robins strange and mute.

There is no wind to stir the leaves,

The harsh leaves overhead;

Only the querulous cricket grieves,

And shrilling locust weaves

A song of Summer dead.

The wet trees hang above the walks

Purple with damps and earthish stains,

And strewn by moody, absent rains

With rose-leaves from the wild-grown stalks.

Unmown, in heavy, tangled swaths,

The ripe June-grass is wanton blown;

Snails slime the untrodden threshold-stone;

Along the sills hang drowsy moths.

Down the blank visage of the wall,

Where many a wavering trace appears,

Like a forgotten trace of tears,

From swollen eaves the slow drops crawl.

Where everything was wide before,

The curious wind, that comes and goes,

Finds all the latticed windows close,

Secret and close the bolted door.

And with the shrewd and curious wind,

That in the archéd doorway cries,

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And at the bolted portal tries,

And harks and listens at the blind,––

Forever lurks my thought about,

And in the ghostly middle-night

Finds all the hidden windows bright,

And sees the guests go in and out,

And lingers till the pallid dawn,

And feels the mystery deeper there

In silent, gust-swept chambers, bare,

With all the midnight revel gone;

But wanders through the lonesome rooms,

Where harsh the astonished cricket calls,

And, from the hollows of the walls

Vanishing, start unshapen glooms;

And lingers yet, and cannot come

Out of the drear and desolate place,

So full of ruin’s solemn grace,

And haunted with the ghost of home.

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I stood on the brink in childhood,

And watched the bubbles go

From the rock-fretted, sunny ripple

To the smoother tide below;

And over the white creek-bottom,

Under them every one,

Went golden stars in the water,

All luminous with the sun.

But the bubbles broke on the surface,

And under, the stars of gold

Broke; and the hurrying water

Flowed onward, swift and cold.

II.

I stood on the brink in manhood,

And it came to my weary brain,

And my heart, so dull and heavy

After the years of pain,––

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That every hollowest bubble

Which over my life had passed

Still into its deeper current

Some heavenly gleam had cast;

That, however I mocked it gayly,

And guessed at its hollowness,

Still shone, with each bursting bubble,

One star in my soul the less.

One after one they left us;

The sweet birds out of our breasts

Went flying away in the morning:

Will they come again to their nests?

Will they come again at nightfall,

With God’s breath in their song?

Noon is fierce with the heats of summer,

And summer days are long!

O my Life, with thy upward liftings,

Thy downward-striking roots,

Ripening out of thy tender blossoms

But hard and bitter fruits!––

In thy boughs there is no shelter

For the birds to seek again.

The desolate nest is broken

And torn with storms and rain!

Yesterday, while I moved with the languid crowd on the Riva,

Musing with idle eyes on the wide lagoons and the islands,

And on the dim-seen seaward glimmering sails in the distance,

Where the azure haze, like a vision of Indian-Summer,

Haunted the dreamy sky of the soft Venetian December,––

While I moved unwilled in the mellow warmth of the weather,

Breathing air that was full of Old World sadness and beauty

Into my thought came this story of free, wild life in Ohio,

When the land was new, and yet by the Beautiful River

Dwelt the pioneers and Indian hunters and boatmen.

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Pealed from the campanili, responding from island to island,

Bells of that ancient faith whose incense and solemn devotions

Rise from a hundred shrines in the broken heart of the city;

But in my revery heard I only the passionate voices

Of the people that sang in the virgin heart of the forest.

Autumn was in the land, and the trees were golden and crimson,

And from the luminous boughs of the over-elms and the maples

Tender and beautiful fell the light in the worshippers’ faces,

Softer than lights that stream through the saints on the windows of churches,

While the balsamy breath of the hemlocks and pines by the river

Stole on the winds through the woodland aisles like the breath of a censer.

Loud the people sang old camp-meeting anthems that quaver

Quaintly yet from lips forgetful of lips that have kissed them;

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Loud they sang the songs of the Sacrifice and Atonement,

And of the end of the world, and the infinite terrors of Judgment:––

Songs of ineffable sorrow, and wailing, compassionate warning

Unto the generations that hardened their hearts to their Savior;

Songs of exultant rapture for them that confessed him and followed,

Bearing his burden and yoke, enduring and entering with him

Into the rest of his saints, and the endless reward of the blessed.

Loud the people sang; but through the sound of their singing

Broke inarticulate cries and moans and sobs from the mourners,

As the glory of God, that smote the apostle of Tarsus,

Smote them and strewed them to earth like leaves in the breath of the whirlwind.

Hushed at last was the sound of the lamentation and singing;

But from the distant hill the throbbing drum of the pheasant

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Shook with its heavy pulses the depths of the listening silence,

When from his place arose a white-haired exhorter, and faltered:

“Brethren and sisters in Jesus! the Lord hath heard our petitions,

So that the hearts of his servants are awed and melted within them,––

Even the hearts of the wicked are touched by his infinite mercy.

All my days in this vale of tears the Lord hath been with me,

He hath been good to me, he hath granted me trials and patience;

But this hour hath crowned my knowledge of him and his goodness.

Truly, but that it is well this day for me to be with you,

Now might I say to the Lord,––‘I know thee, my God, in all fulness;

Now let thy servant depart in peace to the rest thou hast promised!’”

Faltered and ceased. And now the wild and jubilant music

Of the singing burst from the solemn profound of the silence,

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Surged in triumph, and fell, and ebbed again into silence.

Then from the group of the preachers arose the greatest among them,––

He whose days were given in youth to the praise of the Savior,

He whose lips seemed touched, like the prophet’s of old, from the altar,

So that his words were flame, and burned to the hearts of his hearers,

Quickening the dead among them, reviving the cold and the doubting.

There he charged them pray, and rest not from prayer while a sinner

In the sound of their voices denied the Friend of the sinner:

“Pray till the night shall fall,––till the stars are faint in the morning,––

Yea, till the sun himself be faint in that glory and brightness,

Faint in the light which shall dawn in mercy for penitent sinners.”

Kneeling, he led them in prayer; and the quick and sobbing responses

Spake how their souls were moved with the might and the grace of the Spirit.

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Then while the converts recounted how God had chastened and saved them,––

Children, whose golden locks yet shone with the lingering effulgence

Of the touches of Him who blessed little children forever;

Old men, whose yearning eyes were dimmed with the far-streaming brightness

Seen through the opening gates in the heart of the heavenly city,––

Stealthily through the harking woods the lengthening shadows

Chased the wild things to their nests, and the twilight died into darkness.

Now the four great pyres that were placed there to light the encampment,

High on platforms raised above the people, were kindled.

Flaming aloof, as it were the pillar by night in the Desert

Fell their crimson light on the lifted orbs of the preachers,

Fell on the withered brows of the old men, and Israel’s mothers,

Fell on the bloom of youth, and the earnest devotion of manhood,

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Fell on the anguish and hope in the tearful eyes of the mourners.

Flaming aloof, it stirred the sleep of the luminous maples

With warm summer-dreams, and faint, luxurious languor.

Near the four great pyres the people closed in a circle,

In their midst the mourners, and, praying with them, the exhorters,

And on the skirts of the circle the unrepentant and scorners,––

Ever fewer and sadder, and drawn to the place of the mourners,

One after one, by the prayers and tears of the brethren and sisters,

And by the Spirit of God, that was mightily striving within them,

Till at the last alone stood Louis Lebeau, unconverted.

Louis Lebeau, the boatman, the trapper, the hunter, the fighter,

From the unlucky French of Gallipolis he descended,

Heir to Old World want and New World love of adventure.

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Vague was the life he led, and vague and grotesque were the rumors

Through which he loomed on the people,––the hero of mythical hearsay,

Quick of hand and of heart, impatient, generous, Western,

Taking the thought of the young in secret love and in envy.

Not less the elders shook their heads and held him for outcast,

Reprobate, roving, ungodly, infidel, worse than a Papist,

With his whispered fame of lawless exploits at St. Louis,

Wild affrays and loves with the half-breeds out on the Osage,

Brawls at New Orleans, and all the towns on the rivers,

All the godless towns of the many-ruffianed rivers.

Only she who loved him the best of all, in her loving

Knew him the best of all, and other than that of the rumors.

Daily she prayed for him, with conscious and tender effusion,

That the Lord would convert him. But when her father forbade him

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Unto her thought, she denied him, and likewise held him for outcast,

Turned her eyes when they met, and would not speak, though her heart broke.

Bitter and brief his logic that reasoned from wrong unto error:

“This is their praying and singing,” he said, “that makes you reject me,––

You that were kind to me once. But I think my fathers’ religion,

With a light heart in the breast and a friendly priest to absolve one,

Better than all these conversions that only bewilder and vex me,

And that have made men so hard and women fickle and cruel.

Well, then, pray for my soul, since you would not have spoken to save me,––

Yes; for I go from these saints to my brethren and sisters, the sinners.”

Spoke and went, while her faint lips fashioned unuttered entreaties,––

Went, and came again in a year at the time of the meeting,

Haggard and wan of face, and wasted with passion and sorrow.

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Dead in his eyes was the careless smile of old, and its phantom

Haunted his lips in a sneer of restless, incredulous mocking.

Day by day he came to the outer skirts of the circle,

Dwelling on her, where she knelt by the white-haired exhorter, her father,

With his hollow looks, and never moved from his silence.

Now, where he stood alone, the last of impenitent sinners,

Weeping, old friends and comrades came to him out of the circle,

And with their tears besought him to hear what the Lord had done for them.

Ever he shook them off, not roughly, nor smiled at their transports.

Then the preachers spoke and painted the terrors of Judgment,

And of the bottomless pit, and the flames of hell everlasting.

Still and dark he stood, and neither listened nor heeded;

But when the fervent voice of the white-haired exhorter was lifted,

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Fell his brows in a scowl of fierce and scornful rejection.

“Lord, let this soul be saved!” cried the fervent voice of the old man;

“For that the Shepherd rejoiceth more truly for one that hath wandered,

And hath been found again, than for all the others that strayed not.”

Out of the midst of the people, a woman old and decrepit,

Tremulous through the light, and tremulous into the shadow,

Wavered toward him with slow, uncertain paces of palsy,

Laid her quivering hand on his arm and brokenly prayed him:

“Louis Lebeau, I closed in death the eyes of your mother.

On my breast she died, in prayer for her fatherless children,

That they might know the Lord, and follow him always, and serve him.

O, I conjure you, my son, by the name of your mother in glory,

Scorn not the grace of the Lord!” As when a summer-noon’s tempest

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Breaks in one swift gush of rain, then ceases and gathers

Darker and gloomier yet on the lowering front of the heavens,

So broke his mood in tears, as he soothed her, and stilled her entreaties,

And so he turned again with his clouded looks to the people.

Vibrated then from the hush the accents of mournfullest pity,––

His who was gifted in speech, and the glow of the fires illumined

All his pallid aspect with sudden and marvellous splendor:

“Louis Lebeau,” he spake, “I have known you and loved you from childhood;

Still, when the others blamed you, I took your part, for I knew you.

Louis Lebeau, my brother, I thought to meet you in heaven,

Hand in hand with her who is gone to heaven before us,

Brothers through her dear love! I trusted to greet you and lead you

Up from the brink of the River unto the gates of the City.

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Lo! my years shall be few on the earth. O my brother,

If I should die before you had known the mercy of Jesus,

Yea, I think it would sadden the hope of glory within me!”

Neither yet had the will of the sinner yielded an answer;

But from his lips there broke a cry of unspeakable anguish,

Wild and fierce and shrill, as if some demon within him

Bent his soul with the ultimate pangs of fiendish possession;

And with the outstretched arms of bewildered imploring toward them,

Death-white unto the people he turned his face from the darkness.

Out of the sedge by the creek a flight of clamorous killdees

Rose from their timorous sleep with piercing and iterant challenge,

Wheeled in the starlight, and fled away into distance and silence.

White in the vale lay the tents, and beyond them glided the river,

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Where the broadhorn[1] drifted slow at the will of the current,

And where the boatman listened, and knew not how, as he listened,

Something touched through the years the old lost hopes of his childhood,––

Only his sense was filled with low, monotonous murmurs,

As of a faint-heard prayer, that was chorused with deeper responses.

Not with the rest was lifted her voice in the fervent responses,

But in her soul she prayed to Him that heareth in secret,

Asking for light and for strength to learn his will and to do it:

“O, make me clear to know if the hope that rises within me

Be not part of a love unmeet for me here, and forbidden!

So, if it be not that, make me strong for the evil entreaty

Of the days that shall bring me question of self and reproaches,

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When the unrighteous shall mock, and my brethren and sisters shall doubt me!

Make me worthy to know thy will, my Savior, and do it!”

In her pain she prayed, and at last, through her mute adoration,

Rapt from all mortal presence, and in her rapture uplifted,

Glorified she rose, and stood in the midst of the people,

Looking on all with the still, unseeing eyes of devotion,––

Vague, and tender, and sweet, as the eyes of the dead, when we dream them

Living and looking on us, but they cannot speak, and we cannot,––

Knowing only the peril that threatened his soul’s unrepentance,

Knowing only the fear and error and wrong that withheld him,

Thinking, “In doubt of me, his soul had perished forever!”

Touched with no feeble shame, but trusting her power to save him,

Through the circle she passed, and straight to the side of her lover,

Took his hand in her own, and mutely implored him an instant,

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Answering, giving, forgiving, confessing, beseeching him all things;

Drew him then with her, and passed once more through the circle

Unto her place, and knelt with him there by the side of her father,

Trembling as women tremble who greatly venture and triumph,––

But in her innocent breast was the saint’s sublime exultation.

So was Louis converted; and though the lips of the scorners

Spared not in after years the subtle taunt and derision

(What time, meeker grown, his heart held his hand from its answer),

Not the less lofty and pure her love and her faith that had saved him,

Not the less now discerned was her inspiration from heaven

By the people, that rose, and embracing and weeping together,

Poured forth their jubilant songs of victory and of thanksgiving,

Till from the embers leaped the dying flame to behold them,

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And the hills of the river were filled with reverberant echoes,––

Echoes that out of the years and the distance stole to me hither,

While I moved unwilled in the mellow warmth of the weather;

Echoes that mingled and fainted and fell with the fluttering murmurs

In the hearts of the hushing bells, as from island to island

Swooned the sound on the wide lagoons into palpitant silence.

I.

She hung the cage at the window:

“If he goes by,” she said,

“He will hear my robin singing,

And when he lifts his head,

I shall be sitting here to sew,

And he will bow to me, I know.”

The robin sang a love-sweet song,

The young man raised his head;

The maiden turned away and blushed:

“I am a fool!” she said,

And went on broidering in silk

A pink-eyed rabbit, white as milk.

II.

The young man loitered slowly

By the house three times that day;

She took her bird from the window:

“He need not look this way.”

She sat at her piano long,

And sighed, and played a death-sad song.

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But when the day was done, she said,

“I wish that he would come!

Remember, Mary, if he calls

To-night––I’m not at home.”

So when he rang, she went––the elf!––

She went and let him in herself.

III.

They sang full long together

Their songs love-sweet, death-sad;

The robin woke from his slumber,

And rang out, clear and glad.

“Now go!” she coldly said; “’tis late;”

And followed him––to latch the gate.

He took the rosebud from her hair,

While, “You shall not!” she said;

He closed her hand within his own,

And, while her tongue forbade,

Her will was darkened in the eclipse

Of blinding love upon his lips.

I.

I know they won the faint perfume,

That to their faded pages clings,

From gloves, and handkerchiefs, and things

Kept in the soft and scented gloom

Of some mysterious box––poor leaves

Of summer, now as sere and dead

As any leaves of summer shed

From crimson boughs when autumn grieves!

The ghost of fragrance! Yet I thrill

All through with such delicious pain

Of soul and sense, to breathe again

The sweet that haunted memory still.

And under these December skies,

As bland as May’s in other climes,

I move, and muse my idle rhymes

And subtly sentimentalize.

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I hear the music that was played,––

The songs that silence knows by heart!––

I see sweet burlesque feigning art,

The careless grace that curved and swayed

Through dances and through breezy walks;

I feel once more the eyes that smiled,

And that dear presence that beguiled

The pauses of the foolish talks,

When this poor phantom of perfume

Was the Sweet Clover’s living soul,

And breathed from her as if it stole,

Ah, heaven! from her heart in bloom!

II.

We have not many ways with pain:

We weep weak tears, or else we laugh;

I doubt, not less the cup we quaff,

And tears and scorn alike are vain.

But let me live my quiet life;

I will not vex my calm with grief,

I only know the pang was brief,

And there an end of hope and strife.

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And thou? I put the letters by:

In years the sweetness shall not pass;

More than the perfect blossom was

I count its lingering memory.

Alas! with Time dear Love is dead,

And not with Fate. And who can guess

How weary of our happiness

We might have been if we were wed?

I.

Confronting each other the pictures stare

Into each other’s sleepless eyes;

And the daylight into the darkness dies,

From year to year in the palace there:

But they watch and guard that no device

Take either one of them unaware.

Their majesties the king and the queen,

The parents of the reigning prince:

Both put off royalty many years since,

With life and the gifts that have always been

Given to kings from God, to evince

His sense of the mighty over the mean.

I cannot say that I like the face

Of the king; it is something fat and red;

And the neck that lifts the royal head

Is thick and coarse; and a scanty grace

Dwells in the dull blue eyes that are laid

Sullenly on the queen in her place.

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He must have been a king in his day

’Twere well to pleasure in work and sport:

One of the heaven-anointed sort

Who ruled his people with iron sway,

And knew that, through good and evil report,

God meant him to rule and them to obey.

There are many other likenesses

Of the king in his royal palace there;

You find him depicted everywhere,––

In his robes of state, in his hunting-dress,

In his flowing wig, in his powdered hair,––

A king in all of them, none the less;

But most himself in this on the wall

Over against his consort, whose

Laces, and hoops, and high-heeled shoes

Make her the finest lady of all

The queens or courtly dames you choose,

In the ancestral portrait hall.

A glorious blonde: a luxury

Of luring blue and wanton gold,

Of blanchéd rose and crimson bold,

Of lines that flow voluptuously

In tender, languorous curves to fold

Her form in perfect symmetry.

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She might have been false. Of her withered dust

There scarcely would be enough to write

Her guilt in now; and the dead have a right

To our lenient doubt if not to our trust:

So if the truth cannot make her white,

Let us be as merciful as we––must.

II.

The queen died first, the queen died young,

But the king was very old when he died,

Rotten with license, and lust, and pride;

And the usual Virtues came and hung

Their cypress wreaths on his tomb, and wide

Throughout his kingdom his praise was sung.

How the queen died is not certainly known,

And faithful subjects are all forbid

To speak of the murder which some one did

One night while she slept in the dark alone:

History keeps the story hid,

And Fear only tells it in undertone.

Up from your startled feet aloof,

In the famous Echo-Room, with a bound

Leaps the echo, and round and round

Beating itself against the roof,––

A horrible, gasping, shuddering sound,––

Dies ere its terror can utter proof

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Of that it knows. A door is fast,

And none is suffered to enter there.

His sacred majesty could not bear

To look at it toward the last,

As he grew very old. It opened where

The queen died young so many years past.

III.

How the queen died is not certainly known;

But in the palace’s solitude

A harking dread and horror brood,

And a silence, as if a mortal groan

Had been hushed the moment before, and would

Break forth again when you were gone.

The present king has never dwelt

In the desolate palace. From year to year

In the wide and stately garden drear

The snows and the snowy blossoms melt

Unheeded, and a ghastly fear

Through all the shivering leaves is felt.

By night the gathering shadows creep

Along the dusk and hollow halls,

And the slumber-broken palace calls

With stifled moans from its nightmare sleep;

And then the ghostly moonlight falls

Athwart the darkness brown and deep.

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At early dawn the light wind sighs,

And through the desert garden blows

The wasted sweetness of the rose;

At noon the feverish sunshine lies

Sick in the walks. But at evening’s close,

When the last, long rays to the windows rise,

And with many a blood-red, wrathful streak

Pierce through the twilight glooms that blur

His cruel vigilance and her

Regard, they light fierce looks that wreak

A hopeless hate that cannot stir,

A voiceless hate that cannot speak

In the awful calm of the sleepless eyes;

And as if she saw her murderer glare

On her face, and he the white despair

Of his victim kindle in wild surmise,

Confronted the conscious pictures stare,––

And their secret back into darkness dies.

I.

Federigo, the son of the Marquis,

Downcast, through the garden goes:

He is hurt with the grace of the lily,

And the beauty of the rose.

For what is the grace of the lily

But her own slender grace?

And what is the rose’s beauty

But the beauty of her face?––

Who sits beside her window

Waiting to welcome him,

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That comes so lothly toward her

With his visage sick and dim.

“Ah! lily, I come to break thee!

Ah! rose, a bitter rain

Of tears shall beat thy light out

That thou never burn again!”

II.

Federigo, the son of the Marquis,

Takes the lady by the hand:

“Thou must bid me God-speed on a journey,

For I leave my native land.

“From Mantua to-morrow

I go, a banished man;

Make me glad for truth and love’s sake

Of my father’s curse and ban.

“Our quarrel has left my mother

Like death upon the floor;

And I come from a furious presence

I never shall enter more.

“I would not wed the woman

He had chosen for my bride,

For my heart had been before him,

With his statecraft and his pride.

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“I swore to him by my princehood

In my love I would be free;

And I swear to thee by my manhood,

I love no one but thee.

“Let the Duke of Bavaria marry

His daughter to whom he will:

There where my love was given

My word shall be faithful still.

“There are six true hearts will follow

My truth wherever I go,

And thou equal truth wilt keep me

In welfare and in woe.”

The maiden answered him nothing

Of herself, but his words again

Came back through her lips like an echo

From an abyss of pain;

And vacantly repeating

“In welfare and in woe,”

Like a dream from the heart of fever

From her arms she felt him go.

III.

Out of Mantua’s gate at daybreak

Seven comrades wander forth

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On a path that leads at their humor,

East, west, or south, or north.

The prince’s laugh rings lightly,

“What road shall we take from home?”

And they answer, “We never shall lose it

If we take the road to Rome.”

And with many a jest and banter

The comrades keep their way,

Journeying out of the twilight

Forward into the day,

When they are aware beside them

Goes a pretty minstrel lad,

With a shy and downward aspect,

That is neither sad nor glad.

Over his slender shoulder,

His mandolin was slung,

And around its chords the treasure

Of his golden tresses hung.

Spoke one of the seven companions,

“Little minstrel, whither away?”––

“With seven true-hearted comrades

On their journey, if I may.”

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Spoke one of the seven companions,

“If our way be hard and long?”––

“I will lighten it with my music

And shorten it with my song.”

Spoke one of the seven companions,

“But what are the songs thou know’st?”––

“O, I know many a ditty,

But this I sing the most:

“How once was an humble maiden

Beloved of a great lord’s son,

That for her sake and his troth’s sake

Was banished and undone.

“And forth of his father’s city

He went at break of day,

And the maiden softly followed

Behind him on the way

“In the figure of a minstrel,

And prayed him of his love,

‘Let me go with thee and serve thee

Wherever thou may’st rove.

“‘For if thou goest in exile

I rest banished at home,

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And where thou wanderest with thee

My fears in anguish roam,

“‘Besetting thy path with perils,

Making thee hungry and cold,

Filling thy heart with trouble

And heaviness untold.

“‘But let me go beside thee,

And banishment shall be

Honor, and riches, and country,

And home to thee and me!’”

Down falls the minstrel-maiden

Before the Marquis’ son,

And the six true-hearted comrades

Bow round them every one.

Federigo, the son of the Marquis,

From its scabbard draws his sword:

“Now swear by the honor and fealty

Ye bear your friend and lord,

“That whenever, and wherever,

As long as ye have life,

Ye will honor and serve this lady

As ye would your prince’s wife!”

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IV.

Over the broad expanses

Of garlanded Lombardy,

Where the gentle vines are swinging

In the orchards from tree to tree;

Through Padua from Verona,

From the sculptured gothic town,

Carved from ruin upon ruin,

And ancienter than renown;

Through Padua from Verona

To fair Venice, where she stands

With her feet on subject waters,

Lady of many lands;

From Venice by sea to Ancona;

From Ancona to the west;

Climbing many a gardened hillside

And many a castled crest;

Through valleys dim with the twilight

Of their gray olive trees;

Over plains that swim with harvests

Like golden noonday seas;

Whence the lofty campanili

Like the masts of ships arise,

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And like a fleet at anchor

Under them, the village lies;

To Florence beside her Arno,

In her many-marbled pride,

Crowned with infamy and glory

By the sons she has denied;

To pitiless Pisa, where never

Since the anguish of Ugolin

The moon in the Tower of Famine[3]

Fate so dread as his hath seen;

Out through the gates of Pisa

To Livorno on her bay,

To Genoa and to Naples

The comrades hold their way,

Past the Guelph in his town beleaguered,

Past the fortressed Ghibelline,

Through lands that reek with slaughter,

Treason, and shame, and sin;

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By desert, by sea, by city,

High hill-cope and temple-dome,

Through pestilence, hunger, and horror,

Upon the road to Rome;

While every land behind them

Forgets them as they go,

And in Mantua they are remembered

As is the last year’s snow;

But the Marchioness goes to her chamber

Day after day to weep,––

For the changeless heart of a mother

The love of a son must keep.

The Marchioness weeps in her chamber

Over tidings that come to her

Of the exiles she seeks, by letter

And by lips of messenger,

Broken hints of their sojourn and absence,

Comfortless, vague, and slight,––

Like feathers wafted backwards

From passage birds in flight.[4]

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The tale of a drunken sailor,

In whose ship they went to sea;

A traveller’s evening story

At a village hostelry,

Of certain comrades sent him

By our Lady, of her grace,

To save his life from robbers

In a lonely desert place;

Word from the monks of a convent

Of gentle comrades that lay

One stormy night at their convent,

And passed with the storm at day;

The long parley of a peasant

That sold them wine and food,

The gossip of a shepherd

That guided them through a wood;

A boatman’s talk at the ferry

Of a river where they crossed,

And as if they had sunk in the current

All trace of them was lost;

And so is an end of tidings

But never an end of tears,

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Of secret and friendless sorrow

Through blank and silent years.

V.

To the Marchioness in her chamber

Sends word a messenger,

Newly come from the land of Naples,

Praying for speech with her.

The messenger stands before her,

A minstrel slender and wan:

“In a village of my country

Lies a Mantuan gentleman,

“Sick of a smouldering fever,

Of sorrow and poverty;

And no one in all that country

Knows his title or degree.

“But six true Mantuan peasants,

Or nobles, as some men say,

Watch by the sick man’s bedside,

And toil for him, night and day,

“Hewing, digging, reaping, sowing,

Bearing burdens, and far and nigh

Begging for him on the highway

Of the strangers that pass by;

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“And they look whenever you meet them

Like broken-hearted men,

And I heard that the sick man would not

If he could, be well again;

“For they say that he for love’s sake

Was gladly banishèd,

But she for whom he was banished

Is worse to him, now, than dead,––

“A recreant to his sorrow,

A traitress to his woe.”

From her place the Marchioness rises,

The minstrel turns to go.

But fast by the hand she takes him,––

His hand in her clasp is cold,––

“If gold may be thy guerdon

Thou shalt not lack for gold;

“And if the love of a mother

Can bless thee for that thou hast done,

Thou shalt stay and be his brother,

Thou shalt stay and be my son.”

“Nay, my lady,” answered the minstrel,

And his face is deadly pale,

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“Nay, this must not be, sweet lady,

But let my words prevail.

“Let me go now from your presence,

And I will come again,

When you stand with your son beside you,

And be your servant then.”

VI.

At the feet of the Marquis Gonzaga

Kneels his lady on the floor;

“Lord, grant me before I ask it

The thing that I implore.”

“So it be not of that ingrate.”––

“Nay, lord, it is of him.”

’Neath the stormy brows of the Marquis

His eyes are tender and dim.

“He lies sick of a fever in Naples,

Near unto death, as they tell,

In his need and pain forsaken

By the wanton he loved so well.

“Now send for him and forgive him,

If ever thou loved’st me,

Now send for him and forgive him

As God shall be good to thee.”

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“Well so,––if he turn in repentance

And bow himself to my will;

That the high-born lady I chose him

May be my daughter still.”

VII.

In Mantua there is feasting

For the Marquis’ grace to his son;

In Mantua there is rejoicing

For the prince come back to his own.

The pomp of a wedding procession

Pauses under the pillared porch,

With silken rustle and whisper,

Before the door of the church.

In the midst, Federigo the bridegroom

Stands with his high-born bride;

The six true-hearted comrades

Are three on either side.

The bridegroom is gray as his father,

Where they stand face to face,

And the six true-hearted comrades

Are like old men in their place.

The Marquis takes the comrades

And kisses them one by one:

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“That ye were fast and faithful

And better than I to my son,

“Ye shall be called forever,

In the sign that ye were so true,

The Faithful of the Gonzaga,

And your sons after you.”

VIII.

To the Marchioness comes a courtier:

“I am prayed to bring you word

That the minstrel keeps his promise

Who brought you news of my lord;

“And he waits without the circle

To kiss your highness’ hand;

And he asks no gold for guerdon,

But before he leaves the land

“He craves of your love once proffered

That you suffer him for reward,

In this crowning hour of his glory,

To look on your son, my lord.”

Through the silken press of the courtiers

The minstrel faltered in.

His claspèd hands were bloodless,

His face was white and thin;

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And he bent his knee to the lady,

But of her love and grace

To her heart she raised him and kissed him

Upon his gentle face.

Turned to her son the bridegroom,

Turned to his high-born wife,

“I give you here for your brother

Who gave back my son to life.

“For this youth brought me news from Naples

How thou layest sick and poor,

By true comrades kept, and forsaken

By a false paramour.

“Wherefore I charge you love him

For a brother that is my son.”

The comrades turned to the bridegroom

In silence every one.

But the bridegroom looked on the minstrel

With a visage blank and changed,

As his whom the sight of a spectre

From his reason hath estranged;

And the smiling courtiers near them

On a sudden were still as death;

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And, subtly-stricken, the people

Hearkened and held their breath

With an awe uncomprehended

For an unseen agony:––

Who is this that lies a-dying,

With her head on the prince’s knee?

A light of anguish and wonder

Is in the prince’s eye,

“O, speak, sweet saint, and forgive me,

Or I cannot let thee die!

“For now I see thy hardness

Was softer than mortal ruth,

And thy heavenly guile was whiter,

My saint, than martyr’s truth.”

She speaks not and she moves not,

But a blessed brightness lies

On her lips in their silent rapture

And her tender closèd eyes.

Federigo, the son of the Marquis,

He rises from his knee:

“Aye, you have been good, my father,

To them that were good to me.

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“You have given them honors and titles,

But here lies one unknown––

Ah, God reward her in heaven

With the peace he gives his own!”

Ah me! is it then true that the year has waxed unto waning,

And that so soon must remain nothing but lapse and decay,––

Earliest cricket, that out of the midsummer midnight complaining,

All the faint summer in me takest with subtle dismay?

Though thou bringest no dream of frost to the flowers that slumber,

Though no tree for its leaves, doomed of thy voice, maketh moan,

Yet with th’ unconscious earth’s boded evil my soul thou dost cumber,

And in the year’s lost youth makest me still lose my own.

Answerest thou, that when nights of December are blackest and bleakest,

And when the fervid grate feigns me a May in my room,

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And by my hearthstone gay, as now sad in my garden, thou creakest,––

Thou wilt again give me all,––dew and fragrance and bloom?

Nay, little poet! full many a cricket I have that is willing,

If I but take him down out of his place on my shelf,

Me blither lays to sing than the blithest known to thy shrilling,

Full of the rapture of life, May, morn, hope, and––himself:

Leaving me only the sadder; for never one of my singers

Lures back the bee to his feast, calls back the bird to his tree.

Hast thou no art can make me believe, while the summer yet lingers,

Better than bloom that has been red leaf and sere that must be?

I.

On the Rialto Bridge we stand;

The street ebbs under and makes no sound;

But, with bargains shrieked on every hand,

The noisy market rings around.

“Mulberries, fine mulberries, here!”

A tuneful voice,––and light, light measure;

Though I hardly should count these mulberries dear,

If I paid three times the price for my pleasure.

Brown hands splashed with mulberry blood,

The basket wreathed with mulberry leaves

Hiding the berries beneath them;––good!

Let us take whatever the young rogue gives.

For you know, old friend, I haven’t eaten

A mulberry since the ignorant joy

Of anything sweet in the mouth could sweeten

All this bitter world for a boy.

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II.

O, I mind the tree in the meadow stood

By the road near the hill: when I clomb aloof

On its branches, this side of the girdled wood,

I could see the top of our cabin roof.

And, looking westward, could sweep the shores

Of the river where we used to swim

Under the ghostly sycamores,

Haunting the waters smooth and dim;

And eastward athwart the pasture-lot

And over the milk-white buckwheat field

I could see the stately elm, where I shot

The first black squirrel I ever killed.

And southward over the bottom-land

I could see the mellow breadths of farm

From the river-shores to the hills expand,

Clasped in the curving river’s arm.

In the fields we set our guileless snares

For rabbits and pigeons and wary quails,

Content with the vaguest feathers and hairs

From doubtful wings and vanished tails.

And in the blue summer afternoon

We used to sit in the mulberry-tree:

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The breaths of wind that remembered June

Shook the leaves and glittering berries free;

And while we watched the wagons go

Across the river, along the road,

To the mill above, or the mill below,

With horses that stooped to the heavy load,

We told old stories and made new plans,

And felt our hearts gladden within us again,

For we did not dream that this life of a man’s

Could ever be what we know as men.

We sat so still that the woodpeckers came

And pillaged the berries overhead;

From his log the chipmonk, waxen tame,

Peered, and listened to what we said.

III.

One of us long ago was carried

To his grave on the hill above the tree;

One is a farmer there, and married;

One has wandered over the sea.

And, if you ask me, I hardly know

Whether I’d be the dead or the clown,––

The clod above or the clay below,––

Or this listless dust by fortune blown

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To alien lands. For, however it is,

So little we keep with us in life:

At best we win only victories,

Not peace, not peace, O friend, in this strife.

But if I could turn from the long defeat

Of the little successes once more, and be

A boy, with the whole wide world at my feet,

Under the shade of the mulberry-tree,––

From the shame of the squandered chances, the sleep

Of the will that cannot itself awaken,

From the promise the future can never keep,

From the fitful purposes vague and shaken,––

Then, while the grasshopper sang out shrill

In the grass beneath the blanching thistle,

And the afternoon air, with a tender thrill,

Harked to the quail’s complaining whistle,––

Ah me! should I paint the morrows again

In quite the colors so faint to-day,

And with the imperial mulberry’s stain

Re-purple life’s doublet of hodden-gray?

Know again the losses of disillusion?

For the sake of the hope, have the old deceit?––

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In spite of the question’s bitter infusion,

Don’t you find these mulberries over-sweet?

All our atoms are changed, they say;

And the taste is so different since then;

We live, but a world has passed away

With the years that perished to make us men.

They gave the whole long day to idle laughter,

To fitful song and jest,

To moods of soberness as idle, after,

And silences, as idle too as the rest.

But when at last upon their way returning,

Taciturn, late, and loath,

Through the broad meadow in the sunset burning,

They reached the gate, one fine spell hindered them both.

Her heart was troubled with a subtile anguish

Such as but women know

That wait, and lest love speak or speak not languish,

And what they would, would rather they would not so;

Till he said,––man-like nothing comprehending

Of all the wondrous guile

That women won win themselves with, and bending

Eyes of relentless asking on her the while,––

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“Ah, if beyond this gate the path united

Our steps as far as death,

And I might open it!––” His voice, affrighted

At its own daring, faltered under his breath.

Then she––whom both his faith and fear enchanted

Far beyond words to tell,

Feeling her woman’s finest wit had wanted

The art he had that knew to blunder so well––

Shyly drew near, a little step, and mocking,

“Shall we not be too late

For tea?” she said. “I’m quite worn out with walking:

Yes, thanks, your arm. And will you––open the gate?”

I.

That time of year, you know, when the summer, beginning to sadden,

Full-mooned and silver-misted, glides from the heart of September,

Mourned by disconsolate crickets, and iterant grasshoppers, crying

All the still nights long, from the ripened abundance of gardens;

Then, ere the boughs of the maples are mantled with earliest autumn,

But the wind of autumn breathes from the orchards at nightfall,

Full of winy perfume and mystical yearning and languor;

And in the noonday woods you hear the foraging squirrels,

And the long, crashing fall of the half-eaten nut from the tree-top;

When the robins are mute, and the yellow-birds, haunting the thistles,

Cheep, and twitter, and flit through the dusty lanes and the loppings,

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When the pheasant booms from your stealthy foot in the cornfield,

And the wild-pigeons feed, few and shy, in the scoke-berry bushes;

When the weary land lies hushed, like a seer in a vision,

And your life seems but the dream of a dream which you cannot remember,––

Broken, bewildering, vague, an echo that answers to nothing!

That time of year, you know. They stood by the gate in the meadow,

Fronting the sinking sun, and the level stream of its splendor

Crimsoned the meadow-slope and woodland with tenderest sunset,

Made her beautiful face like the luminous face of an angel,

Smote through the painéd gloom of his heart like a hurt to the sense, there.

Languidly clung about by the half-fallen shawl, and with folded

Hands, that held a few sad asters: “I sigh for this idyl

Lived at last to an end; and, looking on to my prose-life,”

With a smile, she said, and a subtle derision of manner,

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“Better and better I seem, when I recollect all that has happened

Since I came here in June: the walks we have taken together

Through these darling meadows, and dear, old, desolate woodlands;

All our afternoon readings, and all our strolls through the moonlit

Village,––so sweetly asleep, one scarcely could credit the scandal,

Heartache, and trouble, and spite, that were hushed for the night, in its silence.

Yes, I am better. I think I could even be civil to him for his kindness,

Letting me come here without him.... But open the gate, Cousin Clement;

Seems to me it grows chill, and I think it is healthier in-doors.

––No, then I you need not speak, for I know well enough what is coming:

Bitter taunts for the past, and discouraging views of the future?

Tragedy, Cousin Clement, or comedy,––just as you like it;––

Only not here alone, but somewhere that people can see you.

Then I’ll take part in the play, and appear the remorseful young person

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Full of divine regrets at not having smothered a genius

Under the feathers and silks of a foolish, extravagant woman.

O you selfish boy! what was it, just now, about anguish?

Bills would be your talk, Cousin Clement, if you were my husband.”

Then, with her summer-night glory of eyes low-bending upon him,

Dark’ning his thoughts as the pondered stars bewilder and darken,

Tenderly, wistfully drooping toward him, she faltered in whisper,––

All her mocking face transfigured,––with mournful effusion:

“Clement, do not think it is you alone that remember,––

Do not think it is you alone that have suffered. Ambition,

Fame, and your art,––you have all these things to console you.

I––what have I in this world? Since my child is dead––a bereavement.”

Sad hung her eyes on his, and he felt all the anger within him

Broken, and melting in tears. But he shrank from her touch while he answered

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(Awkwardly, being a man, and awkwardly, being a lover),

“Yes, you know how it is done. You have cleverly fooled me beforetime,

With a dainty scorn, and then an imploring forgiveness!

Yes, you might play it, I think,––that rôle of remorseful young person,

That, or the old man’s darling, or anything else you attempted.

Even your earnest is so much like acting I fear a betrayal,

Trusting your speech. You say that you have not forgotten. I grant you––

Not, indeed, for your word––that is light––but I wish to believe you.

Well, I say, since you have not forgotten, forget now, forever!

I––I have lived and loved, and you have lived and have married.

Only receive this bud to remember me when we have parted,––

Thorns and splendor, no sweetness, rose of the love that I cherished!”

There he tore from its stalk the imperial flower of the thistle,

Tore, and gave to her, who took it with mocking obeisance,

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Twined it in her hair, and said, with her subtle derision:

“You are a wiser man than I thought you could ever be, Clement,––

Sensible, almost. So! I’ll try to forget and remember.”

Lightly she took his arm, but on through the lane to the farm-house,

Mutely together they moved through the lonesome, odorous twilight.

II.

High on the farm-house hearth, the first autumn fire was kindled;

Scintillant hickory bark and dryest limbs of the beech-tree

Burned, where all summer long the boughs of asparagus flourished.

Wild were the children with mirth, and grouping and clinging together,

Danced with the dancing flame, and lithely swayed with its humor;

Ran to the window-panes, and peering forth into the darkness,

Saw there another room, flame-lit, and with frolicking children.

(Ah! by such phantom hearths, I think that we sit with our first-loves!)

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Sometimes they tossed on the floor, and sometimes they hid in the corners,

Shouting and laughing aloud, and never resting a moment,

In the rude delight, the boisterous gladness of childhood,––

Cruel as summer sun and singing-birds to the heartsick.

Clement sat in his chair unmoved in the midst of the hubbub,

Rapt, with unseeing eyes; and unafraid in their gambols,

By his tawny beard the children caught him, and clambered

Over his knees, and waged a mimic warfare across them,

Made him their battle-ground, and won and lost kingdoms upon him.

Airily to and fro, and out of one room to another

Passed his cousin, and busied herself with things of the household,

Nonchalant, debonair, blithe, with bewitching housewifely importance,

Laying the cloth for the supper, and bringing the meal from the kitchen;

Fairer than ever she seemed, and more than ever she mocked him,

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Coming behind his chair, and clasping her fingers together

Over his eyes in a girlish caprice, and crying, “Who is it?”

Vexed his despair with a vision of wife and of home and of children,

Calling his sister’s children around her, and stilling their clamor,

Making believe they were hers. And Clement sat moody and silent,

Blank to the wistful gaze of his mother bent on his visage

With the tender pain, the pitiful, helpless devotion

Of the mother that looks on the face of her son in his trouble,

Grown beyond her consoling, and knows that she cannot befriend him.

Then his cousin laughed, and in idleness talked with the children;

Sometimes she turned to him, and then when the thistle was falling,

Caught it and twined it again in her hair, and called it her keepsake,

Smiled, and made him ashamed of his petulant gift there, before them.

But, when the night was grown old and the two by the hearthstone together

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Sat alone in the flickering red of the flame, and the cricket

Carked to the stillness, and ever, with sullen throbs of the pendule

Sighed the time-worn clock for the death of the days that were perished,––

It was her whim to be sad, and she brought him the book they were reading.

“Read it to-night,” she said, “that I may not seem to be going.”

Said, and mutely reproached him with all the pain she had wrought him.

From her hand he took the volume and read, and she listened,––

All his voice molten in secret tears, and ebbing and flowing,

Now with a faltering breath, and now with impassioned abandon,––

Read from the book of a poet the rhyme of the fatally sundered,

Fatally met too late, and their love was their guilt and their anguish,

But in the night they rose, and fled away into the darkness,

Glad of all dangers and shames, and even of death, for their love’s sake.

Then, when his voice brake hollowly, falling and fading to silence,

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Thrilled in the silence they sat, and durst not behold one another,

Feeling that wild temptation, that tender, ineffable yearning,

Drawing them heart to heart. One blind, mad moment of passion

With their fate they strove; but out of the pang of the conflict,

Through such costly triumph as wins a waste and a famine,

Victors they came, and Love retrieved the error of loving.

So, foreknowing the years, and sharply discerning the future,

Guessing the riddle of life, and accepting the cruel solution,––

Side by side they sat, as far as the stars are asunder.

Carked the cricket no more, but while the audible silence

Shrilled in their ears, she, suddenly rising and dragging the thistle

Out of her clinging hair, laughed mockingly, casting it from her:

“Perish the thorns and splendor,––the bloom and the sweetness are perished.

Dreary, respectable calm, polite despair, and one’s Duty,––

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These and the world, for dead Love!––The end of these modern romances!

Better than yonder rhyme?... Pleasant dreams and good night, Cousin Clement.”

I walked with her I love by the sea,

The deep came up with its chanting waves,

Making a music so great and free

That the will and the faith, which were dead in me,

Awoke and rose from their graves.

Chanting, and with a regal sweep

Of their ’broidered garments up and down

The strand, came the mighty waves of the deep,

Dragging the wave-worn drift from its sleep

Along the sea-sands bare and brown.

“O my soul, make the song of the sea!” I cried.

“How it comes, with its stately tread,

And its dreadful voice, and the splendid pride

Of its regal garments flowing wide

Over the land!” to my soul I said.

My soul was still; the deep went down.

“What hast thou, my soul,” I cried,

“In thy song?” “The sea-sands bare and brown,

With broken shells and sea-weed strown,

And stranded drift,” my soul replied.

In the narrow Venetian street,

On the wall above the garden gate

(Within, the breath of the rose is sweet,

And the nightingale sings there, soon and late),

Stands Saint Christopher, carven in stone,

With the little child in his huge caress,

And the arms of the baby Jesus thrown

About his gigantic tenderness;

And over the wall a wandering growth

Of darkest and greenest ivy clings,

And climbs around them, and holds them both

In its netted clasp of knots and rings,

Clothing the saint from foot to beard

In glittering leaves that whisper and dance

To the child, on his mighty arm upreared,

With a lusty summer exuberance.

To the child on his arm the faithful saint

Looks up with a broad and tranquil joy;

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His brows and his heavy beard aslant

Under the dimpled chin of the boy,

Who plays with the world upon his palm,

And bends his smiling looks divine

On the face of the giant mild and calm,

And the glittering frolic of the vine.

He smiles on either with equal grace,––

On the simple ivy’s unconscious life,

And the soul in the giant’s lifted face,

Strong from the peril of the strife:

For both are his own,––the innocence

That climbs from the heart of earth to heaven,

And the virtue that gently rises thence

Through trial sent and victory given.

Grow, ivy, up to his countenance,

But it cannot smile on my life as on thine;

Look, Saint, with thy trustful, fearless glance,

Where I dare not lift these eyes of mine.

I.

In the early morning when I wake

At the hour that is sacred for his sake,

And hear the happy birds of spring

In the garden under my window sing,

And through my window the daybreak blows

The sweetness of the lily and rose,

A dormant anguish wakes with day,

And my heart is smitten with strange dismay:

Distance wider than thine, O sea,

Darkens between my brother and me!

II.

A scrap of print, a few brief lines,

The fatal word that swims and shines

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On my tears, with a meaning new and dread,

Make faltering reason know him dead,

And I would that my heart might feel it too,

And unto its own regret be true;

For this is the hardest of all to bear,

That his life was so generous and fair,

So full of love, so full of hope,

Broadening out with ample scope,

And so far from death, that his dying seems

The idle agony of dreams

To my heart, that feels him living yet,––

And I forget, and I forget.

III.

He was almost grown a man when he passed

Away, but when I kissed him last

He was still a child, and I had crept

Up to the little room where he slept,

And thought to kiss him good-by in his sleep;

But he was awake to make me weep

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With terrible homesickness, before

My wayward feet had passed the door.

Round about me clung his embrace,

And he pressed against my face his face,

As if some prescience whispered him then

That it never, never should be again.

IV.

Out of far-off days of boyhood dim,

When he was a babe and I played with him,

I remember his looks and all his ways;

And how he grew through childhood’s grace,

To the hopes, and strifes, and sports, and joys,

And innocent vanity of boys;

I hear his whistle at the door,

His careless step upon the floor,

His song, his jest, his laughter yet,––

And I forget, and I forget.

V.

Somewhere in the graveyard that I know,

Where the strawberries under the chestnuts grow,

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They have laid him; and his sisters set

On his grave the flowers their tears have wet;

And above his grave, while I write, the song

Of the matin robin leaps sweet and strong

From the leafy dark of the chestnut-tree;

And many a murmuring honey-bee

On the strawberry blossoms in the grass

Stoops by his grave and will not pass;

And in the little hollow beneath

The slope of the silent field of death,

The cow-bells tinkle soft and sweet,

And the cattle go by with homeward feet,

And the squirrel barks from the sheltering limb,

At the harmless noises not meant for him;

And Nature, unto her loving heart

Has taken our darling’s mortal part,

Tenderly, that he may be,

Like the song of the robin in the tree,

The blossoms, the grass, the reeds by the shore,

A part of Summer evermore.

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VI.

I write, and the words with my tears are wet,––

But I forget, O, I forget!

Teach me, Thou that sendest this pain,

To know and feel my loss and gain!

Let me not falter in belief

On his death, for that is sorest grief:

O, lift me above this wearing strife,

Till I discern his deathless life,

Shining beyond this misty shore,

A part of Heaven evermore.

I.

Lord, for the erring thought

Not into evil wrought:

Lord, for the wicked will

Betrayed and baffled still:

For the heart from itself kept,

Our thanksgiving accept.

II.

For ignorant hopes that were

Broken to our blind prayer:

For pain, death, sorrow, sent

Unto our chastisement:

For all loss of seeming good,

Quicken our gratitude.

One knows the spring is coming:

There are birds; the fields are green;

There is balm in the sunlight and moonlight,

And dew in the twilights between.

But over there is a silence,

A rapture great and dumb,

That day when the doubt is ended,

And at last the spring is come.

Behold the wonder, O silence!

Strange as if wrought in a night,––

The waited and lingering glory,

The world-old, fresh delight!

O blossoms that hang like winter,

Drifted upon the trees,

O birds that sing in the blossoms,

O blossom-haunting bees,––

O green, green leaves on the branches,

O shadowy dark below,

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O cool of the aisles of orchards,

Woods that the wild flowers know,––

O air of gold and perfume,

Wind, breathing sweet and sun,

O sky of perfect azure––

Day, Heaven and Earth in one!––

Let me draw near thy secret,

And in thy deep heart see

How fared, in doubt and dreaming,

The spring that is come in me.

For my soul is held in silence,

A rapture, great and dumb,––

For the mystery that lingered,

The glory that is come!

Tossing his mane of snows in wildest eddies and tangles,

Lion-like, March cometh in, hoarse, with tempestuous breath,

Through all the moaning chimneys, and thwart all the hollows and angles

Round the shuddering house, threating of winter and death.

But in my heart I feel the life of the wood and the meadow

Thrilling the pulses that own kindred with fibres that lift

Bud and blade to the sunward, within the inscrutable shadow,

Deep in the oak’s chill core, under the gathering drift.

Nay, to earth’s life in mine some prescience, or dream, or desire

(How shall I name it aright?) comes for a moment and goes,––

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Rapture of life ineffable, perfect,––as if in the brier,

Leafless there by my door, trembled a sense of the rose.

Out of its fragrant heart of bloom,––

The bobolinks are singing!

Out of its fragrant heart of bloom

The apple-tree whispers to the room,

“Why art thou but a nest of gloom,

While the bobolinks are singing?”

The two wan ghosts of the chamber there,––

The bobolinks are singing!

The two wan ghosts of the chamber there

Cease in the breath of the honeyed air,

Sweep from the room and leave it bare,

While the bobolinks are singing.

Then with a breath so chill and slow,––

The bobolinks are singing!

Then with a breath so chill and slow,

It freezes the blossoms into snow,

The haunted room makes answer low,

While the bobolinks are singing.

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“I know that in the meadow-land,––

The bobolinks are singing!

I know that in the meadow-land

The sorrowful, slender elm-trees stand,

And the brook goes by on the other hand,

While the bobolinks are singing.

“But ever I see, in the brawling stream,––

The bobolinks are singing!

But ever I see in the brawling stream

A maiden drowned and floating dim,

Under the water, like a dream,

While the bobolinks are singing.

“Buried, she lies in the meadow-land!––

The bobolinks are singing!

Buried, she lies in the meadow-land,

Under the sorrowful elms where they stand.

Wind, blow over her soft and bland,

While the bobolinks are singing.

“O blow, but stir not the ghastly thing,––

The bobolinks are singing!

O blow, but stir not the ghastly thing

The farmer saw so heavily swing

From the elm, one merry morn of spring,

While the bobolinks were singing.

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“O blow, and blow away the bloom,––

The bobolinks are singing!

O blow, and blow away the bloom

That sickens me in my heart of gloom,

That sweetly sickens the haunted room,

While the bobolinks are singing!”

In March the earliest bluebird came

And caroled from the orchard-tree

His little tremulous songs to me,

And called upon the summer’s name,

And made old summers in my heart

All sweet with flower and sun again;

So that I said, “O, not in vain

Shall be thy lay of little art,

“Though never summer sun may glow,

Nor summer flower for thee may bloom;

Though winter turn in sudden gloom,

And drowse the stirring spring with snow”;

And learned to trust, if I should call

Upon the sacred name of Song,

Though chill through March I languish long,

And never feel the May at all,

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Yet may I touch, in some who hear,

The hearts, wherein old songs asleep

Wait but the feeblest touch to leap

In music sweet as summer air!

I sing in March brief bluebird lays,

And hope a May, and do not know:

May be, the heaven is full of snow,––

May be, there open summer days.

Parting was over at last, and all the good-bys had been spoken.

Up the long hillside road the white-tented wagon moved slowly,

Bearing the mother and children, while onward before them the father

Trudged with his gun on his arm, and the faithful house-dog beside him,

Grave and sedate, as if knowing the sorrowful thoughts of his master.

April was in her prime, and the day in its dewy awaking:

Like a great flower, afar on the crest of the eastern woodland,

Goldenly bloomed the sun, and over the beautiful valley,

Dim with its dew and shadow, and bright with its dream of a river,

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Looked to the western hills, and shone on the humble procession,

Paining with splendor the children’s eyes, and the heart of the mother.

Beauty, and fragrance, and song filled the air like a palpable presence.

Sweet was the smell of the dewy leaves and the flowers in the wild-wood,

Fair the long reaches of sun and shade in the aisles of the forest.

Glad of the spring, and of love, and of morning, the wild birds were singing:

Jays to each other called harshly, then mellowly fluted together;

Sang the oriole songs as golden and gay as his plumage;

Pensively piped the querulous quails their greetings unfrequent,

While, on the meadow elm, the meadow lark gushed forth in music,

Rapt, exultant, and shaken with the great joy of his singing;

Over the river, loud-chattering, aloft in the air, the kingfisher

Hung, ere he dropped, like a bolt, in the water beneath him;

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Gossiping, out of the bank flew myriad twittering swallows;

And in the boughs of the sycamores quarrelled and clamored the blackbirds.

Never for these things a moment halted the Movers, but onward,

Up the long hillside road the white-tented wagon moved slowly.

Till, on the summit, that overlooked all the beautiful valley,

Trembling and spent, the horses came to a standstill unbidden;

Then from the wagon the mother in silence got down with her children,

Came, and stood by the father, and rested her hand on his shoulder.

Long together they gazed on the beautiful valley before them;

Looked on the well-known fields that stretched away to the woodlands,

Where, in the dark lines of green, showed the milk-white crest of the dogwood,

Snow of wild-plums in bloom, and crimson tints of the red-bud;

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Looked on the pasture-fields where the cattle were lazily grazing,––

Soft, and sweet, and thin came the faint, far notes of the cow-bells,––

Looked on the oft-trodden lanes, with their elder and blackberry borders,

Looked on the orchard, a bloomy sea, with its billows of blossoms.

Fair was the scene, yet suddenly strange and all unfamiliar,

As are the faces of friends, when the word of farewell has been spoken.

Long together they gazed; then at last on the little log-cabin––

Home for so many years, now home no longer forever––

Rested their tearless eyes in the silent rapture of anguish.

Up on the morning air no column of smoke from the chimney

Wavering, silver and azure, rose, fading and brightening ever;

Shut was the door where yesterday morning the children were playing;

Lit with a gleam of the sun the window stared up at them blindly.

Cold was the hearthstone now, and the place was forsaken and empty.

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Empty? Ah no! but haunted by thronging and tenderest fancies,

Sad recollections of all that had been, of sorrow or gladness.

Still they sat there in the glow of the wide red fire in the winter,

Still they sat there by the door in the cool of the still summer evening,

Still the mother seemed to be singing her babe there to slumber,

Still the father beheld her weep o’er the child that was dying,

Still the place was haunted by all the Past’s sorrow and gladness!

Neither of them might speak for the thoughts that came crowding their hearts so,

Till, in their ignorant trouble aloud the children lamented;

Then was the spell of silence dissolved, and the father and mother

Burst into tears and embraced, and turned their dim eyes to the Westward.

The summer sun was soft and bland,

As they went through the meadow land.

The little wind that hardly shook

The silver of the sleeping brook

Blew the gold hair about her eyes,––

A mystery of mysteries!

So he must often pause, and stoop,

And all the wanton ringlets loop

Behind her dainty ear––emprise

Of slow event and many sighs.

Across the stream was scarce a step,––

And yet she feared to try the leap;

And he, to still her sweet alarm,

Must lift her over on his arm.

She could not keep the narrow way,

For still the little feet would stray,

And ever must he bend t’ undo

The tangled grasses from her shoe,––

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From dainty rosebud lips in pout,

Must kiss the perfect flowér out!

Ah! little coquette! Fair deceit!

Some things are bitter that were sweet.

Is it the shrewd October wind

Brings the tears into her eyes?

Does it blow so strong that she must fetch

Her breath in sudden sighs?

The sound of his horse’s feet grows faint,

The Rider has passed from sight;

The day dies out of the crimson west,

And coldly falls the night.

She presses her tremulous fingers tight

Against her closéd eyes,

And on the lonesome threshold there,

She cowers down and cries.

Her mouth is a honey-blossom,

No doubt, as the poet sings;

But within her lips, the petals,

Lurks a cruel bee, that stings.

In my rhyme I fable anguish,

Feigning that my love is dead,

Playing at a game of sadness,

Singing hope forever fled,––

Trailing the slow robes of mourning,

Grieving with the player’s art,

With the languid palms of sorrow

Folded on a dancing heart.

I must mix my love with death-dust,

Lest the draught should make me mad;

I must make believe at sorrow,

Lest I perish, over-glad.

I.

Something lies in the room

Over against my own;

The windows are lit with a ghastly bloom

Of candles, burning alone,––

Untrimmed, and all aflare

In the ghastly silence there!

II.

People go by the door,

Tiptoe, holding their breath,

And hush the talk that they held before,

Lest they should waken Death,

That is awake all night

There in the candlelight!

III.

The cat upon the stairs

Watches with flamy eye

For the sleepy one who shall unawares

Let her go stealing by.

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She softly, softly purrs,

And claws at the banisters.

IV.

The bird from out its dream

Breaks with a sudden song,

That stabs the sense like a sudden scream;

The hound the whole night long

Howls to the moonless sky,

So far, and starry, and high.

She sits beside the low window,

In the pleasant evening-time,

With her face turned to the sunset,

Reading a book of rhyme.

And the wine-light of the sunset,

Stolen into the dainty nook,

Where she sits in her sacred beauty,

Lies crimson on the book.

O beautiful eyes so tender,

Brown eyes so tender and dear,

Did you leave your reading a moment

Just now, as I passed near?

Maybe, ’tis the sunset flushes

Her features, so lily-pale;

Maybe, ’tis the lover’s passion,

She reads of in the tale.

O darling, and darling, and darling,

If I dared to trust my thought;

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If I dared to believe what I must not,

Believe what no one ought,––

We would read together the poem

Of the Love that never died,

The passionate, world-old story

Come true, and glorified.

“Every Rose, you sang, has its Thorn,

But this has none, I know.”

She clasped my rival’s Rose

Over her breast of snow.

I bowed to hide my pain,

With a man’s unskilful art;

I moved my lips, and could not say

The Thorn was in my heart!

Once on my mother’s breast, a child, I crept,

Holding my breath;

There, safe and sad, lay shuddering, and wept

At the dark mystery of Death.

Weary and weak, and worn with all unrest,

Spent with the strife,––

O mother, let me weep upon thy breast

At the sad mystery of Life!

Where the dews and the rains of heaven have their fountain,

Like its thunder and its lightning our brave burst on the foe,

Up above the clouds on Freedom’s Lookout Mountain

Raining life-blood like water on the valleys down below.

O, green be the laurels that grow,

O sweet be the wild-buds that blow,

In the dells of the mountain where the brave are lying low.

Light of our hope and crown of our story,

Bright as sunlight, pure as starlight shall their deeds of daring glow,

While the day and the night out of heaven shed their glory,

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On Freedom’s Lookout Mountain whence they routed Freedom’s foe.

O, soft be the gales when they go

Through the pines on the summit where they blow,

Chanting solemn music for the souls that passed below.

There on the field of battle

Lies the young warrior dead:

Who shall speak in the soldier’s honor?

How shall his praise be said?

Cannon, there in the battle,

Thundered the soldier’s praise,

Hark! how the volumed volleys echo

Down through the far-off days!

Tears for the grief of a father,

For a mother’s anguish, tears;

But for him that died in his country’s battle,

Glory and endless years.

I.

The colonel rode by his picket-line

In the pleasant morning sun,

That glanced from him far off to shine

On the crouching rebel picket’s gun.

II.

From his command the captain strode

Out with a grave salute,

And talked with the colonel as he rode;––

The picket levelled his piece to shoot.

III.

The colonel rode and the captain walked,––

The arm of the picket tired;

Their faces almost touched as they talked,

And, swerved from his aim, the picket fired.

IV.

The captain fell at the horse’s feet,

Wounded and hurt to death,

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Calling upon a name that was sweet

As God is good, with his dying breath.

V.

And the colonel that leaped from his horse and knelt

To close the eyes so dim,

A high remorse for God’s mercy felt,

Knowing the shot was meant for him.

VI.

And he whispered, prayer-like, under his breath,

The name of his own young wife:

For Love, that had made his friend’s peace with Death,

Alone could make his with life.

The passionate humming-birds cling

To the honeysuckles’ hearts;

In and out at the open window

The twittering house-wren darts,

And the sun is bright.

June is young, and warm, and sweet;

The morning is gay and new;

Glimmers yet the grass of the door-yard,

Pearl-gray with fragrant dew,

And the sun is bright.

From the mill, upon the stream,

A busy murmur swells;

On to the pasture go the cattle,

Lowing, with tinkling bells,

And the sun is bright.

She gathers his playthings up,

And dreamily puts them by;

Children are playing in the meadow,

She hears their joyous cry,

And the sun is bright.

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She sits and clasps her brow,

And looks with swollen eyes

On the landscape that reels and dances,––

To herself she softly cries,

And the sun is bright.

The lonesome graveyard lieth,

A deep with silent waves

Of night-long snow, all white, and billowed

Over the hidden graves.

The snow-birds come in the morning,

Flocking and fluttering low,

And light on the graveyard brambles,

And twitter there in the snow.

The Singer, old and weary,

Looks out from his narrow room:

“Ah, me! but my thoughts are snow-birds,

Haunting a graveyard gloom,

“Where all the Past is buried

And dead, these many years,

Under the drifted whiteness

Of frozen falls of tears.

“Poor birds! that know not summer,

Nor sun, nor flowèrs fair,––

Only the graveyard brambles,

And graves, and winter air!”

Up and down the dusty street,

I hurry with my burning feet;

Against my face the wind-waves beat,

Fierce from the city-sea of heat.

Deep in my heart the vision is,

Of meadow grass and meadow trees

Blown silver in the summer breeze,

And ripe, red, hillside strawberries.

My sense the city tumult fills,––

The tumult that about me reels

Of strokes and cries, and feet and wheels.

Deep in my dream I list, and, hark!

From out the maple’s leafy dark,

The fluting of the meadow lark!

About the throngéd street I go:

There is no face here that I know;

Of all that pass me to and fro

There is no face here that I know.

Deep in my soul’s most sacred place,

With a sweet pain I look and trace

The features of a tender face,

All lit with love and girlish grace.

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Some spell is on me, for I seem

A memory of the past, a dream

Of happiness remembered dim,

Unto myself that walk the street

Scathed with the city’s noontide heat,

With puzzled brain and burning feet.

The children sit by the fireside

With their little faces in bloom;

And behind, the lily-pale mother,

Looking out of the gloom,

Flushes in cheek and forehead

With a light and sudden start;

But the father sits there silent,

From the firelight apart.

“Now, what dost thou see in the embers?

Tell it to me, my child,”

Whispers the lily-pale mother

To her daughter sweet and mild.

“O, I see a sky and a moon

In the coals and ashes there,

And under, two are walking

In a garden of flowers so fair.

“A lady gay, and her lover,

Talking with low-voiced words,

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Not to waken the dreaming flowers

And the sleepy little birds.”

Back in the gloom the mother

Shrinks with a sudden sigh.

“Now, what dost thou see in the embers?”

Cries the father to the boy.

“O, I see a wedding-procession

Go in at the church’s door,––

Ladies in silk and knights in steel,––

A hundred of them, and more.

“The bride’s face is as white as a lily,

And the groom’s head is white as snow;

And without, with plumes and tapers,

A funeral paces slow.”

Loudly then laughed the father,

And shouted again for cheer,

And called to the drowsy housemaid

To fetch him a pipe and beer.

I.

All night long they heard in the houses beside the shore,

Heard, or seemed to hear, through the multitudinous roar,

Out of the hell of the rapids as ’twere a lost soul’s cries,––

Heard and could not believe; and the morning mocked their eyes,

Showing, where wildest and fiercest the waters leaped up and ran

Raving round him and past, the visage of a man

Clinging, or seeming to cling, to the trunk of a tree that, caught

Fast in the rocks below, scarce out of the surges raught.

Was it a life, could it be, to yon slender hope that clung?

Shrill, above all the tumult the answering terror rung.

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II.

Under the weltering rapids a boat from the bridge is drowned,

Over the rocks the lines of another are tangled and wound;

And the long, fateful hours of the morning have wasted soon,

As it had been in some blessed trance, and now it is noon.

Hurry, now with the raft! But O, build it strong and stanch,

And to the lines and treacherous rocks look well as you launch!

Over the foamy tops of the waves, and their foam-sprent sides,

Over the hidden reefs, and through the embattled tides,

Onward rushes the raft, with many a lurch and leap,––

Lord! if it strike him loose from the hold he scarce can keep!

No! through all peril unharmed, it reaches him harmless at last,

And to its proven strength he lashes his weakness fast.

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Now, for the shore! But steady, steady, my men, and slow;

Taut, now, the quivering lines; now slack; and so, let her go!

Thronging the shores around stand the pitying multitude;

Wan as his own are their looks, and a nightmare seems to brood

Heavy upon them, and heavy the silence hangs on all,

Save for the rapids’ plunge, and the thunder of the fall.

But on a sudden thrills from the people still and pale,

Chorussing his unheard despair, a desperate wail:

Caught on a lurking point of rock it sways and swings,

Sport of the pitiless waters, the raft to which he clings.

III.

All the long afternoon it idly swings and sways;

And on the shore the crowd lifts up its hands and prays:

Lifts to heaven and wrings the hands so helpless to save,

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Prays for the mercy of God on him whom the rock and the wave

Battle for, fettered betwixt them, and who, amidst their strife,

Struggles to help his helpers, and fights so hard for his life,––

Tugging at rope and at reef, while men weep and women swoon.

Priceless second by second, so wastes the afternoon,

And it is sunset now; and another boat and the last

Down to him from the bridge through the rapids has safely passed.

IV.

Wild through the crowd comes flying a man that nothing can stay,

Maddening against the gate that is locked athwart his way.

“No! we keep the bridge for them that can help him. You,

Tell us, who are you?” “His brother!” “God help you both! Pass through.”

Wild, with wide arms of imploring he calls aloud to him,

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Unto the face of his brother, scarce seen in the distance dim;

But in the roar of the rapids his fluttering words are lost

As in a wind of autumn the leaves of autumn are tossed.

And from the bridge he sees his brother sever the rope

Holding him to the raft, and rise secure in his hope;

Sees all as in a dream the terrible pageantry,––

Populous shores, the woods, the sky, the birds flying free;

Sees, then, the form,––that, spent with effort and fasting and fear,

Flings itself feebly and fails of the boat that is lying so near,––

Caught in the long-baffled clutch of the rapids, and rolled and hurled

Headlong on to the cataract’s brink, and out of the world.

“O, to what uses shall we put

The wildweed flower that simply blows?

And is there any moral shut

Within the bosom of the rose?”

Tennyson.

I.

She lies upon the soft, enamoured grass,

I’ the wooing shelter of an apple-tree,

And at her feet the trancéd brook is glass,

And in the blossoms over her the bee

Hangs charméd of his sordid industry;

For love of her the light wind will not pass.

II.

Her golden hair, blown over her red lips,

That seem two rose-leaves softly breathed apart,

Athwart her rounded throat like sunshine slips;

Her small hand, resting on her beating heart,

The crook that tells her peaceful shepherd-art

Scarce keeps with light and tremulous finger-tips.

III.

She is as fair as any shepherdess

That ever was in mask or Christmas scene:

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Bright silver spangles hath she on her dress,

And of her red-heeled shoes appears the sheen;

And she hath ribbons of such blue or green

As best suits pastoral people’s comeliness.

IV.

She sleeps, and it is in the month of May,

And the whole land is full of the delight

Of music and sweet scents; and all the day

The sun is gold; the moon is pearl all night,

And like a paradise the world is bright,

And like a young girl’s hopes the world is gay.

V.

So waned the hours; and while her beauteous sleep

Was blest with many a happy dream of Love,

Untended still, her silly, vagrant sheep

Afar from that young shepherdess did rove,

Along the vales and through the gossip grove,

O’er daisied meads and up the thymy steep.

VI.

Then (for it happens oft when harm is nigh,

Our dreams grow haggard till at last we wake)

She thought that from the little runnel by

There crept upon a sudden forth a snake,

And stung her hand, and fled into the brake;

Whereat she sprang up with a bitter cry,

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VII.

And wildly over all that place did look,

And could not spy her ingrate, wanton flock,––

Not there among tall grasses by the brook,

Not there behind the mossy-bearded rock;

And pitiless Echo answered with a mock

When she did sorrow that she was forsook.

VIII.

Alas! the scattered sheep might not be found,

And long and loud that gentle maid did weep,

Till in her blurréd sight the hills went round,

And, circling far, field, wood, and stream did sweep;

And on the ground the miserable Bopeep

Fell and forgot her troubles in a swound.

IX.

When she awoke, the sun long time had set,

And all the land was sleeping in the moon,

And all the flowers with dim, sad dews were wet,

As they had wept to see her in that swoon.

It was about the night’s low-breathing noon;

Only the larger stars were waking yet.

X.

Bopeep, the fair and hapless shepherdess,

Rose from her swooning in a sore dismay,

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And tried to smooth her damp and rumpled dress,

That showed in truth a grievous disarray;

Then where the brook the wan moon’s mirror lay,

She laved her eyes, and curled each golden tress.

XI.

And looking to her ribbons, if they were

As ribbons of a shepherdess should be,

She took the hat that she was wont to wear

(Bedecked it was with ribbons flying free

As ever man in opera might see),

And set it on her curls of yellow hair.

XII.

“And I will go and seek my sheep,” she said,

“Through every distant land until I die;

But when they bring me hither, cold and dead,

Let me beneath these apple-blossoms lie,

With this dear, faithful, lovely runnel nigh,

Here, where my cru––cru––cruel sheep have fed.”

XIII.

Thus sorrow and despair make bold Bopeep,

And forth she springs, and hurries on her way:

Across the lurking rivulet she can leap,

No sombre forest shall her quest delay,

No crooked vale her eager steps bewray:

What dreadeth she that seeketh her lost sheep?

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XIV.

By many a pond, where timorous water-birds,

With clattering cries and throbbing wings, arose,

By many a pasture, where the soft-eyed herds

Looked shadow-huge in their unmoved repose,

Long through the lonesome night that sad one goes

And fills the solitude with wailing words;

XV.

So that the little field-mouse dreams of harm,

Snuggled away from harm beneath the weeds;

The violet, sleeping on the clover’s arm,

Wakes, and is cold with thoughts of dreadful deeds;

The pensive people of the water-reeds

Hark with a mute and dolorous alarm.

XVI.

And the fond hearts of all the turtle-doves

Are broken in compassion of her woe,

And every tender little bird that loves

Feels in his breast a sympathetic throe;

And flowers are sad wherever she may go,

And hoarse with sighs the waterfalls and groves.

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XVII.

The pale moon droppeth low; star after star

Grows faint and slumbers in the gray of dawn;

And still she lingers not, but hurries far,

Till in a dreary wilderness withdrawn

Through tangled woods she lorn and lost moves on,

Where griffins dire and dreadful dragons are.

XVIII.

Her ribbons all are dripping with the dew,

Her red-heeled shoes are torn, and stained with mire,

Her tender arms the angry sharpness rue

Of many a scraggy thorn and envious brier;

And poor Bopeep, with no sweet pity nigh her,

Wrings her small hands, and knows not what to do.

XIX.

And on that crude and rugged ground she sinks,

And soon her seeking had been ended there,

But through the trees a fearful glimmer shrinks,

And of a hermit’s dwelling she is ’ware:

At the dull pane a dull-eyed taper blinks,

Drowsed with long vigils and the morning air.

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XX.

Thither she trembling moves, and at the door

Falls down, and cannot either speak or stir:

The hermit comes,––with no white beard before,

Nor coat of skins, nor cap of shaggy fur:

It was a comely youth that lifted her,

And to his hearth, and to his breakfast, bore.

XXI.

Arrayed he was in princeliest attire,

And of as goodly presence sooth was he

As any little maiden might admire,

Or any king-beholding cat might see

“My poor Bopeep,” he sigheth piteously,

“Rest here, and warm you at a hermit’s fire.”

XXII.

She looked so beautiful, there, mute and white,

He kissed her on the lips and on the eyes

(The most a prince could do in such a plight);

But chiefly gazed on her in still surprise,

And when he saw her lily eyelids rise,

For him the whole world had no fairer sight.

XXIII.

“Rude is my fare: a bit of venison steak,

A dish of honey and a glass of wine,

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With clean white bread, is the poor feast I make.

Be served, I pray: I think this flask is fine,”

He said. “Hard is this hermit life of mine:

This day I will its weariness forsake.”

XXIV.

And then he told her how it chanced that he,

King Cole’s son, in that forest held his court,

And the sole reason that there seemed to be

Was, he was being hermit there for sport;

But he confessed the life was not his forte,

And therewith both laughed out right jollily.

XXV.

And sly Bopeep forgot her sheep again

In gay discourse with that engaging youth:

Love hath such sovran remedies for pain!

But then he was a handsome prince, in truth,

And both were young, and both were silly, sooth,

And everything to Love but love seems vain.

XXVI.

They took them down the silver-claspéd book

That this young anchorite’s predecessor kept,––

A holy seer,––and through it they did look;

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Sometimes their idle eyes together crept,

Sometimes their lips; but still the leaves they swept,

Until they found a shepherd’s pictured crook.

XXVII.

And underneath was writ it should befall

On such a day, in such a month and year,

A maiden fair, a young prince brave and tall,

By such a chance should come together here.

They were the people, that was very clear:

“O love,” the prince said, “let us read it all!”

XXVIII.

And thus the hermit’s prophecy ran on:

Though she her lost sheep wist not where to find,

Yet should she bid her weary care begone,

And banish every doubt from her sweet mind:

They, with their little snow-white tails behind,

Homeward would go, if they were left alone.

XXIX.

They closed the book, and in her happy eyes

The prince read truth and love forevermore,––

Better than any hermit’s prophecies!

They passed together from the cavern’s door;

Embraced, they turned to look at it once more,

And over it beheld the glad sun rise,

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XXX.

That streamed before them aisles of dusk and gold

Under the song-swept arches of the wood,

And forth they went, tranced in each other’s hold,

Down through that rare and luminous solitude,

Their happy hearts enchanted in the mood

Of morning, and of May, and romance old.

XXXI.

Sometimes the saucy leaves would kiss her cheeks,

And he must kiss their wanton kiss away;

To die beneath her feet the wood-flower seeks,

The quivering aspen feels a fine dismay,

And many a scented blossom on the spray

In odorous sighs its passionate longing speaks.

XXXII.

And forth they went down to that stately stream,

Bowed over by the ghostly sycamores

(Awearily, as if some heavy dream

Held them in languor), but whose opulent shores

With pearléd shells and dusts of precious ores

Were tremulous brilliance in the morning beam;

XXXIII.

Where waited them, beside the lustrous sand,

A silk-winged shallop, sleeping on the flood;

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And smoothly wafted from the hither strand,

Across the calm, broad stream they lightly rode,

Under them still the silver fishes stood;

The eager lilies, on the other land,

XXXIV.

Beckonéd them; but where the castle shone

With diamonded turrets and a wall

Of gold-embedded pearl and costly stone,

Their vision to its peerless splendor thrall

The maiden fair, the young prince brave and tall,

Thither with light, unlingering feet pressed on.

XXXV.

A gallant train to meet this loving pair,

In silk and steel, moves from the castle door,

And up the broad and ringing castle stair

They go with gleeful minstrelsy before,

And “Hail our prince and princess evermore!”

From all the happy throng is greeting there.

XXXVI.

And in the hall the prince’s sire, King Cole,

Sitting with crown and royal ermine on,

His fiddlers three behind with pipe and bowl,

Rises and moves to lift his kneeling son,

Greeting his bride with kisses many a one,

And tears and laughter from his jolly soul;

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XXXVII.

Then both his children to a window leads

That over daisied pasture-land looks out,

And shows Bopeep where her lost flock wide feeds,

And every frolic lambkin leaps about.

She hears Boy-Blue, that lazy shepherd, shout,

Slow pausing from his pipe of mellow reeds;

XXXVIII.

And, turning, peers into her prince’s eyes;

Then, caught and clasped against her prince’s heart,

Upon her breath her answer wordless dies,

And leaves her gratitude to sweeter art,––

To lips from which the bloom shall never part,

To looks wherein the summer never dies!

I.

She sang, and I heard the singing,

Far out of the wretched past,

Of meadow-larks in the meadow,

In a breathing of the blast.

Cold through the clouds of sunset

The thin red sunlight shone,

Staining the gloom of the woodland

Where I walked and dreamed alone;

And glinting with chilly splendor

The meadow under the hill,

Where the lingering larks were lurking

In the sere grass hid and still.

Out they burst with their singing,

Their singing so loud and gay;

They made in the heart of October

A sudden ghastly May,

That faded and ceased with their singing.

The thin red sunlight paled,

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And through the boughs above me

The wind of evening wailed;––

Wailed, and the light of evening

Out of the heaven died;

And from the marsh by the river

The lonesome killdee cried.

II.

The song is done, but a phantom

Of music haunts the chords,

That thrill with its subtile presence,

And grieve for the dying words.

And in the years that are perished,

Far back in the wretched past,

I see on the May-green meadows

The white snow falling fast;––

Falling, and falling, and falling,

As still and cold as death,

On the bloom of the odorous orchard,

On the small, meek flowers beneath;

On the roofs of the village-houses,

On the long, silent street,

Where its plumes are soiled and broken

Under the passing feet;

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On the green crest of the woodland,

On the cornfields far apart;

On the cowering birds in the gable,

And on my desolate heart.

From wells where Truth in secret lay

He saw the midnight stars by day.

“O marvellous gift!” the many cried,

“O cruel gift!” his voice replied.

The stars were far, and cold, and high,

That glimmered in the noonday sky;

He yearned toward the sun in vain,

That warmed the lives of other men.

He falters on the threshold,

She lingers on the stair:

Can it be that was his footstep?

Can it be that she is there?

Without is tender yearning,

And tender love is within;

They can hear each other’s heart-beats,

But a wooden door is between.

The robin sings in the elm;

The cattle stand beneath,

Sedate and grave, with great brown eyes

And fragrant meadow-breath.

They listen to the flattered bird,

The wise-looking, stupid things;

And they never understand a word

Of all the robin sings.

1862.

Bertha––Writing from Venice.

I.

On your heart I feign myself fallen––ah, heavier burden,

Darling, of sorrow and pain than ever shall rest there! I take you

Into these friendless arms of mine, that you cannot escape me;

Closer and closer I fold you, and tell you all, and you listen

Just as you used at home, and you let my sobs and my silence

Speak, when the words will not come––and you understand and forgive me.

––Ah! no, no! but I write, with the wretched bravado of distance,

What you must read unmoved by the pity too far for entreaty.

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II.

Well, I could never have loved him, but when he sought me and asked me,––

When to the men that offered their lives, the love of a woman

Seemed so little to give!––I promised the love that he asked me,

Sent him to war with my kiss on his lips, and thought him my hero.

Afterward came the doubt, and out of long question, self-knowledge,––

Came that great defeat, and the heart of the nation was withered;

Mine leaped high with the awful relief won of death. But the horror,

Then, of the crime that was wrought in that guilty moment of rapture,––

Guilty as if my will had winged the bullet that struck him,––

Clung to me day and night, and dreaming I saw him forever,

Looking through battle-smoke with sorrowful eyes of upbraiding,

Or, in the moonlight lying gray, or dimly approaching,

Holding toward me his arms, that still held nearer and nearer,

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Folded about me at last ... and I would I had died in the fever!––

Better then than now, and better than ever hereafter!

III.

Weary as some illusion of fever to me was the ocean––

Storm-swept, scourged with bitter rains, and wandering always

Onward from sky to sky with endless processions of surges,

Knowing not life nor death, but since the light was, the first day,

Only enduring unrest till the darkness possess it, the last day.

Over its desolate depths we voyaged away from all living:

All the world behind us waned into vaguest remoteness;

Names, and faces, and scenes recurred like that broken remembrance

Of the anterior, bodiless life of the spirit,––the trouble

Of a bewildered brain, or the touch of the Hand that created,––

And when the ocean ceased at last like a faded illusion,

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Europe itself seemed only a vision of eld and of sadness.

Naught but the dark in my soul remained to me constant and real,

Growing and taking the thoughts bereft of happier uses,

Blotting all sense of lapse from the days that with swift iteration

Were and were not. They fable the bright days the fleetest:

These that had nothing to give, that had nothing to bring or to promise,

Went as one day alone. For me was no alternation

Save from my dull despair to wild and reckless rebellion,

When the regret for my sin was turned to ruthless self-pity––

When I hated him whose love had made me its victim,

Through his faith and my falsehood yet claiming me. Then I was smitten

With so great remorse, such grief for him, and compassion,

That, if he could have come back to me, I had welcomed and loved him

More than man ever was loved. Alas, for me that another

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Holds his place in my heart evermore! Alas, that I listened

When the words, whose daring lured my spirit and lulled it,

Seemed to take my blame away with my will of resistance!

Do not make haste to condemn me: my will was the will of a woman,––

Fain to be broken by love. Yet unto the last I endeavored

What I could to be faithful still to the past and my penance;

And as we stood that night in the old Roman garden together––

By the fountain whose passionate tears but now had implored me

In his pleading voice––and he waited my answer, I told him

All that had been before of delusion and guilt, and conjured him

Not to darken his fate with mine. The costly endeavor

Only was subtler betrayal. O me, from the pang of confession,

Sprang what strange delight, as I tore from its lurking that horror––

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Brooded upon so long––with the hope that at last I might see it

Through his eyes, unblurred by the tears that disordered my vision!

Oh, with what rapturous triumph I humbled my spirit before him,

That he might lift me and soothe me, and make that dreary remembrance,

All this confused present, seem only some sickness of fancy,

Only a morbid folly, no certain and actual trouble!

If from that refuge I fled with words of too feeble denial––

Bade him hate me, with sobs that entreated his tenderest pity,

Moved mute lips and left the meaningless farewell unuttered––

She that never has loved, alone can wholly condemn me.

IV.

How could he other than follow? My heart had bidden him follow,

Nor had my lips forbidden; and Rome yet glimmered behind me,

When my soul yearned towards his from the sudden forlornness of absence.

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Everywhere his face looked from vanishing glimpses of faces,

Everywhere his voice reached my senses in fugitive cadence.

Sick, through the storied cities, with wretched hopes, and upbraidings

Of my own heart for its hopes, I went from wonder to wonder,

Blind to them all, or only beholding them wronged, and related,

Through some trick of wayward thought, to myself and my trouble.

Not surprise nor regret, but a fierce, precipitate gladness

Sent the blood to my throbbing heart when I found him in Venice.

“Waiting for you,” he whispered; “you would so.” I answered him nothing.

V.

Father, whose humor grows more silent and ever more absent

(Changed in all but love for me since the death of my mother),

Willing to see me contented at last, and trusting us wholly,

Left us together alone in our world of love and of beauty.

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So, by noon and by night, we two have wandered in Venice,

Where the beautiful lives in vivid and constant caprices,

Yet, where the charm is so perfect that nothing fantastic surprises

More than in dreams, and one’s life with the life of the city is blended

In a luxurious calm, and the tumult without and beyond it

Seems but the emptiest fable of vain aspiration and labor.

Yes, from all that makes this Venice sole among cities,

Peerless forever,––the still lagoons that sleep in the sunlight,

Lulled by their island-bells; the night’s mysterious waters

Lit through their shadowy depths by stems of splendor, that blossom

Into the lamps that float, like flamy lotuses, over;

Narrow and secret canals, that dimly gleaming and glooming

Under palace-walls and numberless arches of bridges,

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List no sound but the dip of the gondolier’s oar and his warning

Cried from corner to corner; the sad, superb Canalazzo

Mirroring marvellous grandeur and beauty, and dreaming of glory

Out of the empty homes of her lords departed; the footways

Wandering sunless between the walls of the houses, and stealing

Glimpses, through rusted cancelli, of lurking greenness of gardens,

Wild-grown flowers and broken statues and mouldering frescos;

Thoroughfares filled with traffic, and throngs ever ebbing and flowing

To and from the heart of the city, whose pride and devotion,

Lifting high the bells of St. Mark’s like prayers unto heaven,

Stretch a marble embrace of palaces toward the cathedral

Orient, gorgeous, and flushed with color and light, like the morning!––

From the lingering waste that is not yet ruin in Venice,

And her phantasmal show, through all, of being and doing––

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Came a strange joy to us, untouched by regret for the idle

Days without yesterdays that died into nights without morrows.

Here, in our paradise of love we reigned, new-created,

As in the youth of the world, in the days before evil and conscience.

Ah! in our fair, lost world was neither fearing nor doubting,

Neither the sickness of old remorse nor the gloom of foreboding,––

Only the glad surrender of all individual being

Unto him whom I loved, and in whose tender possession,

Fate-free, my soul reposed from its anguish.

––Of these things I write you

As of another’s experience; part of my own they no longer

Seem to me now, through the doom that darkens the past like the future.

VI.

Golden the sunset gleamed, above the city behind us,

Out of a city of clouds as fairy and lovely as Venice,

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While we looked at the fishing-tails of purple and yellow

Far on the rim of the sea, whose light and musical surges

Broke along the sands with a faint, reiterant sadness.

But, when the sails had darkened into black wings, through the twilight

Sweeping away into night––past the broken tombs of the Hebrews

Homeward we sauntered slowly, through dew-sweet, blossomy alleys;

So drew near the boat by errant and careless approaches,

Entered, and left with indolent pulses the Lido behind us.

All the sunset had paled, and the campanili of Venice

Rose like the masts of a mighty fleet moored there in the water.

Lights flashed furtively to and fro through the deepening twilight.

Massed in one thick shade lay the Gardens; the numberless islands

Lay like shadows upon the lagoons. And on us as we loitered

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By their enchanted coasts, a spell of ineffable sweetness

Fell and made us at one with them; and silent and blissful

Shadows we seemed, that drifted on through a being of shadow,

Vague, indistinct to ourselves, unbounded by hope or remembrance.

Yet we knew the beautiful night, as it grew from the evening:

Far beneath us and far above us the vault of the heavens

Glittered and darkened; and now the moon, that had haunted the daylight

Thin and pallid, dimmed the stars with her fulness of splendor,

And over all the lagoons fell the silvery rain of the moonbeams,

As in the song the young girls sang while their gondolas passed us,––

Sang in the joy of love, or youth’s desire of loving.

Balmy night of the South! O perfect night of the Summer!

Night of the distant dark, of the near and tender effulgence!––

How from my despair are thy peace and loveliness frightened!

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For, while our boat lay there at the will of the light undulations,

Idle as if our mood imbued and controlled it, yet ever

Seeming to bear us on athwart those shining expanses

Out to shining seas beyond pursuit or returning––

There, while we lingered, and lingered, and would not break from our rapture,

Down the mirrored night another gondola drifted

Nearer and slowly nearer our own, and moonlighted faces

Stared. And that sweet trance grew a rigid and dreadful possession,

Which, if no dream indeed, yet mocked with such semblance of dreaming,

That, as it happens in dreams, when a dear face, stooping to kiss us,

Takes, ere the lips have touched, some malign and horrible aspect,

His face faded away, and the face of the Dead––of that other––

Flashed on mine, and writhing, through every change of emotion,––

Wild amaze and scorn, accusation and pitiless mocking,––

Vanished into the swoon whose blackness encompassed and hid me.

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Philip––To Bertha.

I am not sure, I own, that if first I had seen my delusion

When I saw you, last night, I should be so ready to give you

Now your promises back, and hold myself nothing above you,

That it is mine to offer a freedom you never could ask for.

Yet, believe me, indeed, from no bitter heart I release you:

You are as free of me now as though I had died in the battle,

Or as I never had lived. Nay, if it is mine to forgive you,

Go without share of the blame that could hardly be all upon your side.

Ghosts are not sensitive things; yet, after my death in the papers,

Sometimes a harrowing doubt assailed this impalpable essence:

Had I done so well to plead my cause at that moment,

When your consent must be yielded less to the lover than soldier?

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“Not so well,” I was answered by that ethereal conscience

Ghosts have about them, “and not so nobly or wisely as might be.”

––Truly, I loved you, then, as now I love you no longer.

I was a prisoner then, and this doubt in the languor of sickness

Came; and it clung to my convalescence, and grew to the purpose,

After my days of captivity ended, to seek you and solve it,

And, if I haply had erred, to undo the wrong, and release you.

Well, you have solved me the doubt. I dare to trust that you wept me,

Just a little, at first, when you heard of me dead in the battle?

For we were plighted, you know, and even in this saintly humor,

I would scarce like to believe that my loss had merely relieved you.

Yet, I say, it was prudent and well not to wait for my coming

Back from the dead. If it may be I sometimes had cherished a fancy

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That I had won some right to the palm with the pang of the martyr,––

Fondly intended, perhaps, some splendor of self-abnegation,––

Doubtless all that was a folly which merciful chances have spared me.

No, I am far from complaining that Circumstance coolly has ordered

Matters of tragic fate in such a commonplace fashion.

How do I know, indeed, that the easiest isn’t the best way?

Friendly adieux end this note, and our little comedy with it.

Fanny––To Clara.

I.

Yes, I promised to write, but how shall I write to you, darling?

Venice we reached last Monday, wild for canals and for color,

Palaces, prisons, lagoons, and gondolas, bravoes, and moonlight,

All the mysterious, dreadful, beautiful things in existence.

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Fred had joined us at Naples, insuff’rably knowing and travelled,

Wise in the prices of things and great at tempestuous bargains,

Rich in the costly nothing our youthful travellers buy here,

At a prodigious outlay of time and money and trouble;

Utter confusion of facts, and talking the wildest of pictures,––

Pyramids, battle-fields, bills, and examinations of luggage,

Passports, policemen, porters, and how he got through his tobacco,––

Ignorant, handsome, full-bearded, brown, and good-natured as ever:

Annie thinks him perfect, and I well enough for a brother.

Also, a friend of Fred’s came with us from Naples to Venice;

And, altogether, I think, we are rather agreeable people,

For we’ve been taking our pleasure at all times in perfect good-humor;

Which is an excellent thing that you’ll understand when you’ve travelled,

Seen Recreation dead-beat and cross, and learnt what a burden

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Frescos, for instance, can be, and, in general, what an affliction

Life is apt to become among the antiques and old masters.

Venice we’ve thoroughly done, and it’s perfectly true of the pictures––

Titians and Tintorettos, and Palmas and Paul Veroneses;

Neither are gondolas fictions, but verities, hearse-like and swan-like,

Quite as the heart could wish. And one finds, to one’s infinite comfort,

Venice just as unique as one’s fondest visions have made it:

Palaces and mosquitoes rise from the water together,

And, in the city’s streets, the salt-sea is ebbing and flowing

Several inches or more.

––Ah! let me not wrong thee, O Venice!

Fairest, forlornest, and saddest of all the cities, and dearest!

Dear, for my heart has won here deep peace from cruel confusion;

And in this lucent air, whose night is but tenderer noon-day,

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Fear is forever dead, and hope has put on the immortal!

––There! and you need not laugh. I’m coming to something directly.

One thing: I’ve bought you a chain of the famous fabric of Venice––

Something peculiar and quaint, and of such a delicate texture

That you must wear it embroidered upon a riband of velvet,

If you would have the effect of its exquisite fineness and beauty.

“Isn’t it very frail?” I asked of the workman who made it.

“Strong enough, if you will, to bind a lover, signora,”––

With an expensive smile. ’Twas bought near the Bridge of Rialto.

(Shylock, you know.) In our shopping, Aunt May and Fred do the talking:

Fred begins always in French, with the most delicious effront’ry,

Only to end in profoundest humiliation and English.

Aunt, however, scorns to speak any tongue but Italian:

“Quanto per these ones here?” and “What did you say was the prezzo?”

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“Ah! troppo caro! Too much! No, no! Don’t I tell you it’s troppo?”

All the while insists that the gondolieri shall show us

What she calls Titian’s palazzo, and pines for the house of Othello.

Annie, the dear little goose, believes in Fred and her mother

With an enchanting abandon. She doesn’t at all understand them,

But she has some twilight views of their cleverness. Father is quiet,

Now and then ventures some French when he fancies that nobody hears him,

In an aside to the valet-de-place––I never detect him––

Buys things for mother and me with a quite supernatural sweetness,

Tolerates all Fred’s airs, and is indispensably pleasant.

II.

Prattling on of these things, which I think cannot interest deeply,

So I hold back in my heart its dear and wonderful secret

(Which I must tell you at last, however I falter to tell you),

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Fain to keep it all my own for a little while longer,––

Doubting but it shall lose some part of its strangeness and sweetness,

Shared with another, and fearful that even you may not find it

Just the marvel that I do––and thus turn our friendship to hatred.

Sometimes it seems to me that this love, which I feel is eternal,

Must have begun with my life, and that only an absence was ended

When we met and knew in our souls that we loved one another.

For from the first was no doubt. The earliest hints of the passion,

Whispered to girlhood’s tremulous dream, may be mixed with misgiving,

But, when the very love comes, it bears no vagueness of meaning;

Touched by its truth (too fine to be felt by the ignorant senses,

Knowing but looks and utterance) soul unto soul makes confession,

Silence to silence speaks. And I think that this subtile assurance,

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Yet unconfirmed from without, is even sweeter and dearer

Than the perfected bliss that comes when the words have been spoken.

––Not that I’d have them unsaid, now! But ’t was delicious to ponder

All the miracle over, and clasp it, and keep it, and hide it,––

While I beheld him, you know, with looks of indifferent languor,

Talking of other things, and felt the divine contradiction

Trouble my heart below!

And yet, if no doubt touched our passion,

Do not believe for that, our love has been wholly unclouded.

All best things are ours when pain and patience have won them:

Peace itself would mean nothing but for the strife that preceded;

Triumph of love is greatest, when peril of love has been sorest.

(That’s to say, I dare say. I’m only repeating what he said.)

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Well, then, of all wretched things in the world, a mystery, Clara,

Lurked in this life dear to mine, and hopelessly held us asunder

When we drew nearest together, and all but his speech said, “I love you.”

Fred had known him at college, and then had found him at Naples,

After several years,––and called him a capital fellow.

Thus far his knowledge went, and beyond this began to run shallow

Over troubled ways, and to break into brilliant conjecture,

Harder by far to endure than the other’s reticent absence––

Absence wherein at times he seemed to walk like one troubled

By an uneasy dream, whose spell is not broken with waking,

But it returns all day with a vivid and sudden recurrence,

Like a remembered event. Of the past that was closest the present,

This we knew from himself: He went at the earliest summons,

When the Rebellion began, and falling, terribly wounded,

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Into the enemy’s hands, after ages of sickness and prison,

Made his escape at last; and, returning, found all his virtues

Grown out of recognition and shining in posthumous splendor,––

Found all changed and estranged, and, he fancied, more wonder than welcome.

So, somewhat heavy of heart, and disabled for war, he had wandered

Hither to Europe for perfecter peace. Abruptly his silence,

Full of suggestion and sadness, made here a chasm between us;

But we spanned the chasm with conversational bridges,

Else talked all around it, and feigned an ignorance of it,

With that absurd pretence which is always so painful, or comic,

Just as you happen to make it or see it.

In spite of our fictions,

Severed from his by that silence, my heart grew ever more anxious,

Till last night when together we sat in Piazza San Marco

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(Then, when the morrow must bring us parting––forever, it might be),

Taking our ices al fresco. Some strolling minstrels were singing

Airs from the Trovatore. I noted with painful observance,

With the unwilling minuteness at such times absolute torture,

All that brilliant scene, for which I cared nothing, before me:

Dark-eyed Venetian leoni regarding the forestieri

With those compassionate looks of gentle and curious wonder

Home-keeping Italy’s nations bend on the voyaging races,––

Taciturn, indolent, sad, as their beautiful city itself is;

Groups of remotest English––not just the traditional English

(Lavish Milor is no more, and your travelling Briton is frugal)––

English, though, after all, with the Channel always between them,

Islanded in themselves, and the Continent’s sociable races;

Country-people of ours––the New World’s confident children,

Proud of America always, and even vain of the Troubles

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As of disaster laid out on a scale unequalled in Europe;

Polyglot Russians that spoke all languages better than natives;

White-coated Austrian officers, anglicized Austrian dandies;

Gorgeous Levantine figures of Greek, and Turk, and Albanian––

These, and the throngs that moved through the long arcades and Piazza,

Shone on by numberless lamps that flamed round the perfect Piazza,

Jewel-like set in the splendid frame of this beautiful picture,

Full of such motley life, and so altogether Venetian.

Then we rose and walked where the lamps were blanched by the moonlight

Flooding the Piazzetta with splendor, and throwing in shadow

All the façade of Saint Mark’s, with its pillars, and horses, and arches;

But the sculptured frondage, that blossoms over the arches

Into the forms of saints, was touched with tenderest lucence,

And the angel that stands on the crest of the vast campanile

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Bathed his golden vans in the liquid light of the moonbeams.

Black rose the granite pillars that lift the Saint and the Lion;

Black sank the island campanili from distance to distance;

Over the charmèd scene there brooded a presence of music,

Subtler than sound, and felt, unheard, in the depth of the spirit.

How can I gather and show you the airy threads of enchantment

Woven that night round my life and forever wrought into my being,

As in our boat we glided away from the glittering city?

Dull at heart I felt, and I looked at the lights in the water,

Blurring their brilliance with tears, while the tresses of eddying seaweed,

Whirled in the ebbing tide, like the tresses of sea-maidens drifting

Seaward from palace-haunts, in the moonshine glistened and darkened.

Sad and vague were my thoughts, and full of fear was the silence;

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And, when he turned to speak at last, I trembled to hear him,

Feeling he now must speak of his love, and his life and its secret,––

Now that the narrowing chances had left but that cruel conclusion,

Else the life-long ache of a love and a trouble unuttered.

Better, my feebleness pleaded, the dreariest doubt that had vexed me,

Than my life left nothing, not even a doubt to console it;

But, while I trembled and listened, his broken words crumbled to silence,

And, as though some touch of fate had thrilled him with warning,

Suddenly from me he turned. Our gondola slipped from the shadow

Under a ship lying near, and glided into the moonlight,

Where, in its brightest lustre, another gondola rested.

I saw two lovers there, and he, in the face of the woman,

Saw what has made him mine, my own belovèd, forever!

Mine!––but through what tribulation, and awful confusion of spirit!

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Tears that I think of with smiles, and sighs I remember with laughter,

Agonies full of absurdity, keen, ridiculous anguish,

Ending in depths of blissful shame, and heavenly transports!

III.

White, and estranged as a man who has looked on a spectre, he mutely

Sank to the place at my side, nor while we returned to the city

Uttered a word of explaining, or comment, or comfort, but only,

With his good-night, incoherently craved my forgiveness and patience,

Parted, and left me to spend the night in hysterical vigils,

Tending to Annie’s supreme dismay, and postponing our journey

One day longer at least; for I went to bed in the morning,

Firmly rejecting the pity of friends, and the pleasures of travel,

Fixed in a dreadful purpose never to get any better.

Later, however, I rallied, when Fred, with a maddening prologue

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Touching the cause of my sickness, including his fever at Jaffa,

Told me that some one was waiting; and could he see me a moment?

See me? Certainly not. Or,––yes. But why did he want to?

So, in the dishabille of a morning-gown and an arm-chair,

Languid, with eloquent wanness of eye and of cheek, I received him––

Willing to touch and reproach, and half-melted myself by my pathos,

Which, with a reprobate joy, I wholly forgot the next instant,

When, with electric words, few, swift, and vivid, he brought me,

Through a brief tempest of tears, to this heaven of sunshine and sweetness.

Yes, he had looked on a ghost––the phantom of love that was perished!––

When, last night, he beheld the scene of which I have told you.

For to the woman he saw there, his troth had been solemnly plighted

Ere he went to the war. His return from the dead found her absent

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In the belief of his death; and hither to Europe he followed,––

Followed to seek her, and keep, if she would, the promise between them,

Or, were a haunting doubt confirmed, to break it and free her.

Then, at Naples we met, and the love that, before he was conscious,

Turned his life toward mine, laid torturing stress to the purpose

Whither it drove him forever, and whence forever it swerved him.

How could he tell me his love, with this terrible burden upon him?

How could he linger near me, and still withhold the avowal?

And what ruin were that, if the other were doubted unjustly,

And should prove fatally true! With shame, he confessed he had faltered,

Clinging to guilty delays, and to hopes that were bitter with treason,

Up to the eve of our parting. And then the last anguish was spared him.

Her love for him was dead. But the heart that leaped in his bosom

With a great, dumb throb of joy and wonder and doubting,

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Still must yield to the spell of his silencing will till that phantom

Proved an actual ghost by common-place tests of the daylight,

Such as speech with the lady’s father.

And now, could I pardon––

Nay, did I think I could love him? I sobbingly answered, I thought so.

And we are all of us going to Lago di Como to-morrow,

With an ulterior view at the first convenient Legation.

Patientest darling, good-by! Poor Fred, whose sense of what’s proper

Never was touched till now, is shocked at my glad self-betrayals,

And I am pointed out as an awful example to Annie,

Figuring all she must never be. But, oh, if he loves me!––

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POSTSCRIPT.

Since, he has shown me a letter in which he absolves and forgives her

(Philip, of course, not Fred; and the other, of course, and not Annie).

Don’t you think him generous, noble, unselfish, heroic?

L’Envoy.––Clara’s Comment.

Well, I’m glad, I am sure, if Fanny supposes she’s happy.

I’ve no doubt her lover is good and noble––as men go.

But, as regards his release of a woman who’d wholly forgot him,

And whom he loved no longer, for one whom he loves, and who loves him,

I don’t exactly see where the heroism commences.

There is a bird that comes and sings

In the Professor’s garden-trees;

Upon the English oak he swings,

And tilts and tosses in the breeze.

I know his name, I know his note,

That so with rapture takes my soul;

Like flame the gold beneath his throat,

His glossy cope is black as coal.

O oriole, it is the song

You sang me from the cottonwood,

Too young to feel that I was young,

Too glad to guess if life were good.

And while I hark, before my door,

Adown the dusty Concord Road,

The blue Miami flows once more

As by the cottonwood it flowed.

And on the bank that rises steep,

And pours a thousand tiny rills,

From death and absence laugh and leap

My school-mates to their flutter-mills.

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The blackbirds jangle in the tops

Of hoary-antlered sycamores;

The timorous killdee starts and stops

Among the drift-wood on the shores.

Below, the bridge––a noonday fear

Of dust and shadow shot with sun––

Stretches its gloom from pier to pier,

Far unto alien coasts unknown.

And on those alien coasts, above,

Where silver ripples break the stream’s

Long blue, from some roof-sheltering grove

A hidden parrot scolds and screams.

Ah, nothing, nothing! Commonest things:

A touch, a glimpse, a sound, a breath––

It is a song the oriole sings––

And all the rest belongs to death.

But oriole, my oriole,

Were some bright seraph sent from bliss

With songs of heaven to win my soul

From simple memories such as this,

What could he tell to tempt my ear

From you? What high thing could there be,

So tenderly and sweetly dear

As my lost boyhood is to me?

I.

Hard by the Church of Saint Stephen, in sole and beautiful Venice,

Under the colonnade of the Augustinian Convent,

Every day, as I passed, I paused to look at the frescos

Painted upon the ancient walls of the court of the Convent

By a great master of old, who wore his sword and his dagger

While he wrought the figures of patriarchs, martyrs, and virgins

Into the sacred and famous scenes of Scriptural story.

II.

Long ago the monks from their snug self-devotion were driven,

Wistful and fat and slow: looking backward, I fancied them going

Out through the sculptured doorway, and down the Ponte de’Frati,

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Cowled and sandalled and beaded, a plump and pensive procession;

And in my day their cells were barracks for Austrian soldiers,

Who in their turn have followed the Augustinian Friars.

As to the frescos, little remained of work once so perfect.

Summer and winter weather of some three cycles had wasted;

Plaster had fallen, and left unsightly blotches of ruin;

Wanton and stupid neglect had done its worst to the pictures:

Yet to the sympathetic and reverent eye was apparent––

Where the careless glance but found, in expanses of plaster,

Touches of incoherent color and lines interrupted––

Somewhat still of the life of surpassing splendor and glory

Filling the frescos once; and here and there was a figure,

Standing apart, and out from the common decay and confusion,

Flushed with immortal youth and ineffaceable beauty,

Such as that figure of Eve in pathetic expulsion from Eden,

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Taking––the tourist remembers––the wrath of Heaven al fresco,

As is her well-known custom in thousands of acres of canvas.

III.

I could make out the much-bepainted Biblical subjects,

When I had patience enough: The Temptation, of course, and Expulsion;

Cain killing Abel, his Brother––the merest fragment of murder;

Noah’s Debauch––the trunk of the sea-faring patriarch naked,

And the garment, borne backward to cover it, fearfully tattered;

Abraham offering Isaac––no visible Isaac, and only

Abraham’s lifted knife held back by the hovering angel;

Martyrdom of Saint Stephen––a part of the figure of Stephen;

And the Conversion of Paul––the greaves on the leg of a soldier

Held across the back of a prostrate horse by the stirrup;

But when I looked at the face of that tearful and beauteous figure,––

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Eve in the fresco there, and, in Venice of old, Violante,

As I must fain believe (the lovely daughter of Palma,

Who was her father’s Saint Barbara, and was the Bella of Titian),––

Such a meaning and life shone forth from its animate presence

As could restore those vague and ineffectual pictures,

With their pristine colors, and fill them with light and with movement.

Nay, sometimes it could blind me to all the present about me,

Till I beheld no more the sausage-legged Austrian soldiers,

Where they stood on guard beside one door of the Convent,

Nor the sentinel beggars that watched the approach to the other;

Neither the bigolanti, the broad-backed Friulan maidens,

Drawing the water with clatter and splashing, and laughter and gossip,

Out of the carven well in the midst of the court of the Convent––

No, not even the one with the mole on her cheek and the sidelong

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Look, as she ambled forth with her buckets of bronze at her shoulder,

Swinging upon the yoke to and fro, a-drip and a-glimmer.

All in an instant was changed, and once more the cloister was peopled

By the serene monks of old, and against walls of the cloisters,

High on his scaffolding raised, Pordenone[5] wrought at his frescos.

Armed with dagger and sword, as the legend tells, against Titian,

Who was his rival in art and in love.

IV.

It seemed to be summer,

In the forenoon of the day; and the master’s diligent pencil

Laid its last light touches on Eve driven forth out of Eden,

Otherwise Violante, and while his pupils about him

Wrought and chattered, in silence ran the thought of the painter:

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“She, and forever she! Is it come to be my perdition?

Shall I, then, never more make the face of a beautiful woman

But it must take her divine, accursèd beauty upon it,

And, when I finish my work, stand forth her visible presence?

Ah! I could take this sword and strike it into her bosom!

Though I believe my own heart’s blood would stream from the painting,

So much I love her! Yes, that look is marvellous like you,

Wandering, tender––such as I’d give my salvation to win you

Once to bend upon me! But I knew myself better than make you,

Lest I should play the fool about you here before people,

Helpless to turn away from your violet eyes, Violante,

That have turned all my life to a vision of madness.” The painter

Here unto speech betraying the thoughts he had silently pondered,

“Visions, visions, my son?” said a gray old friar who listened,

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Seated there in the sun, with his eye on the work of the painter

Fishily fixed, while the master blasphemed behind his mustaches.

“Much have I envied your Art, who vouchsafeth to those who adore her

Visions of heavenly splendor denied to fastings and vigils.

I have spent days and nights of faint and painful devotion,

Scourged myself almost to death, without one glimpse of the glory

Which your touch has revealed in the face of that heavenly maiden.

Pleasure me to repeat what it was you were saying of visions:

Fain would I know how they come to you, though I never see them,

And in my thickness of hearing I fear some words have escaped me.”

Then, while the painter glared on the lifted face of the friar,

Baleful, breathless, bewildered, fiercer than noon in the dog-days,

Round the circle of pupils there ran a tittering murmur;

From the lips to the ears of those nameless Beppis and Gigis

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Buzzed the stinging whisper: “Let’s hear Pordenone’s confession.”

Well they knew the master’s luckless love, and whose portrait

He had unconsciously painted there, and guessed that his visions

Scarcely were those conceived by the friar, who constantly blundered

Round the painter at work, mistaking every subject––

Noah’s drunken Debauch for the Stoning of Stephen the Martyr,

And the Conversion of Paul for the Flight into Egypt; forever

Putting his hand to his ear and shouting, “Speak louder, I pray you!”

So they waited now, in silent, amused expectation,

Till Pordenone’s angry scorn should gather to bursting.

Long the painter gazed in furious silence, then slowly

Uttered a kind of moan, and turned again to his labor.

Tears gathered into his eyes, of mortification and pathos,

And when the dull old monk, who forgot, while he waited the answer,

Visions and painter, and all, had maundered away in his error,

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Pordenone half envied the imbecile peace of his bosom;

“For in my own,” he mused, “is such a combat of devils,

That I believe torpid age or stupid youth would be better

Than this manhood of mine that has climbed aloft to discover

Heights which I never can reach, and bright on the pinnacle standing

In the unfading light, my rival crowned victor above me.

If I could hint what I feel, what forever escapes from my pencil,

All after-time should know my will was not less than my failure,

Nor should any one dare remember me merely in pity.

All should read my sorrows and do my discomfiture homage,

Saying: ‘Not meanly at any time this painter meant or endeavored;

His was the anguish of one who falls short of the highest achievement,

Conscious of doing his utmost, and knowing how vast his defeat is.

Life, if he would, might have had some second guerdon to give him,

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But he would only the first; and behold! Let us honor

Grief such as his must have been; no other sorrow can match it!

There are certainly some things here that are nobly imagined:

Look! here is masterly power in this play of light, and these shadows

Boldly are massed; and what color! One can well understand Buonarotti

Saying the sight of his Curtius was worth the whole journey from Florence.

Here is a man at least never less than his work; you can feel it

As you can feel in Titian’s the painter’s inferior spirit.

He and this Pordenone, you know, were rivals; and Titian

Knew how to paint to the popular humor, and spared not

Foul means or fair (his way with rivals) to crush Pordenone,

Who with an equal chance’––

“Alas, if the whole world should tell me

I was his equal in art, and the lie could save me from torment,

So must I be lost, for my soul could never believe it!

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Nay, let my envy snarl as fierce as it will at his glory,

Still, when I look on his work, my soul makes obeisance within me,

Humbling itself before the touch that shall never be equalled.”

He who sleeps in continual noise is wakened by silence,

And Pordenone was roused from these thoughts anon by the sudden

Hush that had fallen upon the garrulous group of his pupils;

And ere he turned half-way with instinctive looks of inquiry,

He was already warned, with a shock at the heart, of a presence

Long attended, not feared; and he laid one hand on his sword-hilt,

Seizing the sheath with the other hand, that the pallet had dropped from.

Then he fronted Titian, who stood with his arms lightly folded,

And with a curious smile, half of sarcasm, half of compassion,

Bent on th’ embattled painter, cried: “Your slave, Messere Antonio!

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What good friend has played this bitter jest with your humor?

As I beheld you just now full-armed with your pencil and palette,

I was half awed by your might; but these sorry trappings of bravo

Make me believe you less fit to be the rival of Titian,

Here in the peaceful calm of our well-ordered city of Venice,

Than to take service under some Spanish lordling at Naples,

Needy in blades for work that can not wait for the poison.”

Pordenone flushed with anger and shame to be taken

At an unguarded point; but he answered with scornful defiance:

“Oh, you are come, I see, with the favorite weapon of Titian,

And you would make a battle of words. If you care for my counsel,

Listen to me: I say you are skilfuller far in my absence,

And your tongue can inflict a keener and deadlier mischief

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When it is dipped in poisonous lies, and wielded in secret.”

“Nay, then,” Titian responded, “methinks that our friend Aretino[6]

Makes a much better effect than either of us in that tongue-play.

But since Messer Robusti has measured our wit for his portrait,

Even he has grown shyer of using his tongue than he once was.

Have you not heard the tale? Tintoretto was told Aretino

Meant to make him the subject of one of his merry effusions;

And with his naked dirk he went carefully over his person,

Promising, if the poet made free with him in his verses,

He would immortalize my satirical friend with that pencil.

Doubtless the tale is not true. Aretino says nothing about it;

Always speaks, in fact, with the highest respect of Robusti.

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True or not, ’tis well found.” Then looking around on the frescos:

“Good, very good indeed! Your breadth and richness and softness

No man living surpasses; those heads are truly majestic.

Yes, Buonarotti was right, when he said that to look at your Curtius

Richly repaid him the trouble and cost of a journey from Florence.

Surely the world shall know you the first of painters in fresco!

Well? You will not strike me unarmed? This was hardly expected

By the good people that taught you to think our rivalry blood-red.

Let us be friends, Pordenone!”

“Be patron and patronized, rather;

Nay, if you spoke your whole mind out, be assassin and victim.

Could the life beat again in the broken heart of Giorgione,

He might tell us, I think, something pleasant of friendship with Titian.”

Suddenly over the shoulder of Titian peered an ironical visage,

Smiling, malignly intent––the leer of the scurrilous poet:

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“You know––all the world knows––who dug the grave of Giorgione.[7]

Titian and he were no friends––our Lady of Sorrows forgive ’em!

But for all hurt that Titian did him he might have been living,

Greater than any living, and lord of renown and such glory

As would have left you both dull as yon withered moon in the sunshine.”

Loud laughed the listening group at the insolent gibe of the poet,

Stirring the gall to its depths in the bitter soul of their master,

Who with his tremulous fingers tapped the hilt of his poniard,

Answering naught as yet. Anon the glance of the ribald,

Carelessly ranging from Pordenone’s face to the picture,

Dwelt with an absent light on its marvellous beauty, and kindled

Into a slow recognition, with “Ha! Violante!” Then, erring

Wilfully as to the subject, he cackled his filthy derision:

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“What have we here! More Magdalens yet of the painter’s acquaintance?

Ah––!”

The words had scarce left his lips, when the painter

Rushed upon him, and clutching his throat, thrust him backward and held him

Over the scaffolding’s edge in air, and straightway had flung him

Crashing down on the pave of the cloister below, but for Titian,

Who around painter and poet alike wound his strong arms and stayed them

Solely, until the bewildered pupils could come to the rescue.

Then, as the foes relaxed that embrace of frenzy and murder––

White, one with rage and the other with terror, and either with hatred––

Grimly the great master smiled: “You were much nearer paradise, Piero,

Than you have been for some time. Be ruled now by me and get homeward

Fast as you may, and be thankful.” And then, as the poet,

Looking neither to right nor to left, amid the smiles of the pupils

Tottered along the platform, and trembling descended the ladder

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Down to the cloister pave, and, still without upward or backward

Glance, disappeared beneath the outer door of the Convent,

Titian turned again to the painter: “Farewell, Pordenone!

Learn more fairly to know me. I envy you not; and no rival

Now, or at any time, have I held you, or ever shall hold you.

Prosper and triumph still, for all me: you shall but do me honor,

Seeing that I too serve the art that your triumphs illustrate.

I for my part find life too short for work and for pleasure;

If it should touch a century’s bound, I should think it too precious

Even to spare a moment for rage at another’s good fortune.

Do not be fooled by the purblind flatterers who would persuade you

Either of us shall have greater fame through the fall of the other.

We can thrive only in common. The tardily blossoming cycles,

Flowering at last in this glorious age of our art, had not waited,

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Folded calyxes still, for Pordenone or Titian.

Think you if we had not been, our pictures had never been painted?

Others had done them, or better, the same. We are only

Pencils God paints with. And think you that He had wanted for pencils

But for our being at hand? And yet––for some virtue creative

Dwells and divinely exists in the being of every creature,

So that the thing done through him is dear as if he had done it––

If I should see your power, a tint of this great efflorescence,

Fading, methinks I should feel myself beginning to wither.

They have abused your hate who told you that Titian was jealous.

Once, in my youth that is passed, I too had my hates and my envies.

’Sdeath! how it used to gall me––that power and depth of Giorgione!

I could have turned my knife in his heart when I looked at his portraits.

Ah! we learn somewhat still as the years go. Now, when I see you

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Doing this good work here, I am glad in my soul of its beauty.

Art is not ours, O friend! but if we are not hers, we are nothing.

Look at the face you painted last year––or yesterday, even:

Far, so far, it seems from you, so utterly, finally, parted,

Nothing is stranger to you than this child of your soul; and you wonder––

‘Did I indeed then do it?’ No thrill of the rapture of doing

Stirs in your breast at the sight. Nay, then, not even the beauty

Which we had seemed to create is our own: the frame universal

Is as much ours. And shall I hate you because you are doing

That which when done you cannot feel yours more than I mine can feel it?

It shall belong hereafter to all who perceive and enjoy it,

Rather than him who made it; he, least of all, shall enjoy it.

They of the Church conjure us to look on death and be humble;

I say, look upon life and keep your pride if you can, then:

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See how to-day’s achievement is only to-morrow’s confusion;

See how possession always cheapens the thing that was precious

To our endeavor; how losses and gains are equally losses;

How in ourselves we are nothing, and how we are anything only

As indifferent parts of the whole, that still, on our ceasing,

Whole remains as before, no less without us than with us.

Were it not for the delight of doing, the wonderful instant

Ere the thing done is done and dead, life scarce were worth living.

Ah, but that makes life divine! We are gods, for that instant immortal,

Mortal for evermore, with a few days’ rumor––or ages’––

What does it matter? We, too, have our share of eating and drinking,

Love, and the liking of friends––mankind’s common portion and pleasure.

Come, Pordenone, with me; I would fain have you see my Assumption

While it is still unfinished, and stay with me for the evening:

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You shall send home for your lute, and I’ll ask Sansovino to supper.[8]

After what happened just now I scarcely could ask Aretino;

Though, for the matter of that, the dog is not one to bear malice.

Will you not come?”

V.

I listen with Titian, and wait for the answer.

But, whatever the answer that comes to Titian, I hear none.

Nay, while I linger, all those presences fade into nothing,

In the dead air of the past; and the old Augustinian Convent

Lapses to picturesque profanation again as a barrack;

Lapses and changes once more, and this time vanishes wholly,

Leaving me at the end with the broken, shadowy legend,

Broken and shadowy still, as in the beginning. I linger,

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Teased with its vague unfathomed suggestion, and wonder,

As at first I wondered, what happened about Violante,

And am but ill content with those metaphysical phrases

Touching the strictly impersonal nature of personal effort,

Wherewithal Titian had fain avoided the matter at issue.

Yes! they are here again, the long, long days,

After the days of winter, pinched and white;

Soon, with a thousand minstrels comes the light,

Late, the sweet robin-haunted dusk delays.

But the long days that bring us back the flowers,

The sunshine, and the quiet-dripping rain,

And all the things we knew of spring again,

The long days bring not the long-lost long hours.

The hours that now seem to have been each one

A summer in itself, a whole life’s bound,

Filled full of deathless joy––where in his round,

Have these forever faded from the sun?

The fret, the fever, the unrest endures,

But the time flies.... Oh, try, my little lad,

Coming so hot and play-worn, to be glad

And patient of the long hours that are yours!