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Title: The Missionary: An Indian Tale; vol. II

Author: Lady Morgan

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                                  THE
                              MISSIONARY:

                                  AN
                             Indian Tale.

                                  BY
                             MISS OWENSON.

                    WITH A PORTRAIT OF THE AUTHOR.

                           IN THREE VOLUMES.

                           _FOURTH EDITION._

                               VOL. II.

                                LONDON:
                     PRINTED FOR J. J. STOCKDALE,
                          NO. 41, PALL MALL.
                                 1811.




                          THE MISSIONARY, &c.




CHAPTER VIII.


It was the season of visitation of the Guru of Cashmire to his
granddaughter. The Missionary beheld him with his train approach her
abode of peace, and felt the necessity of absenting himself from the
consecrated grove, where he might risk a discovery of his intentions
unfavourable to their success. He knew that the conversion of the
Brachmachira was only to be effected by the frequent habit of seeing
and conversing with her, and that a discovery of their interviews would
be equally fatal to both. Yet he submitted to the necessity which
separated them, with an impatience, new to a mind, whose firm tenour
was, hitherto, equal to stand the shock of the severest disappointment.
Still did his steps involuntarily bend to the skirts of the grove, and
still did he return sad, without any immediate cause of sorrow, and
disappointed, without any previous expectation. To contemplate the
frailty, to witness the errors of the species to which we belong, is to
mortify that self-love, which is inherent in our natures; yet to be
dissatisfied with others, is to be convinced of our own superiority. It
is to triumph, while we condemn--it is to pity, while we sympathize.
But, when we become dissatisfied with ourselves; when a proud
consciousness of former strength unites itself with a sense of existing
weakness; when the heart has no feeling to turn to for solace; when the
mind has no principle to resort to for support; when suffering is
unalleviated by self-esteem, and no feeling of internal approbation
soothes the irritation of the discontented spirit; then all is hopeless,
cold, and gloomy, and misery becomes aggravated by the necessity which
our pride dictates, of concealing it almost from ourselves. Days
listlessly passed, duties neglected, energies subdued, zeal weakened;
these were circumstances in the life of the apostolic Nuncio, whose
effects he rather felt than understood. He was stunned by the revolution
which had taken place in his mind and feeling, by the novelty of the
images which occupied his fancy, by the association of ideas which
linked themselves in his mind. He would not submit to the analysis of
his feelings, and he was determined to conquer, without understanding
their nature or tendency. Entombed and chained within the most remote
depths of his heart, he was deaf to their murmurs, and resisted their
pleadings, with all the despotism of a great and lofty mind, created
equally to command others and itself. With the dawn, therefore, of the
morning, he issued from his cave, intending to proceed to Sirinagur,
determined no longer to confine his views to the conversion of the
solitary infidel; but to change, at once, the scene and object, which
had lately engrossed all the powers of his being, and to bestow upon a
multitude, those sacred exertions, which he had, of late, wholly
confined to an individual.

His route to Sirinagur lay near the dwelling of the Priestess. He
perceived, at a considerable distance, the train of the Guru returning
to his college; Luxima, therefore, was again mistress of her own
delicious solitude. The impulse of the man was to return to the grotto,
but the decision of the Priest was to proceed, to effect his original
intention. As he advanced, the glittering shafts of Luxima’s verandahs
met his eye, and he abruptly found himself under the cannella-alba tree,
beneath whose shade he had last beheld her. He paused, as he believed,
to contemplate its luxuriancy and its beauty, which had before escaped
his observation. He admired its majestic height, crowned by branches,
which drooped with their own abundance, and hung in fantastic wreaths of
green and brilliant foliage, mingling with their verdure, blossoms of
purple and scarlet, and berries bright and richly clustered. But an
admiration so coldly directed, was succeeded by a feeling of amazement
and delight, when he observed the date of the day of his last interview
with Luxima carved on its bark; when he observed, hanging near it, a
wreath of the may-hya, whose snowy blossoms breathe no fragrance, and to
which an oly-leaf was attached, bearing the following inscription from
the Persian of Saddi: “The rose withers, when she no longer hears the
song of the nightingale.”

The lovely elegance of mind, which thus so delicately conveyed its
secret feeling, received a tribute, which the votarist trembled as he
presented; and pure and holy lips, which had hitherto only pressed the
saintly shrine, or consecrated relic, now sealed a kiss, no longer cold,
upon an object devotion had not sanctified. But the chill hand of
religion checked the human feeling as it rose; and the blood ran coldly
back to the heart, from which, a moment before, it had been impelled,
with a force and violence he shuddered to recollect.

Suddenly assuming a look of severity, as if even to awe, or to deceive
himself, he hurried on, nor once turned his eye towards the sunny
heights which Luxima’s pavilion crowned. He now proceeded through the
rocky defile, which formed the mouth of the valley, and advanced into an
avenue, which extended for a league, and led to various towns, and
different pagodas. This avenue, grand and extensive as it was, was yet
composed of a single tree; but it was the banyan-tree, the mighty
monarch of Eastern forests; at once the most stupendous and most
beautiful production of the vegetable world. The symbol of eternity,
from its perpetual verdure and perpetual spring, independent of
revolving seasons, and defying the decay of time, it stands alone and
bold, reproducing its own existence, and multiplying its own form, fresh
and unfaded amidst the endless generation it propagates; while every
branch, as emulous of the parent greatness, throws out its fibrous
roots, and, fastening in the earth, becomes independent, without being
disunited from the ancient and original stem. Thus, in various
directions, proceeds the living arcade, whose great and splendid order
the Architect of the universe himself designed; while above the leafy
canopy descend festoons of sprays and fibres, which, progressively
maturing, branch off in lighter arches, extending the growing fabric
from season to season, and supplying, at once, shade, fruit, and odour,
sometimes to mighty legions, encamped beneath its arms; sometimes to
pilgrim troops, who make its shade the temple of their worship, and
celebrate, beneath its gigantic foliage, their holy festivals and mystic
rites. This tree, which belongs alone to those mighty regions, where God
created man, and man beheld his Creator, excited a powerful emotion in
the bosom of the Missionary as he gazed on it.

It was through the arcades of the wondrous banyan, that a scene finely
appropriate struck his view--an Eastern armament in motion, descending
the brow of one of the majestic mountains of Sirinagur: the arms of the
troops glittering to the sun-beam, flashed like lightning through the
dark shade of the intervening woods, while, in their approach, were more
visibly seen, elephants surmounted with towers; camels, bearing on their
arched necks the gaudy trappings of war; the crescent of Mahomet beaming
on the standard of the Mogul legions; and bright spears, and feathery
arrows, distinguishing the corps of Hindu native troops; the van
breaking from the line to guard the passes, and detachments hanging
back in the rear to protect the equipage; while the main body, as if by
an electric impulse, halted, as it gradually reached the valley where it
was to encamp. This spectacle, so grand, so new, and so imposing, struck
on the governing faculty of the Missionary’s character--his strong and
powerful imagination. He approached with rapid steps the spot where the
troops had halted; he observed the commander-in-chief descend from a
Tartar horse; he was distinguished by the imperial turban of the Mogul
princes, but still more by the youthful majesty of his look, and by the
velocity of his movements. Darting from rank to rank, he appeared like a
flashing beam of light, while his deep voice, as it pronounced the word
of command, was re-echoed from hill to hill with endless vibration.
Already a camp arose, as if by magic, among the luxuriant shrubs of the
glen. The white flags of the royal pavilion waved over a cascade of
living water, and tents of snowy whiteness, in various lines,
intersected each other amidst the rich shades of the mango and
cocoa-tree; the thirsty elephants, divested of their ponderous loads,
steeped their trunks in the fountains; and the weary camel reposed his
limbs on banks of odorous grasses. All now breathed shade, refreshment,
and repose, after heat, fatigue, and action. Faquirs, and pilgrims, and
jugglers, and dancers, were seen mingling among the disarmed troops; and
the roll of drums, the tinkling of bells, the hum of men, and noise of
cattle, with the deep tone of the Tublea, and the shrill blast of the
war-horn, bestowed appropriate sounds upon the magic scene. As the
Missionary gazed on the animated spectacle, a straggler from the camp
approached to gather fruit from the tree under which he stood, and the
Missionary inquired if the troops he beheld were those of Aurengzebe?
“No,” replied the soldier; “we do not fight under the banners of an
usurper, and a fratricide; we are the troops of his eldest brother, and
rightful sovereign, Daara, whom we are going to join at Lahore, led on
by his gallant son, the ‘lion of war,’ Solyman Sheko. Harassed by
fatigue, and worn out by want and heat, after crossing the wild and
savage mountains of Sirinagur, Solyman has obtained the protection of
the Rajah of Cashmire, who permits him to encamp his troops in yonder
glen, until he receives intelligence from the Emperor, his father, whose
fate is at present doubtful[1].”

The soldier, having then filled his turban with fruit, returned to his
camp.

He who truly loves, will still seek, or find, a reference, in every
object, to the state and nature of his own feelings; and that the fate
of a mighty empire should be connected with the secret emotions of a
solitary heart, and that “the pomp and circumstance of war” should
associate itself with the hopes and fears, with the happiness and misery
of a religious recluse living in remote wilds, devoted to the service of
Heaven, and lost to all the passions of the world, was an event at once
incredible--and true!

A new sense of suffering, a new feeling of anxiety, had seized the
Missionary, when he understood the gallant son of Daara, the idol of the
empire, had come to fix himself in the vicinage of the consecrated
groves of the Cashmirian Priestess. He knew that, in India, the person
of a woman was deemed so sacred, that, even in all the tumult of
warfare, the sex was equally respected by the conqueror and the
conquered; but he also knew in what extraordinary estimation the beauty
of the Cashmirian women was held by the Mogul princes; and though Luxima
was guarded equally by her sacred character and holy vows, yet Solyman
was a hero and a prince! and the fame of her charms might meet his ear,
and the lonely solitude of her residence lure his steps. This idea grew
so powerfully on his imagination, that he already believed some rude
straggler from the camp might have violated, by his presence, the
consecrated groves of her devotion, and, unable to dismiss the thought,
he hurried back, forgetful of his intention to visit Sirinagur, and
believing that his presence only could afford safeguard and protection
to her, who, but a short time back, shrunk in horror from his approach.
So slow and thoughtful had been his movements, and so long had he
suffered himself to be attracted by a spectacle so novel as the one he
had lately contemplated, that, notwithstanding the rapidity of his
return, it was evening when he reached the sacred grove; he advanced
within view of the verandah, he darted like lightning through every
alley or deep-entangled glen; but no unhallowed footstep disturbed the
silence, which was only animated by the sweet, wild chirp of the mayana;
no human form, save his own, peopled the lovely solitude; all breathed
of peace, and of repose. In the clear blue vault of heaven the moon had
risen with a bright and radiant lustre, known only in those pure
regions, where clouds are deemed phenomena. The Missionary paused for a
moment to gaze on Luxima’s verandah, and thought that, haply, even then,
with that strange mixture of natural faith and idolatrous superstition,
which distinguished the character of her devotion, she was worshipping,
at the shrine of Camdeo, in the almost inspired language of religious
sublimity. This thought disturbed him much; and he asked himself what
sacrifice he would not make, to behold that pure but wandering soul,
imbued with the spirit of Christian truth; but what sacrifice on earth
was reserved for him to make, who had no earthly enjoyment to
relinquish? “Yes,” he exclaimed, “there is yet one: to relinquish, for
ever, all communion with Luxima!” As this thought escaped his mind, he
shuddered: had she then become so necessary to his existence, that to
relinquish her society, would be deemed a sacrifice? He dismissed the
terrific idea, and hurried from a place where all breathed of her, whom
he endeavoured to banish from his recollection. As he approached his
cave, he was struck by the singular spectacle it exhibited: a fracture
in the central part of the roof admitted the light of the moon, which
rose immediately above it; and its cloudless rays, concentrated as to a
focus, within the narrow limits of the grotto, shone with a dazzling
lustre, which was increased and reflected by the pendent spars, and
surrounding congelations; while a fine relief was afforded by the more
remote cavities of the grotto, and the deep shadow of the œcynum,
whose dusky flowers and mourning leaves drooped round its entrance. But
it was on the altar, from its peculiar position, that the beams fell
with brightest lustre; and the Missionary, as he approached, thought
that he beheld on its rude steps, a vision brighter than his holiest
trance had e’er been blessed with; for nothing human ever looked so
fair, so motionless, or so seraphic. His eye was dazzled; his
imagination was bewildered; he invoked his patron saint, and crossed
himself; he approached, and gazed, and yet he doubted; but it was no
spirit of an higher sphere; no bright creation of religious ecstacy:--it
was Luxima! it was the pagan! seated on the steps of the Christian
altar; her brow shaded by her veil; her hands clasped upon the Bible
which lay open on her knee, and a faint glory playing round her head,
reflected from the golden crucifix suspended above it. She slept; but
yet so young was her repose, so much it seemed the stealing dawn of
doubtful slumber, that her humid eyes still glistened beneath the deep
shadow of her scarce-closed lashes: the hue of light which fell upon her
features, was blue and faint; and the air diffused around her figure,
harmonized with the soft and solemn character of the moonlight cave. The
Monk stood gazing, every sense bound up in one; his soul was in his
glance, and his look was such as beams in the eye when it snatches its
last look from the object dearest to the doting heart, till an
involuntary sigh, as it burst from his lips, chased by its echo, the
soft and stealing sleep of Luxima. She started, and looked round her, as
if almost doubtful of her identity. She beheld the Missionary standing
near her, and arose in confusion, yet with a confusion tinctured by
pleasurable surprise.

“Luxima!” he exclaimed, in a voice full of softness, and for the first
time addressing her by her name. “Father!” she timidly returned,
casting down her eyes; then, after a short but touching pause, she
added, “Thou wonderest much to see me here, at such an hour as this!”

“Much,” he returned: “but, dearest daughter, seeing thee as I have seen
thee, I rejoice much more.”

“Many days,” she said, in a low voice, “many days have fled since I
beheld thee; and I prophesied, from the vision of my last night’s dream,
that thy wound would gangrene, were it not speedily touched by the three
sacrificial threads of a Brahmin; therefore came I hither to seek thee,
and brought with me thy Christian Shaster, but I found thee not:
thinking thou wast performing poojah, near some sacred tank, I sat me
down upon thy altar steps, to wait thy coming, and to read thy Shaster;
till weariness, the darkness, and the silence of the place, stole upon
my senses, the doubtful slumber in which thou didst find me wrapt.”

“And dost thou regret,” said the Missionary, with a pensive smile, “that
the spirit of thy prophecy is false? Or dost thou rejoice, that my
wound, which awakened thy anxiety, is healed?” Luxima made no reply--the
feeling of the woman, and the pride of the Prophetess, seemed to
struggle in her bosom; yet a smile from lips, which on _her_ had never
smiled before, seemed to excite some emotion in her countenance. And
after a short pause, she arose, and presenting him the Scriptures, said,
“Christian, take back thy Shaster, for it should belong to thee alone.
’Tis a wondrous book! and full of holy love; worthy to be ranked with
the sacred _Veidam_, which the great Spirit presented to Brahma to
promote the happiness and wisdom of his creatures.” The Missionary had
not yet recovered from the confusion into which the unexpected
appearance of Luxima, in his grotto, had thrown him; he was, therefore,
but ill prepared to address her on a subject so awfully interesting, as
that to which her simple, but sacrilegious commentary, led. He stood,
for a moment, confounded; but, observing that Luxima was about to
depart, he said, “Thou camest hither to seek and to do me a kindness,
and yet my presence banishes thee: at least, suffer me to give thee my
protection on thy return.” As he spoke, they left the grotto together;
and, after a long silence, during which, both seemed engaged with their
own thoughts, the Missionary said, “Thou hast observed truly, that the
inspired work I have put into thy hands is full of holy love; for the
Christian doctrine is the doctrine of the heart, and, true to all its
purest feelings, is full of that tender-loving mercy, which blends and
unites the various selfish interests of mankind, in one great sentiment
of brotherly affection and religious love!”

“Such,” said Luxima, with enthusiasm, “is that doctrine of mystic love,
by which our true religion unites its followers to each other, and to
the Source of all good; for we cannot cling to the hope of infinite
felicity, without rejoicing in the first daughter of love to God, which
is charity towards man. Even here,” she continued, raising her eyes in
transport, “in a dark forlorn state of separation from our beloved, we
live solely in him, in contemplating the moment when we shall be
reunited to him in endless beatitude!”

“Luxima! Luxima!” exclaimed the Missionary, with emotion, “this
rhapsody, glowing and tender as it is, is not the language of religion,
but the eloquence of an ardent enthusiasm; it bears not the pure and
sacred stamp of holy truth, but the gloss and colouring of human
feeling. O my daughter! true religion, pure and simple as it is, is yet
awful and sublime--to be approached with fear and trembling, and to be
cultivated, not in fanciful and tender intimacy, but in spirit and in
truth; by sacrifices of the earthly passions, and the human feeling; by
tears which sue for mercy, and by sufferings which obtain it.” As he
spoke, his voice rose; his agitation increased. Luxima looked timidly in
his eyes, and sighed profoundly: the severity of his manner awed her
gentle nature; the rigid doctrines he preached, subdued her enthusiasm.
She was silent: and the Monk, touched by her softness and trembling,
lest, in scaring her imagination or wounding her feelings, he might
counteract the effects he had already, and with such difficulty,
produced; or, by personally estranging her from himself, loosen those
fragile ties which were slowly drawing her to Heaven; he addressed her
in a softened and a tender voice: “Luxima, forgive me! if to thy gentle
nature, the manners of a man, unused to any intercourse with thy sex,
and wholly devoted to the cause for which he sacrifices every selfish
feeling; if, my daughter, I say, they appear cold, rigid, and severe;
judge not of the _motive_, by the _manner_; nor think that aught, but
the most powerful interest in thy temporal and eternal welfare, could
move him to a zeal so ardent, as he has now betrayed. Forgive him,
then, who, to recall thy wandering mind to truth, would risk a thousand
lives. Forgive him, whose thoughts, and hopes, and views, are now, all,
all engrossed by thee; who makes no prayer to Heaven, which calls not
blessing on thy head; whose life is scarcely more than one long thought
of Luxima!” The Missionary stopt, abruptly: never had his zeal for
conversion led him before to such excess of enthusiasm, as that he now
betrayed; while Luxima, touched and animated by a display of tender and
ardent feeling, so sympathetic to her own, exclaimed, with softness and
with energy, “O father, thus I also feel towards thee; and yet, to see
thee prostrate at the shrine of Brahma, _I_ would not see thee changed
from what thou art--for thou belongest to thy sublime and pure religion;
and thy religion to thee, who art thyself so noble and so true, that,
much as I do stand in awe of thee, yet more do I delight to hear, and to
behold thee, than any earthly good beside!”

The Missionary pressed his hand to his forehead as she spoke, and drew
his cowl over his face. He returned no answer, to a speech, every word
of which had reached his inmost heart. Thoughts of a various nature
crossed each other in his mind; and those he endeavoured to suppress,
were still more dominant than those he sought to encourage. At last a
glimmering light fell from the summit of the mound which was crowned by
Luxima’s pavilion; and denoted that the moment of separation was near.
To conceal from Luxima, that Solyman and his army were encamped in her
neighbourhood--and yet to warn her of the danger of wandering alone in
the consecrated shades of her dwelling; were points, in his opinion,
necessary, but difficult, to reconcile. He, therefore, slightly
observed, that, as the scattered troops of Daara were proceeding through
Cashmire to Lahore, he would, in future, become the guardian of her
wanderings, and hover round her path, at sunset, until the absence of
the intruders should banish all apprehension of intrusion. Luxima
replied to him only by a sigh half suppressed, and by a look, timid,
tender, and doubtful; in which a lingering prejudice, mingled with a
growing confidence, and feeling, and opinion, fading into each other,
still seemed faintly opposed. She half-extended to him a hand which
instinctively recoiled from the touch of his; and when he _almost_
pressed it, trembled, and hastily withdrew.

Hilarion, as he wandered back, alone, to his grotto, recalled his last
conversation with Luxima; and gave himself up to a train of reflection,
new as the feelings by which it was inspired. Hitherto he had considered
pleasure and sin as inseparably connected, since, to suffer and to
resist, was the natural destiny of man: but the Indian Priestess, so
pure, though mistaken in her piety; so innocent, and yet so pleasurable
in her life; so wholly devoted to Heaven, yet so enjoying upon earth,
convinced him that his doctrine was too exclusive; and that there were,
in this world, sources of blameless pleasure, which it were, perhaps,
more culpable to neglect than to embrace.

“It is impious,” he said, “to suppose that God created man to taste
bitterness only; it is also folly; since, formed as we are, the
existence of evil presupposes that of good: for the suffering we endure
is but the loss of happiness we have enjoyed, or the privation of that
we sigh for: and, though the pride of human virtue may resist the
conviction, yet the energy of intellect, the fortitude of virtue, or
the zeal of faith, can have no value in our eyes, but as they lead to
the happiness of others, or to our own. The object, even of religion
itself, points out to us, a good to be attained, and an evil to be
avoided; it prescribes to us as the end of our actions, eternal
felicity; nor can a rational being be supposed to act voluntarily, but
with a view to his own immediate or distant happiness. That good can
indeed alone be termed happiness, which is the most lasting, the most
pure; and is not that ‘the good which faith preferred?’” At this
conclusion he sighed profoundly, and added, “Providence has indeed also
placed within our reach, many lesser intermediate enjoyments, and
endowed us with strong and almost indestructible propensities to obtain
them; but are they intended as objects of our pursuit and acquirement,
or as tests by which our imperfect and frail natures are to be tried,
purified, and strengthened? Alas! it is instinct to desire; it is reason
to _resist_! The struggle is sometimes too much for the imperfection of
humanity. Man, to be greatly good, must be supremely miserable; man, to
secure his future happiness, must sustain his existing evil; and, to
enjoy the felicity of the world to come, he must trample beneath his
feet the pleasures of that which is.” It was thus that his new mode of
feeling was still opposed by his ancient habit of thinking; and that a
mind, struggling between a natural bias and a religious principle of
resistance, between a passionate sentiment and an habitual
self-command, became a scene of conflict and agitation. His restless
days passed slowly away, in endless cogitations, equally unproductive of
any influence upon his feelings or his life. But when evening came, in
all the mildness of her softened glories, peace and joy came with her;
for then the form of his Neophyte rose upon his view: her smile of
languid pleasure met his eye, her accent of tender softness sighed upon
his ear: sometimes moving beside him, sometimes seated at his feet--he
spoke, and she listened--he looked on her, and she believed: while he
trembled from a twofold cause--to observe, that her mind seemed more
engaged with the object who spoke, than with the subject discussed; and
that she too frequently appeared to attend to the doctrine, for the sake
of him only who preached it. But if in one hour her pure soul expanded
to the reception of truth; in the next, it gave up its faculties to a
superstition the most idolatrous: if now she pressed to her vestal lips
the consecrated beads of the Christian rosary--again she knelt at the
shrine of her tutelar idol: when her spiritual guide, affecting a
severity foreign to his feelings, reproved the inconsistency of her
principles, exposed the folly and incongruity of a faith so vacillating,
and urged her openly to embrace, and publicly to profess the Christian
doctrine, she fell at his feet--she trembled--she wept. The feelings of
the woman, and the prejudices of the idolatress, equally at variance in
her tender and erring mind; fearing equally to banish from her sight the
preacher, or to embrace the tenets he proposed to her belief; she said,
“It were better to die, than to live under the curse of my nation; it
were better to suffer the tortures of Narekah[2], than on earth to _lose
cast_, and become a wretched Chancalas!” As she pronounced these words,
so dreadful to an Indian ear, her whole frame became convulsed and
agitated. And the Missionary, endeavouring to sooth the emotions he had
excited, sought only to recall that mild and melting loveliness of look
and air, his admonitions had chased away, or his severity discomposed;
while, frequently, to vary the tone of their intercourse, and to give it
a home-felt attraction in the eyes of his Neophyte, he led her to speak
of the domestic circumstances of her life, of the poetical mysteries of
her religion, and the singular usages and manners of her nation. It was
in such moments as these, that the native genius of her ardent character
betrayed itself; and that she poured on his listening ear, that tender
strain of feeling, or impassioned eloquence, which, brightened with all
the sublimity of Eastern style, was characterized by all that fluent
softness, and spirited delicacy, which belongs to woman, in whatever
region she exists, when animated by the desire of pleasing _him_, the
object of her preference. “And while looks intervened, or smiles,” the
pleasure which these interesting conversations conferred on a mind so
new to such enjoyments, was secretly and unconsciously cherished by the
Missionary, and obviously betrayed, by the soft tranquillity and
increasing languor of his manner; by the long and ardent gaze of his
fixed eyes; by the low-drawn sigh, which so often lingered on the top of
his breath; and by all those traits of pleasurable sensation, which
spoke a man, in whose strong mind, rigid principles, and tranquil heart,
human feeling, even under the pure and sacred veil of religion, was
making an unconscious and insidious inroad. Confirmed by the opinion of
others, and by his own experience, into a belief of his infallibility,
he dared not even to _suspect_ himself: yet there were moments when a
look of ineffable tenderness, a ringlet wafted by the wind over his
cheek, or eyes drawn in sudden confusion from his face, awakened him
from his illusionary dream--and then he flew to prayers and penance, for
the indulgence of feelings, which had not yet stained his spotless life,
by any thought or deed of evil; and, though the sudden consciousness
sometimes struck him, that temptation only was the test of virtue, and
that nature could not be said to be subdued, till she had been
tried--yet he seldom suffered himself to analyze feelings, which perhaps
would have ceased to exist, had they been perfectly understood. It was
thus, the innate purity of the mind betrayed the unconscious sensibility
of the heart, while the passions became so intimately incorporated with
the spirit, as to leave their influence and agency almost equal.
Frequently seeking, in the sophistry of the heart, an excuse for its
weakness, he said, “It is Heaven which has implanted in our nature the
seeds of all affection, and the love we bear to an individual is but a
modification of that sentiment we are commanded to cherish for the
species; and surely that love must be pure, which we cherish, without
the wish or hope of gathering any fruit from its existence, but that of
the pleasure of loving: the disinterestedness of a Christian may go thus
far, but can go no further; the purest of all canonized spirits[3] has
said, ‘The wicked are miserable, because they are incapable of loving.’
Love, therefore, is solely referable to virtue; it is by the corruption
of passion that it ceases to be love. May we then continue to love, that
we may continue to be guiltless!”




CHAPTER IX.


Peace had fled the breast of the man of God! It had deserted him in
wilds, which the tumults of society had not reached; it had abandoned
him in shades, where the ravages of passion were unknown; and left him
exposed to affliction and remorse, in scenes, whose tranquil loveliness
resembled that heaven his faith had promised to his hope. He had brought
with him into deserts, the virtues and the prejudices which belong to
social life, in a certain stage of its progress; and in deserts, Nature,
reclaiming her rights, unopposed by the immediate influence of world,
now taught him to feel her power, through the medium of the most
omnipotent of her passions. Hitherto, forming his principles and
regulating his feelings, by an artificial standard of excellence, which
admitted of no application to the actual relations of life; governed by
doctrines, whose fundamental tenets militated against the intentions of
Providence, by doctrines, which created a fatal distinction between the
species, substituted a passive submission for an active exercise of
reason, and replaced a positive, with an ideal virtue--he resembled the
enthusiast of experimental philosophy, who shuts out the light and
breath of heaven, to inhale an artificial atmosphere, and to enjoy an
ideal existence.

But Nature had now breathed upon his feelings her vivifying spirit: and
as some pleasurable and local sensation, which, at first, quivers in the
lip, and mantles on the cheek, gradually diffuses itself through the
frame, and communicates a vibratory emotion to every nerve and fibre; so
the sentiment, which had, at first, imperceptibly stolen on his heart,
now mastered and absorbed his life. He now lived in a world of newly
connected and newly modified ideas; every sense and every feeling was
increased in its power and acuteness--thoughts passed more rapidly
through his mind, and he felt himself hurried away by new and powerful
emotions, which he sought not to oppose, and yet trembled to indulge. He
had not, indeed, relinquished a single principle of his moral
feeling--he had not yet vanquished a single prejudice of his monastic
education; to feel, was still with him to be weak--to love, a crime--and
to resist, perfection; but the doctrines which religion inculcated and
habit cherished, the vows which bigotry exacted, and prejudice observed;
while they scrupulously guarded the inviolable conduct of the priest,
had lost their influence over the passions of the man. And the painful
vibration, between the natural feeling and conscientious principle,
left him a prey to those internal and harassing conflicts, which rose
and increased, in proportion to the respective exercise and action of a
passionate impulse, and a rigid sense of duty.

Thus, among the privations of a week, peculiarly holy in his church, and
exclusively devoted to religious exercises, he imposed on himself the
most difficult of all restraints, that of abstaining from the society of
his dangerous Neophyte; but the restless impatience with which he
submitted to the severe and voluntary penance, enhanced every pleasure,
and exaggerated every enjoyment, he had relinquished. It more sweetly
melodized the voice he languished again to hear. It heightened the
lustre of those eyes he sighed again to meet; it endeared those innocent
attentions which habit had made so necessary to his happiness; and, by
rendering the Indian more dangerous to his imagination than to his
senses, invested her with that splendid, that touching ideal charm,
which love, operating upon genius, in the absence of its object, can
alone bestow.

Dearer to his heart, as she became more powerful to his imagination, her
idea grew upon his mind with a terrific influence, disputing with Heaven
his nightly vigil and daily meditation. It was in vain that he imposed
on himself the law not to behold, or to commune with her for six
tedious days: his steps, involuntarily faithful to his feelings, still
led him against his better reason to those places, in whose fragrant
shades she appeared to him a celestial visitant: sometimes he beheld her
at a distance at the confluence of the streams, engaged in the
idolatrous, but graceful rites of her half-resigned religion--and then
he believed himself commanded by duty to fly to her redemption, and to
rescue her from the ancient errors into which his absence again had
plunged her; till, suddenly distrusting the impulse which led him
towards her presence, he fled from the sight of the dangerous Heathen,
and almost wished, that infidelity could assume an appearance more
appropriate to its own deformity. Sometimes, when the ardour of the
meridian sun obliged her to seek the impervious shades of her
consecrated grove, he beheld her reclined on flowers, engaged in the
perusal of the religious fables of her poetic faith; and then a
recollection of a genius which shone bright and luminous even through
the errors which clouded its lustre, mingled itself with the actual
impression of her beauty; and he believed a communion with a mind so
pure, would counteract the influence, while it added to the charm, of a
form so lovely.

But when, from the summit of his rocks, when the moonlight silvered
their abrupt points, he beheld her, gliding like a pure and disembodied
spirit, through the shades of her native paradise, and, with a timid and
uncertain step, moving near the woody path which led to his grotto; her
countenance and person characterized by the solicitude of anxious
tenderness, and the sadness of disappointed hope; then she appeared to
him a creature loving as beloved; then he admitted the blessed
conviction, that he had inspired another with that feeling, which had
given to him a new sense of being; then he was tempted to throw himself
at her feet, and to avow the existence of that passion which he now
believed, with a mingled emotion of rapture and remorse, was shared and
returned by her who had inspired it. Yet still, habits of religious
restraint, even more, perhaps, than religion itself, checked the
dangerous impulse; and that ardent sentiment which resisted the force of
his reason and the influence of his faith, submitted to the dictates of
what might be deemed rather his prejudice than his principle. Shuddering
and trembling, he fled from her view, and sought, in the recollection of
the infidelity of the Brahminical Priestess, a resource against the
tenderness and the charms of the lovely woman. But when, at last, this
insupportable absence finally and irresistibly “urged a sweet return;”
when the stated exercises of devotion no longer opposed the more active
duties of conversion; then love, consecrated by the offices of religion,
pursued the object of its secret desire; and, the week of self-denial
past, the evening of the seventh day became, to him, the sabbath of the
heart. He left the cave of his solitude and his penance, and, with a
rapid but unequal step, proceeded towards the fatal stream, on whose
flowery shores the Priestess of Brahma still offered up her vesper
homage to the luminary, whose fading beam was reflected in the up-turned
eyes of its votarist.

As he approached the Priestess and the shrine, his heart throbbed with a
feverish wildness unknown to its former sober pulse. Pleasure, enhanced
by its recent privation; love, warming as it passed through the medium
of an ardent imagination; a consciousness of weakness, cherished by
self-distrust; and an apprehension of frailty proportioned to the
exaggerated force of the temptation--all mingled a sensation of
suffering with the sentiment of pleasure; and the visitation of
happiness, to a heart which had of late studiously avoided its
enjoyment, resembled that rapid return of health, which is so frequently
attended with pain to the exhausted organs; while conscience, awakened
by the excess of emotion, dictated a reserve and coldness to the studied
manners, to which the ardour of unpractised and impetuous feelings with
difficulty submitted. At last, through the branches of a spreading
palm-tree, he beheld, at a distance, the object who had thus agitated
and disturbed the calmest mind which Heaven’s grace had ever visited.
She was leaning on the ruins of a Brahminical altar, habited in her
sacerdotal vestments, which were rich but fantastic. Her brow was
crowned with consecrated flowers; her long dark hair floated on the
wind; and she appeared a splendid image of the religion she
professed--bright, wild, and illusory; captivating to the senses, fatal
to the reason, and powerful and tyrannic to both.

The Missionary paused and gazed--and advanced, and paused, again; till,
on a nearer approach, he observed that her eager look seemed to pursue
some receding object; that her cheek was flushed, and that her veil,
which had fallen over her bosom, heaved to its rapid palpitation. Never
before had he observed such disorder in her air, such emotion in her
countenance, while the abstraction of her mind was so profound, that she
perceived not his approach, till he stood before her: then she started
as from the involvement of some embarrassing dream; a soft and
unrepressed transport beamed in her eyes, which at once expressed joy,
surprise, and apprehension; and the changeful hues of her complexion
resembled the dissolving tints of an iris, as they melt and mingle into
each other, blending their pale and ruby rays till the vivid lustre
fades slowly away upon the colourless air. Pale and smiling as one who
was at the same time sad and pleased, she extended her hand to the
Missionary, and said, in a voice replete with tenderness and emotion,
“My father, thou art then come at last!” While, suddenly starting at the
faint rustling of the trees as the wind crept among their leaves, she
cast round an anxious and inquiring glance. The Missionary let fall her
hand, and, folding his own, he remained silent, and fixed on her a look
equally penetrating and melancholy; for the rapture of a re-union so
wished for, was now disturbed by doubts, whose object was vague, and
embittered by suspicions, whose existence was agony. Luxima, timid and
pensive, cast her eyes to the earth, as if unable to support the
piercing severity of his gaze; a transient blush mantled on her cheek,
and again left it colourless.

“Luxima,” said the Missionary, in emotion, “we meet not now, as we were
wont to meet, hailing each other with the smile of peace.” With eyes
which spoke the heart in every glance, and all the precious confidence
of innocence and truth, “I would say,” he continued, looking earnestly
on her, “that, since we parted, something of thy mind’s angelic calmness
was forfeited, or lost; something of thy bosom’s sunshine was shadowed,
or o’ercast.”

“But thou art here,” she returned, eagerly, “and all again is peace and
brightness.” The Missionary withdrew his eyes from her blushing and
eloquent countenance, and cast them on the earth. Her looks made too
dangerous a comment on the words her lips had uttered, which he felt
were too delightful, and feared were too evasive; which his heart led
him to believe, and his reason to distrust; and, seating himself beside
her on the bank where she now reposed, after a silent pause, which the
half-breathed sighs of the Indian only interrupted, he said, “Well! be
it so, my daughter; be still the guardian of thy bosom’s secret; pure it
must be, being thine. I have no right to wrench it from thee. If it be a
human feeling, belonging only to mortality, to hopes which this world
bounds, or thoughts which this life limits, I, who am not thy temporal,
but thy spiritual friend, can have no claim upon thy confidence. Oh, no!
believe me, Luxima, that, between thee and me, nothing can now, or ever
will, exist, but the sacred cause which first led me to thee.”

This he said with a vehemence but little corresponding to the character
he had assumed, and with an air so cold and so severe, that Luxima,
timid and afflicted, had no force to reply, and no power to restrain her
emotions. Drooping her head on her bosom, she wept. Touched by her
unresisting softness, moved by a sadness, his severity had caused, and
gazing with secret admiration on the grace and loveliness of her looks
and attitude, as she chased away the tears which fell on her bosom, with
her long hair, “Luxima,” he said, in a tone which struggled between his
secret emotion, and assumed coldness, “Luxima, why do you weep? I am not
used to see a woman’s tears, save when they fall from hearts which
penitence, or grief, has touched; but yours, Luxima--they fall in such
tender softness: dearest daughter, have I offended you?”

“’Tis true,” said Luxima, cheered by the increasing tenderness of his
manner, “thou art so grandly good, so awful in thy excellence, that,
little used to wisdom or to virtue so severe, I fear thee most, even
when most I----” She paused abruptly, and blushed; then raising her eyes
to his, a soft confidence seemed to grow upon their gaze, and, with that
fatal smile that so changed the character of her countenance, from the
sedate tranquillity of the Priestess to the bashful fondness of the
woman, she said, “Father, with us the divine wisdom is not personified,
as cold, severe, and rigid; but as the infant twin of love, floating in
gay simplicity in the perfumed dews which fill the crimson buds of young
camala-flowers[4].”

“Luxima,” he returned, seduced into softness by her tender air, “if I am
in look and word severe, such are my habits; but my heart, dear
daughter, at least I fear to thee, is too, too weak; and, when I see
thee sad, and am denied thy confidence----” He paused; and the
rainbow-look of Luxima changing as she spoke, she replied:

“I am, indeed, not quite so happy as I have been. Once my lip knew no
mystery, my heart no care, my brow no cloud; but, of late, I strive to
hide my thoughts even from myself. I oft am sad, and oft regret the
glorious death they robbed me of; for, oh! had I expired upon my
husband’s pyre, in celestial happiness with him I should have enjoyed
the bliss of Heaven while fourteen Indras reign.”

The Missionary started as she pronounced this rhapsody; a new pang
seized his heart, and made him feel as if the deadly drop, which lurks
beneath the adder’s fang, had been distilled into a vital artery: for
Luxima had loved, since Luxima lamented even that dreadful death
itself, which, in her own belief, would have united her eternally to the
object for whom her passion still seemed to survive.

“Luxima,” he said coldly, “till now I never knew you loved; but though
you had, a woe so idle and so causeless, as that you cherish for a
long-lost object, is sanctioned neither by sentiment nor duty, by reason
nor religion.”

“Had he lived,” said Luxima, with simplicity, “it would then have been
no sin to love.”

“Bound to a vestal life,” returned the Missionary, changing colour,
“like me devoted to eternal celibacy, can _you_ lament an object who
would have loved you with a _human passion_; with such a love as should
not even be dreamed of in a vestal’s thoughts?”

“He was my husband,” said Luxima, turning away her eyes, and sighing.

“Not by religion’s holy law,” replied the Missionary, in a hurried tone
of voice; “for forms idolatrous and wild but mock the sacred name; not
by the law of sentiment, for no endearing intercourse of heart and soul
blended your affections in one indissoluble union, for ye were almost
strangers to each other; he saw thee but in childhood, and not, as now,
a woman!--and so lovely!” He paused, and a deep scarlet suffused even
his brow.

“He was at least,” said Luxima, with mild firmness, “_my husband_
according to the law and the religion of my country.”

“But if you have abandoned that religion,” returned the Missionary, “the
ties it formed are broken, and with them should their memory decay.”

“Abandoned it!” repeated Luxima, shuddering, and raising her eyes to
heaven. “O Brahma!!”

“Luxima,” said the Missionary, sternly, “there is no medium; either thou
art a Pagan or a Christian; either I give thee up to thy idols, and
behold thee no more, or thou wilt believe and follow me.”

“Then I will believe and follow thee,” she replied quickly, yet
trembling as she spoke.

“O Luxima! would I could confide in that promise! for, through thee
alone, I count upon the redemption of thy nation.”

“Father,” she returned, “a miracle like _that_, can only be performed by
thee. Look as I have seen thee look--speak as I have heard thee
speak;--give to others that new sense of truth, which thou hast given to
me:--and then----”

“Luxima,” interrupted the Missionary, in great emotion; “you are misled,
my daughter; misled by the ardour of your gratitude, by an exaggerated
sense of powers which belong not to man, but to Heaven, whose agent he
is. The power of conversion rests not exclusively with me; in you it
might effect more miracles than I have ever manifested.”

Luxima waved her head incredulously. “Never,” said she, “shall I become
the partner of thy pious labours! and should I even appear as thy
proselyte, if I were not looked on with horror, I should at least be
considered with indifference.”

“With indifference!” he repeated, throwing his eyes over the perfect
loveliness of her form and countenance: “Luxima, is there on earth a
being so divested of all human feeling, as to behold, to hear thee with
indifference?”

“Art thou not such a one?” demanded Luxima, with a timid and trembling
anxiety of look and voice.

“I, Luxima!--I--” he faltered, and changed colour; then, after a
momentary pause, casting down his eyes, he resumed, “To be divested of
all faculty of sense, were it possible, would be a state of
organization so fatal and so imperfect, as to leave the being thus
formed equally without the wish and without the power of becoming
virtuous; for virtue, the purest, the most severe, and, O Luxima! by
much the most difficult to attain, is that virtue which consists in the
conquest over the impulses of a frail and perverse nature, by religion
and by reason. Thinkest thou then, dearest daughter, that it belongs to
_my_ nature, being man, to live divested of all human feeling, of all
human passion; to behold, with perfect insensibility, forms created to
delight; to listen with perfect indifference to sounds breathed to
enchant; and that when, upon thy cheek, the crimson hues of modesty and
pleasure mantle and mix their soft suffusion; when in thy eyes, rays of
languid light---- Luxima! Luxima!” he continued vehemently, and in
confusion, “I repeat to thee, that there can be no virtue where there is
no temptation; no merit, but in resistance; but in an entire subjection,
through religion, of those feelings which, by a sweet but dread
compulsion, drag us towards perdition. And, oh! if trial be indeed the
test of virtue, I at least may hope to find some favour in the sight of
Heaven, for my trials have not been few.” As he spoke, his whole frame
trembled with uncontrollable emotion, and the paleness of death
over-spread his face.

Luxima, moved by an agitation in one, who had hitherto appeared to her
eyes superior to human feeling, and to human weakness, was touched by an
emotion so accordant to the tender softness and ardent sensibility of
her own character; and timidly taking his hand, and looking with an
half-repressed fondness in his eyes, she said, “Art thou then also
human? Art thou not all-perfect by thy nature? I thought thee one
absorbed in views of heaven, resembling the pure spirit of some holy
Saneasse, when, having passed the troubled ocean of mortal existence, it
reaches the Paradise of Kylausum, and reposes in eternal beatitude, at
the foot of _Him_ who is clothed with the _fourteen worlds_[5].”

The Missionary withdrew his hand, and reposing on it his head, remained
for some time lost in thought; at last he said, “Luxima, have you then
among your people such men as you have now described; who, by a perfect
abstraction of mind, live divested of all human feeling, and who,
walking through life in a state of rigid self-denial, renounce all its
enjoyments, from a conviction of their vanity? Can a religion so false
as theirs produce an effect so perfect? And can the most powerful
sensations, the most tyrannic passions incident to the very constitution
of our natures, making an inseparable part of our structure, connected
and interwoven with all the powers of existence--can they submit and
bend to the influence of _opinion_; to an idea of excellence
originating in, and governed by, a fatal and fanatic superstition; but
worthy, from its purity and elevation, to be the offspring of that
_grace_, which comes alone from Heaven?”

Luxima replied, “It is written in the Vaides and Shastries, whose light
illuminates the earth, that ‘_the resignation of all pleasure is better
than its enjoyment_;’ and that he who resists the passions of his nature
shall be planted in the world of _daivers_, or pure spirits; there to
enjoy eternal bliss. And _one such_ person I once knew; who, having
abandoned all earthly attachments, and broken all earthly ties, lived
remote from man, absorbed in the contemplation of the _Divine Essence_:
never had his lip imbibed the refreshing beverage of the delicious
_caulor_, or the juice of newly-gathered fruits; never had he inhaled
the odour of morning blossoms, nor bathed in the cool wave which smiles
to the light of the night-flower-loving god; never had he pillowed his
sacred brow with the downy leaves of the _mashucca_, nor pressed the
hand of affection, nor listened to the voice of fondness; and his eye,
fixed on earth or raised to heaven, still met no objects but such as
tended to chasten his thoughts, or to elevate his soul;--till one day a
_holy woman_, devoted to the service of her religion, ascended the high
hill, where the hermit dwelt in peace. She came, with others, in faith
and sanctity, to ask his mediation with Heaven, according to the custom
of her nation. The woman departed edified from his presence, for she had
communed with him on the subject of the nine great luminaries, which
influence all human events;--but the soul of the hermit pursued her in
secret; _he_ whose infant hand grasps the lightning’s flash[6], the god
of the flowery bow, had touched the cold, pure thought of the recluse
with a beam of his celestial fire:--_he loved!_--but he loved a _vestal
priestess_, and therefore was forbidden all hope. The Faquir pined in
sadness, and sought to wash away his secret fault in the holiest wave
which purifies the erring soul from sin; and the _goddess_ of the _eight
virgins_ received him in her consecrated bosom[7]. Doubtless he is now
one of the _diavers_, the saints, who, by the voluntary sacrifice of
mortal life, obtain instant admittance to the heavenly regions.” Luxima
sighed as she concluded her little tale.

The Missionary echoed her sigh, and raising a look of sadness to her
pensive countenance, he demanded, “And knew the vestal priestess the
secret of the hermit’s love?”

“Not until he had passed into the world of spirits; and then a wandering
yogi, who had received his last words ere he plunged into the Ganges,
brought her, at his desire, a wreath of faded flowers[8]: the red rose
of passion was twined with the ocynum, the flower of despondency; and
the fragile mayhya, the emblem of mortality, drooped on the camalata,
the blossom of heaven. The faded wreath thus told the love and fate of
him who wove it.”

“And this fatal priestess, Luxima?” said the Missionary, with an
increased emotion, showing there was a nerve in his heart, which
vibrated in sympathy to the tale she told. Luxima made no reply to the
doubtful interrogatory; and the Missionary, raising his eyes to her
face, perceived it crimsoned with blushes, while her tearful eyes were
fixed on the earth. He started--grew pale; and, covering his face with
his hands, after a long silence, he said, “Luxima! thy Hermit was a
virtuous though a most misguided man; his temptation to error was
powerful; the virtue of resistance was his, and the crime of
self-destruction was the crime of his dark and inhuman superstition--terrific
and fatal superstition! in all its views injurious to society, and
pernicious to the moral nature of man, which thus offers a soothing but
impious alternative to the human suffering, and the human woe; which
thus, between infamy and an almost impossible resistance to a clear and
fatal temptation, offers a final resource beyond all which reason can
bestow, or time effect; beyond all, save that which religion proffereth;
and thus alluring the worn, the weary, and long-enduring life to its own
wished-for _immolation_, crowns and conceals the fatal act beneath a
host of bright illusions, and offers to the suicide rewards, which
should belong to him alone who dares to _live_ and _suffer_, who feels
and who resists; and who, though impelled by passion, or seduced by
sentiment, still restrains the wish, corrects the impulse, and rules and
breaks the stubborn feeling nature breathed into his soul when it was
first quickened, that, by this daily death, he might ensure that life
which is eternal. If, Luxima, there lived such a man, thus enduring and
thus resisting, would you not give him your applause?”

“I would give him my pity,” said Luxima, raising her hands and eyes in
great emotion.

The Missionary replied with a deep sigh, “You would do well, my
daughter; it is pity only he deserves.” Then, after a long pause, he
said firmly, “Luxima, I came hither this evening to commune with thee
upon that great subject, which should alone unite us; but the
mysterious emotion in which I found thee wrapt, distracted thoughts,
which are not yet, I fear, all Heaven’s; nor did thy little story,
dearest daughter, serve to tranquillize or sooth them; for, in the
mirror of another’s faults, man, weak and erring, may still expect to
see the sad reflection of his own. But now the dews of evening fall
heavily, the light declines, and it is time we part; and, O Luxima! so
long as we continue thus to meet, thus may we ever part, in the perfect
confidence of each other’s virtue, and each other’s truth.” He arose as
he spoke.

Luxima also arose; she moved a few paces, and then paused, and raised
her timid eyes to his, with look of one who languishes to repose some
confidence, yet who stands awed by the severity of the elected
confidant.

The Missionary, who now studiously avoided those eloquent looks of timid
fondness, whose modesty and sensibility so sweetly blended their lovely
expressions, withdrew his eyes, and fixed them on the rosary he had
taken from his breast, with the abstracted air of one wrapt in holy
meditation. Thus they walked on in silence, until they had reached the
vicinage of Luxima’s habitation. There, as was his custom, the
Missionary paused, and Luxima turning to him said, “Father, wilt thou
not bless me, ere we part?” The Missionary extended his pastoral hands
above her seraph head; the blessing was registered in his eyes, but he
spoke not, for his heart was full. Luxima withdrew, and he stood
pursuing, with admiring eyes, her perfect form, as she slowly ascended
to her pavilion: then turning away as she disappeared, he sighed
convulsively, as one who gives breath to emotion after a long and
painful struggle to suppress or to conceal it. His thoughts, unshackled
by the presence of her to whom they pointed, now flowed with rapidity
and in confusion; sometimes resting on the mysterious emotion he had
observed in the countenance and air of the ingenuous Indian; sometimes
on the suicide Hermit; and sometimes on himself, on his past life, his
former vows, and existing feelings; but these recollections, conjured
up to sooth and to confirm, served but to disquiet and to agitate; and
thus involved in cogitation, slow and lingering in his step, he
involuntarily paused as he reached the bank, whose elastic moss still
bore the impression of Luxima’s light form. He paused and gazed on the
altar of her worship; it was to him as some sad memorial, whose view
touches on the spring of painful recollection; and the pang which had
shot through his heart, when for a moment he had believed her, false as
the religion at whose mouldering shrine she stood, again revived its
painful sensation, like the memory of some terrific vision, which long
leaves its shade of horror upon the awakened mind, when the dream which
gave it has long passed away from the imagination. There is no love
where there is no cause for solicitude; and the first moment when hope
and fear slumber in the perfect consciousness of exclusive and
unalienable possession, is perhaps the first moment when the calm of
indifference dawns upon the declining ardour of passion. To the eye of
philosophy it would have been a curious analysis of the human heart, to
have observed the workings of a strong and solitary feeling, in a
character unsophisticated and unpractised; to have observed a passion,
neither cherished nor opposed by any external object, feeding on its own
vitals, and seeking instinctively to maintain its own vivacity, by
fancying doubts for which it had no cause, and forming suspicions for
which it had no subject. Still in search of some hidden reason for the
restless conflicts of his unhappy mind, the Missionary stood musing and
gazing on the spot where the mysterious emotion of Luxima had excited
that painful, suspicious, and indefinite sentiment, of whose nature and
tendency he was himself ignorant. He could fear no rival in that
consecrated solitude, which his presence alone violated; but he was
afflicted to believe that Luxima could muse, when he was not the subject
of her reverie; that Luxima could weep, when he caused not her tears to
flow; that Luxima could be moved, touched, agitated, and he not be the
sole, the powerful cause of her emotion. It is this exacting, tyrannic,
and exclusive principle which forms the generic character of a true and
unmixed passion: it is this feeling by which we seek and expect to
master and possess the whole existence of the object beloved, which
distinguishes a strong, ardent, and overwhelming sentiment, from those
faint modifications of the vital feeling, which serve rather to amuse
than to occupy life; to interest rather than absorb existence. It is
thus that love, operating upon genius, is assisted by the imagination,
which creates a thousand collateral causes of hope and fear, of
transport and despair; which, in moderate characters, find no existence,
and which, at once fatal and delightful, are the unalienable
inheritance of natural and exquisite sensibility, of a peculiar delicacy
of organization, and of those refined habits of thought and feeling to
which it gives birth.

While thus occupied, creating for himself ideal sources of pain and
pleasure, the twilight of evening was slowly illumined by the silver
rising of a cloudless moon; which threw upon the shining earth the
shadow of his lofty figure; it tinged with living light the crystal
bosom of the consecrated waters; it scattered its rays upon the
motionless foliage of the night-loving sephalica, and found a bright
reflection in some object which lay glittering amidst the fragments of
the ruined altar. When the heart is deeply involved, every sense allies
itself to its feelings, and the eye beholds no object, and the ear
receives no sound, which, in their first impression, awakens not the
master pulse of emotion. The Missionary saw, in the beaming fragment,
some ornament of the sacerdotal vestments of the Brahminical Priestess.
Considering it as more consecrated by her touch than by the purposes to
which it had been devoted, he stooped, and blushed as he did it, to
rescue and preserve it;--but it was no gem sacred to religious ornament;
it made no part of the insignia worn by the children of Brahma; it was
the _silver crescent_ of Islamism; it was the device of the disciples of
Mahomet; the ornament worn in the centre of the turban of the Mogul
officers; and deeply impressed on its silvery surface, obvious even to
a passing glance, and engraven in Arabic characters, was the name of the
heroic and imperial Prince Solyman Sheko.

The Missionary saw this, and saw no more; a tension in his brow, a sense
of suffocation, as though life were about to submit to annihilation; a
pulse feeble and almost still, limbs trembling, and eyes which no longer
received the light, left him no other voluntary power than to throw
himself on the earth; while the strong previous excitement produced, for
a few seconds, a general diminution of the vital action; and he lay as
though death had given peace to those feelings which nothing in life
could at the moment sooth or assuage. From this temporary suspension of
existence he was roused by the sound of horses’ feet: he startled; he
arose, and sprung forward in that direction whence the sound proceeded:
he perceived (himself unseen, amidst the trees) a person on horseback,
who, standing in his stirrup, and shading his eyes from the lustre of
the moonlight, cast round an anxious and inquiring glance, then
approached within the hallowed circle of the Brahminical altar.

The Missionary rushed from his concealment--the paleness of his
countenance rendered more livid by the moonlight which fell on it, and
by the dark relief of his black cowl and flowing robe. He stood, amidst
the ruins of the heathen shrine, resembling the spirit of some departed
minister of its idolatrous rites, the terrific guardian of the awful
site of ancient superstition. Whatever was the impression of his abrupt
and wild appearance, the effect was instantaneous: ere he had uttered a
sound, the stranger suddenly disappeared, as if borne on the wings of
the wind. The Missionary in vain pursued his flight. After having
followed the sounds of the horse’s feet, till a deathlike silence hung
upon their faded echo, the sole result of his observation was, that the
mysterious intruder had fled towards the Mogul camp, which still lay in
the plains of Sirinagur; and the sole inference to be drawn from the
singular adventure was, that Luxima was beloved by the son of the
imperial Daara--that Luxima was false--and that he was most deceived!
This conviction fell on him like a thunderbolt. Thoughts of a new and
gloomy aspect now rushed on each other, as if they had been accelerated
by the bursting of some barrier of the mind, which, till that moment,
had retained them in their natural course. He could not comprehend the
nature of those frightful sensations which quivered through his
frame--that deadly sickness of the soul with which the most dreadful of
all human passions first seizes on its victim. His mind’s fever infected
his whole frame--his head raged--his heart beat strongly; and all the
vital motions seemed hurried on, as if their harmony had been suddenly
destroyed by some fearful visitation of divine wrath. He threw himself
on the dewy earth, and felt something like a horrible enjoyment, in
giving himself up, without reservation, to pangs of love betrayed, of
faith violated, of a jealousy, whose fury rose in proportion to the
loveliness of its object, and to the force and ardour of the character
on which it operated. His memory, faithful only to the events which
aimed at his peace, gave back to his imagination Luxima in all her
bewitching tenderness, in all the seduction of her seeming innocence: he
felt the touch of her hand, he met the fondness of her look; his heart
kindled at her blush of love, and melted at her voice of passion. He
beheld her, bright and fresh, at the rising sun--tender and languid at
its setting; but by him these delights of a first and true love were now
only remembered to be resigned--these joys, which he had almost
purchased with the loss of heaven, could now no longer live for him.
Another would gaze upon her look, and meet her caress, and answer to her
tenderness; another would send his hopes forth, with the rising and the
setting sun: but for him there was no longer a morning, there was no
longer an evening! all was the sad gloom of endless night. In a mind,
however, such as his, to doubt one moment, was to decide the next--his
sole, his solitary, his tyrannic passion, becoming its own retribution,
would, he believed, accompany him to the grave; its object, he
determined to resign for ever. To strengthen him in his intention, he
opposed the holy calm, the sacred peace, the heavenly hopes and solemn
joys of his past and sinless life, to the sufferings, the conflicts, the
conscious self-debasement of his late and present existence. He
remembered that he was the minister of Heaven; devoted, by vows the most
awful and the most binding, to its cause alone; and that he had come
into perilous and distant regions, to preach its truths, not by precept
only, but by example, and to substitute, in the land of idolatry, the
religion of the Spirit, for that of the senses. He sought pertinaciously
to deceive himself, and to mistake the feelings which rose from the
pangs of jealousy, for the visitation of conscience, suddenly awakened
from its long and deathlike slumber, by the fatal consequences of that
intoxicating evil, which had so long entranced and “steeped it in
forgetfulness.” He sought to believe that his guardian angel had not yet
abandoned him, and that Heaven itself, by miraculous interposition, had
snatched him from an abyss of crime, towards which, an ardent and
unguarded zeal for its sacred cause had insensibly seduced him. Struck
by the conviction, he prayed fervently, and vowed solemnly; but his
prayers and his vows alike partook of the vehemence of those contending
passions by which he was moved and agitated. He wept upon the cross he
pressed to his lips--but his tears were not all the holy dew of pious
contrition; religion became debtor to the passions she opposed, and the
ardour of his devotion borrowed its warmth and energy from the
overflowing of those human feelings it sought to combat and to destroy.
At last his emotions, worn out by their own force and activity, subsided
into the torpor of extreme exhaustion. Throwing himself upon the earth,
encompassed by those deep shades of darkness which precede the twilight
dawn of day, he slept; but his slumber was broken and transient, and the
dreams it brought to his disordered imagination were harassing to his
spirits as the painful vigil which had preceded them; for the affliction
which is deep rooted in the heart, which presses upon the vital spring
of self-love, and disturbs the calm of conscientious principle, blasting
hope, rousing remorse, and annihilating happiness, sets at defiance the
soothing oblivion of sleep. Nature, thus opposed to herself, in vain
presents the balmy antidote to the suffering she has inflicted--and the
repose she offers, flies from the lids her unregulated feelings have
sullied with a tear.




CHAPTER X.


The day arose brightly upon the valley of Cashmire. It came in all the
splendid majesty of light, bathing in hues of gold the summits of the
Indian Caucasus: it came in all the renovating influence of warmth,
raising the blossom the night-breeze had laid low; it shed the dews of
heaven upon the towering head of the mighty banyan, and steeped in
liquid silver the flowers of the vesanti creeper; pervading, with a
genial and delicious power, the most remote recess, the most minute
production of nature, and pouring upon the face of the earth, the
beneficent influence of that Being from whose word it proceeded. But the
day brought no solace in its dawn, no joy in its course, to him, who, in
the scale of creation, came nearest in his nature to the Creator;--it
brightened not his thoughts; it revived not his hopes; and, for him, its
beams shone, its dews fell, in vain.

The minister of the religion of peace arose from his harassing slumber
with an heart heavy and troubled, with a frame chilled and unrefreshed.
He arose, agitated by that vague consciousness of misery, which
disturbs, without being understood, when the mind, suddenly awakened
from the transient suspension of its powers, has not yet regained its
full vigour of perception, nor the memory collected and arranged the
freshly traced records of some stranger woe, and when the faculty of
suffering, alone remains to us in all its original force and activity.
Agitated by the tumults of passion, distracted by the suspicions of
jealousy, torn by the anguish of remorse, and humbled by the
consciousness of weakness, the Missionary now felt the full extent of
his progressive and obstinate illusion, in the consequences it had
already produced; he felt that the heart which once opens itself to the
admission of a strong passion, is closed against every other impression,
and that objects obtain or lose their influence, only in proportion as
they are connected with, or remote from, its interest. Love was now to
him what his religion had once been, and the strongest feeling that
rules the human heart stood opposed to the most powerful opinion which
governs the human mind:--the conflict was terrific, and proportioned in
obstinacy and vigour to the strength of the character in which it was
sustained. Knowing no solace in his misery but what arose from the
belief that the secret of his weakness was known only to Heaven and to
himself, he resolved not to trust its preservation to the issue of
chance; but, ere the dreadful passions which shook his soul could
realize their fatal influence in crime; ere the fluctuating emotions
which degraded his mind could resolve themselves into iniquity; ere he
debased the life which sin had not yet polluted, or broke the vows which
were revered, even while they were endangered, he determined to fly the
scenes of his temptation, and to cling to the cross for his redemption
and support. Yet still, with an heart vibrating from the recent
convulsion of its most powerful feelings, he remained irresolute even in
his resolution. Convinced of the imperious necessity which urged him to
leave, for ever, the object of a passion which opposed itself equally to
his temporal and to his eternal welfare; to leave for ever, those scenes
which had cherished and witnessed its progress; he still doubted whether
he should again, and for the last time, behold her, whose falsehood it
was his interest to believe, and his misery to suspect. Now governed by
conscience and by jealousy; now by tenderness and passion--the alternate
victim of feeling and religion, of love and of opinion; he continued
(wretched in his indecision) to wander amidst the voluptuous shades of
his perilous seclusion; hoping that chance might betray him into the
presence of his dangerous and faithless disciple, and vowing
premeditatedly to avoid her, or to behold her only to upbraid, to
admonish, and to leave her for ever. The day, as it passed on, vainly
told to his unheeding senses its rapid flight in all the sweet
gradations of light and odour, in beams less ardent, and in gales more
balmy; till the Missionary, unconsciously descending a path worn away
through a gigantic mass of pine-covered rocks, found himself, at the
setting of the sun, near the too well remembered stream of evening
worship. He started and shuddered, and involuntarily recoiled; and that
fatal moment when he had first seized the up-raised arm of the
idolatrous Priestess, rushed to his recollection: the hour--the
place--the stream which had since so often reflected in its course the
pastor and the proselyte--the tree which had so often shaded their
fervid brows when the glow which suffused them was not all the influence
of season--the sun, whose descending beam had so often been the herald
of their felicity--all looked, all was now, as it had been then,
unaltered and unchanged. The Missionary gazed around him, and sighed
profoundly: “All here,” he said, “still breathes of peace, as when,
myself at peace with all the world, I first beheld this scene of
tranquil loveliness. All here remains the same. O man! it is then thy
dreadful prerogative alone, to sustain that change of all thy powers
which leaves thee a stranger to thyself, lost in the wild vicissitude of
feelings, to which thy past experience can prove no guide, thy reason
lend no light: one fixed immutable law of harmony and order, regulates
and governs the whole system of unintelligent creatures; but thou, in
thy fatal pre-eminence, makest no part in the splendid mechanism of
nature: exclusive and distinct among the works of thy Creator, to thee
alone is granted a self-existing principle of intellectual pain; a
solitary privilege of moral suffering. Vicegerent of Heaven! thou rulest
all that breathes, save only thyself: and boasting a ray of the divine
intelligence, thou art the slave of instinct, thy principle of action a
selfish impulse, and thy restraint an inscrutable necessity.”--He paused
for a moment, and raising his eyes to the sun, which was descending in
all the magnificence of retiring light, still apostrophizing the species
to which he belonged, and whose imperfections he felt he epitomized in
himself, he continued: “That orb, which rises brightly on thy budding
hopes, sets with a changeless lustre on their bloom’s destruction; but,
in the brief interval of time in which it performs its wonted course,
in uninterrupted order, what are the sad transitions by which the mind
of man is subject! what are the countless shades of hope and fear, of
shame and triumph, of rapture and despair, by which he may be depressed
or elevated, ennobled or debased!” He sighed profoundly, as he concluded
a picture of which he was himself the unfortunate original; and,
withdrawing his eyes from the receding sun, he threw them, with the
looks of one who fears an intrusion upon his solitary misery, in that
line where a gentle rustling in the leaves had called his attention. The
branches, thick and interlaced, slowly unclasped their folds, and thrown
lightly back on either side, by a small and delicate hand, the
Priestess of Brahma issued from their dusky shade; her form lighted up
by the crimson rays of that life-giving power, to which she was at this
hour wont to offer her vesper homage. She had that day officiated in the
Pagoda, where she served, and she was habited in sacerdotal vestments,
but there was in her look more of the tender solicitude of an expecting
heart, than the tranquil devotion of a soul which religion only
occupied. Advancing with a rapid, yet doubtful step, she cast round her
eyes with a look timid, tender, and apprehensive, as if she wished and
feared, and hoped and dreaded the presence of some expected object--then
pausing, she drew aside her veil, lest the almost impalpable web should
intercept the fancied sound which expectation hung on. Thus, as she
stood animated by suspenseful love, glowing with the hues of heaven, her
up-held veil floating, like a sun-tinged vapour, round her; she looked
like the tender vision which descends upon Passion’s dream, like the
splendid image, to whose creation Genius entrusts its own immortality.

O woman! Nature, which made you fair, made you fairest in the expression
of this her best feeling; and the most perfect loveliness of a cold
insensibility becomes revolting and deformed, compared to that
intelligence of beauty which rushes upon the countenance from the heart
that is filled with a pure and ardent affection: then thought breathes
upon the lip, independent of sound; and the eye images in a glance, all
that the soul could feel in an age!

Unseen, though haply not unexpected, the Missionary stood lost in
gazing, and finely illustrated the doctrine which gave birth to his
recent soliloquy; for in a moment, thought was changed into emotion, and
musing into passion; resolves were shaken, vows were cancelled,
sufferings were forgotten; on earth he saw only her, whom a moment
before he had hoped never to behold again; and from the world of
feelings which had torn his heart, one only now throbbed in its rapid
pulse--it was the consciousness of being loved! He saw it in the look,
intently fixed upon the path he was wont to take: he saw it on the
cheek which lost or caught its colouring from sounds scarce audible: he
saw it in the air, the attitude; he saw it in the very respiration,
which gave a tremulous and unequal undulation to the consecrated
vestment which shaded, with religious mystery, the vestal’s hallowed
bosom. Sight became to him the governing sense of his existence; and the
image which fascinated his eye, absorbed and ruled every faculty of his
mind. A moment would decide his destiny--the least movement, and he was
discovered to Luxima: a look turned, or a smile directed towards him,
and the virtues of his life would avail him nothing.--He trembled, he
shuddered!--Love was not only opposed to religion, to reason--in his
belief, it was at that moment opposed to his eternal salvation! Suddenly
struck by the horrible conviction, he turned his eyes away, and implored
the assistance of that Heaven he had abandoned. The voice of Luxima came
between him and his God. His prayer died, unfinished, on his lips. He
paused, he listened; but that voice, sweet and plaintive as it was,
addressed not him--its murmuring sounds, broken and soft, seemed only
intended for another; for one who had sprung from behind a clump of
trees, and had fallen at her feet--It was the Prince Solyman Sheko!! The
Missionary stood transfixed, as though a blast from Heaven had withered
up his being!

Luxima, apparently agitated by amazement and terror, seemed to
expostulate; but in a voice so tremulous and low, that it scarcely could
have reached the ear it was intended for.

“Hear me,” said the Prince, abruptly interrupting her, and holding the
drapery of her robe, as if he feared she would escape him; “hear me! I
who have lived only to command, now stoop to solicit; yet it is no
ordinary suitor who pleads timidly at thy feet, desponding while he
supplicates--it is one resolved to know the _best_ or _worst_--to
conquer thee, or to subdue himself. Amidst the dreams of glory, amidst
the tumults of a warrior’s life, the fame of thy unrivalled beauty
reached my ear. I saw thee in the temple of thy gods, and offered to
thee that homage thou dost reserve for them. From that moment my soul
was thine. Thy loveliness hung upon me like a spell; and still I
loitered ’midst the scenes thy presence consecrates, while duty and
ambition, my fame and glory, vainly called me hence. Thy absence from
the temple where thou dost preside, not more adoring than adored; thy
holy seclusion, which all lament, and none dare violate, which even a
Mussulman respects, blasted my hopes and crossed my dearest views: till
yesterday a mandate from my father left to my heart no time for cool
deliberation. With the shades of evening I sought the consecrated grove
forbidden to the foot of man; and for the first time presented myself to
eyes whose first glance fixed my destiny. Amazed and trembling, thou
didst seem to hear me in pity and disdain; then thou didst supplicate my
absence--yet still I lingered; but thou didst weep, and I obeyed the
omnipotence of those sacred tears--yet, ere I reached the camp, I cursed
my weakness, and, listening only to my imperious passion, returned to
seek and sue, perhaps, to conquer and be blessed! But in thy stead, I
saw, or fancied that I saw, some prying Brahmin, some jealous guardian
of the vestal Priestess, placed in these shades to guard and to preserve
her from the unhallowed homage of human adoration, as if none but the
God she served was worthy to possess her. For thy sake, not for mine, I
fled: but now, while all thy brethren are engaged, performing in their
temples their solemn evening worship, I come to offer mine to thee. The
sun has _their_ vows--thou hast mine. They offer to its benignant
influence, prayers of gratitude. Oh! let mine cease to be prayers of
supplication; for I, like them, am zealous in my idolatry; and thus,
like them, devote what yet remains of my existence to my idol’s
service.” He ceased, and gazed, and sighed.

Luxima had heard him in silence, which was only interrupted by broken
exclamations of impatience and apprehension; for her attitude imaged the
very act of flight. The averted head, the advanced step, the strained
eye, the timid disorder of her countenance, all intimated the agitation
of a mind, which seemed labouring under the expectation of some
approaching evil. A pause of a moment ensued; and the Prince, construing
her silence and emotion as his wishes directed, would have taken her
hand. The indignant glance of Luxima met his. There were, in his eyes,
more terrors than his words conveyed. She would have fled. The arms of
the unhallowed infidel were extended to inclose in their fold the sacred
form of the vestal Priestess; but an arm, stronger than his, defeated
the sacrilegious effort, and seizing him in its mighty grasp, flung him
to a considerable distance. The Mussulman was stunned: amazement,
consternation, and rage, mingled in his darkened countenance. He drew a
dagger from his girdle, and flew at the intruder--who suddenly darted
forward to ward off the death-blow which threatened him; and, seizing
the up-raised arm of the infuriate Prince, he struggled with his
strength, and wrenching the weapon from the hand that brandished it,
flung it in the air. Then, with a look dignified and calm, he said,
“Young stranger, thou wouldest have dishonoured thyself, and destroyed
me. I have saved thee from the double crime; give Heaven thanks: return
whence thou camest; and respect, in future, the sacred asylum of
innocence, which thy presence and thy professions alike violate.”

The Prince, struck, but not daunted, by a firmness so unexpected,
replied, with indignation in his look, and rage storming on his brow,
“And who art thou, insolent! who thus darest command? By thy garb and
air, thou seemest some adventurer from the West, some wretched
Christian, unconscious that, for the first time, thou art in the
presence of a Prince.”

The large dark eye of the Missionary rolled over the form of the youth
in haughtiness and pity. His lips trembled with a rage scarcely stifled,
his countenance blazed with the indignant feelings which agitated his
mind. He struggled religiously against himself; but the saintly effort
was unequal to combat the human impulse--he paused to recover his
wonted equanimity of manner, and then returned:

“Who am I, thou wouldest know? I am, like thee, young Prince, a man,
alive to the dignity of his nature as man, resolved, as able, to defend
it; with sinews no less braced than thine, a heart as bold, an arm as
strongly nerved; descended, like thyself, from royal race, and born,
perhaps like thee, for toil and warfare, for danger and for conquest:
but views of higher aim than those which kings are slaves to, replaced a
worldly, with a heavenly object; and he, whom thou hast dared to call a
wretch, tramples beneath his feet the idle baubles for which thy kindred
steep their hands in brothers’ blood; great in the independence of a
soul which God informs, and none but God can move!” The Missionary
paused--the grandeur of his imperious air fading gradually away, like
the declining glories of an evening sky, as all their lustre melts in
the solemn tints of twilight. His eyes fell to the earth, and a cast of
meekness subdued the fire of their glance, and smoothed the lowering
furrow of his close-knit brow.

“Prince,” he added, “thou didst ask me, who I am.--I am a Christian
Missionary, lowly and poor, who wandered from a distant land, to spread
the truth my soul adores, to do what good I can, and still to live in
peace and Christian love with thee and all mankind!” He ceased.

Wonder and amazement, shame and disappointment, mingled in the
expressive countenance of the Mussulman: he remained silent, alternately
directing his glance towards the Missionary, who stood awfully meek and
grandly humble before him, and to Luxima, who, faint and almost
lifeless, leaned against the trunk of a tree, beaming amidst its dark
foliage like a spirit of air, whom the power of enchantment had
spell-bound in the dusky shade. The young and ardent Solyman had nothing
to oppose to the speech of the Missionary, and offered no reply; but
rushing by him, he fell at the feet of the Priestess. “Fair creature,”
he said, “knowest thou this wondrous stranger, and has he any influence
o’er thy mind? for though I hate him as an infidel, yet I would kneel to
him, if he could but move thee in my favour.”

“And what wouldst thou of a Brahmin’s daughter, and a consecrated
vestal?” interrupted the Missionary, trembling with agitation; while
Luxima hid her blushing face in her veil.

“I would possess her affections!” returned the impassioned Solyman.

“She has none to bestow,” said the Missionary, in a faltering voice;
“her soul is wedded to Heaven.”

“Perhaps thou lovest her thyself,” said the Prince, rising from the feet
of Luxima, and darting a searching glance at the Missionary; who
replied, while a crimson glow suffused itself even to his brow, “I love
her in Christian charity, as I am bound to love all mankind.”

“And nothing more?” demanded the Prince, with a piercing look.

“Nothing more?” faintly demanded Luxima, turning on him eyes which
melted with tenderness and apprehension, as if her soul hung upon his
reply.

“Nothing more!” said the Monk, faintly.

“Swear it then,” returned Solyman, while his eyes ran over the anxious
countenance of the drooping Neophyte, who stood pale and sad, chasing
away with her long hair the tears which swelled to her eyes; “swear it,
Christian, by the God you serve.”

“And by what compulsion am I to obey thy orders,” said the Missionary
vehemently, and in unsubdued emotion, “and profane the name of the Most
High, by taking it in vain, because a boy desires it?”

“Boy! boy!” reiterated the Prince, his lips quivering with rage; then,
suddenly recovering himself, he waved his head, and smiled
contemptuously; and turning his eyes on Luxima, whose loveliness became
more attractive from the tender emotion of her varying countenance, he
said, “Beautiful Hindu! it is now for thee to decide! Haply thou knowest
this Christian; perhaps thou lovest him! as it is most certain that he
loves thee. I also love thee: judge then between us. With me thou mayst
one day reign upon the throne of India, and yet become the empress of
thine own people; what he can proffer thee, besides his love, I know
not.”

“Besides his love!” faintly repeated Luxima; and a sigh, which came from
her heart, lingered long and trembling on her lips, while she turned her
full eyes upon the Missionary.

“Ah! thou lovest him then?” demanded the Prince, in strong and unsubdued
emotion.

“It is my religion now to do so,” replied the Indian, trembling and
covered with blushes; and chasing away her timid tears, she added
faintly, “Heaven has spoken through his lips to my soul.”

A long pause ensued; the eyes of each seemed studiously turned from the
other; and all were alike engrossed by their own secret emotions.
Solyman was the first to terminate a silence almost awful.

“Unfortunate Indian!” exclaimed the Prince, with a look of mingled anger
and compassion; “thou art then a Christian, and an apostate from thy
religion, and must _forfeit cast_.”

At this denunciation, so dreadful, Luxima uttered a shriek, and fell at
his feet, pale, trembling, and in disorder. “Mercy!” she exclaimed,
“mercy! recall those dreadful words. Oh! I am not a Christian! not _all_
a Christian! His God indeed is mine; but Brahma still receives my
homage: I am still his Priestess, and bound by holy vows to serve him;
then save me from my nation’s dreadful curse. It is in thy power only to
draw it on my head: for here, hidden from all human eyes, I listen to
the precepts of this holy man, in innocence and truth.”

The Prince gazed on her for a moment, lovely as she lay at his feet, in
softness and in tears; then concealing his face in his robe, he seemed
for some time to struggle with himself; at last he exclaimed, “Unhappy
Indian, thou hast my pity! and if from others thou hast nought to hope,
from me thou hast nought to fear.” Again he paused and sighed
profoundly; and then, in a low voice, added, “Farewell! Though I have
but thrice beheld thy peerless beauty, I would have placed the universe
at thy feet, had I been its master; but the son of the royal Daara
cannot deign to struggle, in unequal rivalship, with an obscure and
unknown Christian wanderer. Yet still remember, should the imprudence of
thy Christian lover expose thee to the rage of Brahminical intolerance;
or thy apostacy call down thy nation’s wrath upon thy head; or should
aught else endanger thee; seek me where thou mayest, I promise thee
protection and defence.” Then, without directing a glance at the
Missionary, he moved with dignity away; and mounting a Tartar horse,
whose bridle was thrown over the trunk of a distant tree, he was in a
moment out of sight.

The Missionary, overwhelmed, as if for the first time his secret were
revealed even to himself, stood transfixed in the attitude in which the
Prince’s last speech had left him; his arms were folded in the dark
drapery of his robe; his eyes cast to the earth; and in his countenance
were mingled expressions of shame and triumph, of passion and remorse,
of joy and apprehension. Luxima too remained in the suppliant attitude
in which she had thrown herself at the Prince’s feet; not daring to
raise those eyes in which a thousand opposite expressions blended their
rays. Solyman had called the Missionary her _lover_; and this epithet,
by a strange contrariety of feeling and of prejudice, at once human and
divine, religious and tender, filled her ardent soul with joy and with
remorse. The affectionate, the impassioned woman triumphed; but the
pure, the consecrated vestal shuddered; and though she still believed
her own feelings resembled the pious tenderness of _mystic love_, yet
she trembled to expose them even to herself, and remained buried in
confusion and in shame. A long and awful pause ensued, and the silent
softness of the twilight no longer echoed the faintest sound; all around
resembled the still repose of nature, ere the eternal breath had warmed
it into life and animation; but all within the souls of the solitary
tenants of shades so tranquil was tumult and agitation. At last, Luxima,
creeping towards the Missionary, in a faint and tender voice, pronounced
the dear and sacred epithet of “Father!” He started at the sound, and,
turning away his head, sighed profoundly. “Look on me,” said Luxima,
timidly; “it is thy child, thy proselyte, who kneels at thy feet; the
wrath of Heaven is about to fall heavily on her head; the gods she has
abandoned are armed against her; and the Heaven, to which thou hast
lured the apostate, opens not to receive and to protect her.” She took
the drapery of his robe as she spoke, and wept in its folds. She was
struck to the soul by the cold resistance of his manner; and beholding
not the passions which convulsed his countenance, she guessed not at
those which agitated his mind. The instinctive tenderness and delicacy
of a woman, whose secret has escaped her, ere an equal confidence has
sanctioned the avowal of her love, was deeply wounded; and not knowing
that man, who has so little power over the mere impulse of passion,
could subdue, confine, and resist the expressions of his sentiments,
she believed that the unguarded discovery of her own feelings had
awakened the abhorrence of a soul so pure and so abstracted as the
Christian’s; and, after a pause, which sighs only interrupted, she
added, “And have I also sinned against thee, for whose sake I have dared
the wrath of the gods of my fathers; and, in declaring the existence of
that divine love, enchanting and sublime, which thou hast taught me to
feel, that mysterious pledge for the assurance of heavenly bliss, by
which an object on earth, precious and united, yet distinct from our own
soul, can----”

“Luxima! Luxima!” interrupted he, in wild and uncontrollable emotion,
nor daring to meet the look which accompanied words so dangerous,
“cease, as you value my eternal happiness. You know not what you do, nor
what you say. You are confounding ideas which should be eternally
distinct and separate: you deceive yourself, and you destroy me! The
innocence of your nature, your years, your sex, the purity of your
feelings, and your soul, must save you; but I! I!--Fatal creature! it
must not be! Farewell, Luxima!--O Luxima! on earth at least we meet no
more!” As he spoke, he disengaged his hand from the clasp of hers, and
would have fled.

“Hear me,” she said, in a faltering voice, and clinging to his robe;
“hear me! and then let me die!”

The Missionary heard and shuddered: he knew that the idea of death was
ever welcome to an Indian’s mind; and, that the crime of suicide to
which despair might urge its victim, was sanctioned by the religion of
the country, by its customs and its laws[9]. He paused, he trembled, and
turning slowly round, fearfully beheld almost lifeless at his feet, the
young, the innocent, and lovely woman, who, for his sake, had refused a
throne; who, for his sake, was ready to embrace death. “Let you die,
Luxima?” he repeated, in a softened voice; and seating himself on a
bank beside her, he chased away with her veil, the tears which hung
trembling on her faded cheek--“Let you die?”

“And wherefore should I live?” she replied with a sigh. “Thou hast torn
from me the solace of my own religion; and, when I lose thee, when I no
longer look upon or hear thee, who can promise that the faith, to which
thou hast won me from the altars of my ancient gods, will remain to
sooth my suffering soul? and, O father! though it should, must I worship
alone and secretly, amidst my kindred and my friends; or, must I, by a
public profession of apostacy, lose my cast, and wander wretched and an
alien in distant wilds, my nation’s curse and shame? Oh! no; ’t were
best, ere that, I died! for now I shall become a link between thy soul
and a better, purer state of things; spotless and unpolluted, I shall
reach the realms of peace, and a part of thyself will have gone before
thee to the bosom of that great Spirit, of which we are alike
emanations. O father!” she added, with a mixture of despair and passion
in her look and voice, “’t were best that _now_ I died; and that I died
for _thee_.”

“For me, Luxima! for me!” repeated the Missionary, in a frenzied accent,
and borne away by a variety of contending and powerful emotions--“die
for me! and yet it is denied _me_ even to _live_ for thee!--And live I
not for thee? O woman! alike fatal and terrific to my senses and my
soul, thou hast offered thy life as a purchase of my secret--and it is
thine! Now then, behold prostrate at thy feet, one who, till this
dreadful moment, never bent his knee to ought but God alone; behold,
thus grovelling on the earth, the destruction thou hast effected, the
ruin thou hast made! behold the unfortunate, whose force has submitted
to thy weakness; whom thou hast dragged from the proudest eminence of
sanctity and virtue, to receive the law of his existence from thy look,
the hope of his felicity from thy smile; for know, frail as thou mayst
be, in all thy fatal fondness, he is frailer still; and that thou, who
lovest with all a seraph’s purity, art beloved with all the sinful
tyranny of human passion, strengthened by restraint, and energized by
being combated. Now then, all consecrated as thou art to heaven; all
pure and vestal by thy vows and life; save, if thou canst, the wretch
whom thou hast made; for, lost alike to heaven and to himself, he looks
alone _to thee_ for his redemption!” As he spoke, he fell prostrate and
almost lifeless on the earth: for two days no food had passed his lips;
for two nights no sleep had closed his eyes; passion and honour,
religion and love, opposed their conflicts in his mind; nature sunk
beneath the struggle, and he lay lifeless at the feet of her who had for
ever destroyed the tranquillity of his conscience, and rendered
valueless the sacrifices of his hitherto pure, sinless, and self-denying
life.

Luxima, trembling and terrified, yet blessed in her sufferings, and
energized by those strong affections which open an infinite resource to
woman in the hour of her trial, gently raised his head from the earth
and chafed his forehead with the drops which a neighbouring lotos-leaf
had treasured from the dews of the morning. He loved her; he had told
her so; and she again repeated in her felicity, as she had done in her
despair, “It were best that now I died!”




CHAPTER XI.


Slowly restored to a perfect consciousness of his situation; to a
recollection of the fatal avowal, by which he had irretrievably
committed himself, and of the singular event which had produced it; the
Missionary still lay motionless and silent; still lay supported by the
Neophyte which love alone had given him. He dreaded a recovery from the
partial suspension of all his higher faculties; he shrank from the
obtrusive admonitions of reason and religion, and sought to perpetuate
an apparent state of insensibility, which gave him up to the indulgence
of a passive but gracious feeling, scarcely accompanied by any positive
perception, and resembling, in its nature and influence, some confused
but delightful dream, which, while it leaves its pleasurable impression
on the senses, defies the accuracy of memory to recall or to arrange it.
His heart now throbbed lightly, for it was disburdened of its fatal
secret; his mind reposed from its conflicts, for it had passed the
crisis of its weakness in betraying it: he felt the tears of love on his
brow; he felt an affectionate hand returning the pressure of his; and a
sense of a sacred communion, which identified the soul of another with
his own, possessed itself of his whole being; and passion was purified
by an intelligence which seemed to belong alone to mind. Alive to
feelings more acute, to a sensibility more exquisite, than he had
hitherto known; all external objects faded from his view for the moment;
life was to him a series of ideas and feelings, of affections and
emotions: he sought to retain no consciousness, but that of loving and
being loved; and if he was absorbed in illusion, it was an illusion
which, though reason condemned, innocence still ennobled and
consecrated.

Luxima hung over him in silence, and her countenance was the reflection
of all the various emotions which flitted over his. The repose which
smoothed his brow, communicated to hers its mild and tranquil
expression; her pulse quickened to the increasing throb of his temples;
and the vital hues which revisited his cheek, rosed hers with the bright
suffusion of love and hope. Fearing almost for his life, she bowed her
head to catch the low-drawn respiration, and returned every breath of
renovating existence with a sigh of increasing joy.

“Luxima!” said a voice, which, though low and tremulous, reached her
inmost soul.

“I am here, father!” she replied in emotion, and bashfully withdrawing
her arm from beneath a head which no longer needed support.

The Missionary took the hand thus withdrawn, and pressed it, for the
first time, to his lips. The modest eyes of the vestal Priestess sank
beneath the look which accompanied the tender act: it was the first look
of love acknowledged and returned; it penetrated and mingled itself with
the very existence of her to whom it was directed; it resembled, in its
absorbing and delicious influence, the ecstacy of enthusiasm, which, in
the days of her religious illusion, descended on her spirit to kindle
and to entrance it; which had once formed the inspiration of the
Prophetess, and animated beyond the charms of human beauty the
loveliness of the woman. Turning away her glance in timid disorder, she
sought for resource against herself in the objects which encompassed
her: she threw up her eyes to that heaven, to whose exclusive love she
had once devoted herself, and, from a sudden association of ideas, she
turned them to the mouldering altar of the god whose service she had
abandoned. The religion of her spirit and of her senses, of truth and
error, alike returned with all their influence on her soul; and she
shuddered as she looked on the shrine where she had once worshipped with
a pure, pious, and undivided feeling: the moonlight fell in broken rays
upon its shining fragments, and formed a strong relief to their lustre
in the massive foliage of a dark tree which shaded it. The air was
breathless, and the branches of this consecrated and gigantic tree
alone were agitated; they waved with a slow but perceptible undulation;
the fearful eyes of the apostate pursued their mysterious motion, which
seemed influenced by no external cause: they bowed, they separated, and
through their hitherto impervious darkness gleamed the vision of a human
countenance! if human it might be called; which gave the perfect image
of Brahma, as he is represented in the _Avatar_ of “the Destroyer.” It
vanished--the moon sank in clouds--the vision lasted but a moment; but
that moment for ever decided the fate of the Priestess of Cashmire!
Luxima saw no more--with a loud and piercing shriek she fell prostrate
on the earth.

The Missionary started in horror and amazement; the form which now lay
pale and lifeless at his feet, had, an instant before, by its animated
beauty rivetted his eyes, absorbed his thoughts, and engrossed his
exclusive attention, as half-averted, half-reposing in his arms, it had
mingled in its expression and its attitude the tender confidence of
innocence and love, the dignified reserve of modesty and virtue; still
seeing no object but herself, he remained ignorant of the cause of her
emotion, and was overwhelmed by its effects. He trembled with a selfish
fondness for a life on which his happiness, his very existence, now
depended: he raised her in his arms; he murmured on her ear words of
peace and love. He threw back her long dark tresses, that the air might
play freely on her face; and he only withdrew his anxious looks from the
beauty of her pale and motionless countenance, to try if he could
discover, in the surrounding scene, any cause for a transition of
feeling so extraordinary; but nothing appeared which could change
happiness into horror, which could tend to still the pulse of love in
the throbbing heart, or bleach its crimson hue upon the glowing cheek.
The moon had again risen in cloudless majesty, rendering the minutest
blossom visible: the stillness of the air was so profound, that the
faintest sigh was heard in dying echoes. All was boundless solitude and
soothing silence. The mystery, therefore, of Luxima’s sudden
distraction was unfathomable. She still lay motionless on the shoulder
of the Missionary; but the convulsive starts, which at intervals shook
her frame, the broken sighs which fluttered on her lips, betrayed the
return of life and consciousness. “Luxima!” exclaimed the Missionary,
pressing the cold hands he held; “Luxima, what means this heart-rending,
this fearful emotion? Look at me! Speak to me! Let me again meet thine
eye, and hang upon thy voice--fatal eye and fatal voice--my destruction
and my felicity! still I woo and fear the return of their magic
influence. Luxima, if Heaven forbids our communion in happiness, does it
also deny us a sympathy in sorrow? Art thou to suffer alone? or rather,
are my miseries to be doubled in my ignorance of thine? Oh! my beloved,
if conscience speak in words of terror to thy soul, what has not mine to
fear? It is I, I alone, who should be miserable in being weak. Created
to feel, thou dost but fulfil thy destiny, and in thee nature contemns
the false vow by which superstition bound thee to thy imaginary god. In
thee it is no crime to love! in me, it is what I abhor no less than
crime--it is sin, it is shame, it is weakness. It is I alone who should
weep and tremble; it is I alone who have fallen, and whose misery and
whose debasement demand pity and support. Speak to me then, my too well
beloved disciple; solace me by words, for thy looks are terrific. O
Luxima! give me back that soft sweet illusion, which thy voice of terror
dissipated, or take from me its remembrance; give me up at once to
reason and to remorse, or bid me, with one look of love, renounce both
for ever at thy feet, and I will obey thee! I!--Redeemer of the World!
hast thou then quite forsaken him whom thou didst die to save? Is the
bearer of thy cross, is the minister of thy word, abandoned by his
Saviour? Is he so steeped in misery and sin, that the spirit, which thy
grace once enlightened, dares not lift itself to thee, and cry for mercy
and salvation? Is the soul, which was tempted to error in its zeal for
thy cause, to sink into the endless night prepared for the guilty?
Woman! fiend! whatever thou art, who thus by the seeming ways of Heaven
leadest me to perdition, leave me! fly me! loose thy fatal hold on my
heart, while yet the guilty passions, which brood there, have made me
criminal in thought alone.”

Luxima shuddered; she raised her drooping head from the bosom which
recoiled from supporting her, and she fixed on the agitated countenance
of the Monk a look, tender, and reproachful, even through the expression
of horror and remorse, which darkened its softness and its lustre. This
look had all its full effect; but Luxima shrunk back from the arms which
again involuntarily extended to receive and to support her; and, in a
solemn and expressive voice, she said, “It is all over!--ere that orb
shall have performed its nightly course we shall be _parted for ever_!”

The Missionary was silent, but horror and consternation were in his
looks.

Luxima threw round her a wild and timid glance; then creeping toward
him, she said, in a low whispering voice, “Sawest thou nothing, some few
minutes back, which froze thy blood, and harrowed up thy soul?”

“Nothing,” he replied, watching, in strong emotion, the sad wild
expression of her countenance.

“That is strange,” she returned, with a deep sigh, “most strange!” Then,
after a pause, she demanded, with a vacant look, “Where are we, father?”

“Luxima! Luxima!” he exclaimed, gazing on her in fear and in amazement,
“what means this sudden, this terrific change? Merciful Heaven! does thy
mind wander; or hast thou quite forgotten thine own consecrated shades,
the ‘_confluence of the streams_,’ where first the Christian Missionary
addressed the Priestess of Brahma? Hast thou forgotten the altar of thy
once worshipped god?”

At these words, emphatically pronounced, to steady her wavering
recollection, lightning from heaven seemed to fall upon the head of the
apostate Priestess; her limbs were convulsed, her complexion grew livid,
she threw her eyes wildly round her, and murmuring, in a low quick
voice, a Brahminical invocation, she sprung forward with rapid bound,
and fell prostrate before the shrine of her former idol. There the
Christian dared not follow her: he arose, and advanced a few steps, and
paused, and gazed; then, wringing his hands in agony, he said, “Happy in
her illusion, she returns to her false gods for support and comfort,
while I, debased and humbled, dare not raise my eyes and heart in
supplications to the God of Truth.” As he spoke, he cast a look on the
cross, which hung from his rosary; but it was still humid with tears,
which love had shed, it still breathed the odours of the tresses the
wind had wafted on its consecrated surface. He shuddered, and let it
fall, and groaned, and covered his eyes with his robe, as if he sought
to shut out the light of the Heaven he had offended. When again he
raised his head, he perceived that Luxima was moving slowly towards him,
not, as she had left him, in delirium, and in tears; but in all the
dazzling lustre of some newly-awakened enthusiasm; resembling in her
motions and her look the brilliant, the blooming, the inspired
Prophetess, who had first disturbed his imagination and agitated his
mind, in the groves of Lahore; extending her right hand to forbid his
approach, she paused and leaned on the branch of a blasted tree, with
all the awful majesty of one who believed herself fresh from a communion
with a celestial being, and irradiated with the reflection of his glory.
“Christian!” she said, after a long pause, “the crisis of human
weakness is past, and the powers of the immortal spirit assert
themselves:--Heaven has interposed to save its faithless servant, and
she is prepared to obey its mandate: a divine hand has extended itself
to snatch her from perdition, and she refuses not its aid. Christian!
the hour of sacrifice is arrived--Farewell. Go! while yet thou mayest
go, in innocence; while yet the arm of eternal destruction has not
reached thee. O Christian! dangerous and fatal! while yet I have breath
and power to bid thee depart, leave me! The light of the great Spirit
has revisited my soul. Even now I am myself become a _part of the
Divinity_.” As she spoke, her eyes were thrown up, and the whites only
were visible; a slight convulsive smile gleamed across her features; and
she passed her right hand from her bosom to her forehead with a slow
movement. This mysterious act seemed to bestow upon her a new sense of
existence[10]. Her religious ecstacy slowly subsided--her eyes fell--the
colour revisited her cheek--she sighed profoundly, and after a silent
pause, she said,

“Christian, thou hast witnessed my re-union to the source of my
spiritual being. Oppose not thyself to the Heaven, which opens to
receive me: depart from me; leave me now--and for ever.”

“Luxima,” interrupted the Missionary, in the low wild accent of terror
and amazement; and perceiving that some delirium of religious fanaticism
had seized her imagination--“Luxima, what means this wondrous
resolution, this sudden change? Are all our powers alike reversed? Hast
thou risen above humanity, or have I fallen below it? And art thou, the
sole cause of all my weakness and my shame, to rise upon the ruin thou
hast made, to triumph upon the destruction thou hast effected? Part with
me now! abandon me in a moment such as this! O Luxima,” he added, with
tenderness and passion, and in a voice soft and imploring, “am I
deceived, or do you love me?”

Luxima replied not, but her whole countenance and form changed their
expression: she no longer looked like an inspired sibyl, borne away by
the illusions of her own disordered imagination, but like a tender and
devoted woman. She advanced; she fell at his feet, and kissed with
humility and passion the hem of his robe; but when he would have raised
her in his arms, she recoiled from his support, and seating herself on
a bank, at a little distance from him, she wept. He approached, and
stood near her: he saw in the rapid transitions of her manner, and her
conduct, the violent struggles of feeling and opinion, the ceaseless
conflicts of love and superstition; he saw imaged in her emotions the
contending passions which shook him to dissolution. He sighed heavily,
and mentally exclaimed,

“Alas! her virtue derives more strength even from error, than mine from
truth: she obeys her ideas of right as a Brahmin; I, as a Christian,
violate and forsake mine.” He turned his eyes on Luxima, and perceived
that she was now gazing with a look of exquisite fondness on him,
tempered with something of melancholy and sadness.

“It is hard,” said she, “to look on thee, and yet to part with thee! but
who will dare to disobey the mandate of a _God_, who comes in his _own
presence to save and to redeem us_?”

“What mean you, Luxima?” interrupted the Missionary, in emotion, and
throwing himself beside her.

“Hear me,” she returned; “_believe_, and _obey_.--From the moment I
first beheld thee, first listened to thee, I have ceased to be myself;
thy looks, thy words, encompassed me on every side; it seemed as if my
soul had anticipated its future fate, and already fled to accomplish it
in thee. I felt that, in ceasing to be near thee, I should cease to
exist: therefore I concealed from thee the danger which hung upon our
interviews, and all that might lead thee, for thine own sake or for
mine, to withdraw from me the heaven of thy presence--but the dream is
over! the God whom thou didst teach me to abandon, has this night
appeared on earth to reclaim his apostate.”

“Luxima! Luxima!”

“Hear me, father! If I live, this night the vision of Brahma, the God
whom I forsook, appeared to me amidst the ruins of his own neglected
altar!”

“Impossible! impossible!” exclaimed the Missionary vehemently.

“Then,” she returned, in a voice which resembled the heart-piercing
accent of melancholy madness, “then there lives some human testimony of
our interview, and thou art lost! thou, my soul’s own idol! Oh! then,
fly--for ever fly: let me feel death and shame but once, and not a
thousand, thousand times through thy destruction. But, no,” she added in
a calmer tone; “it was no human form I saw; I have oft before met that
awful vision in my dream of inspiration! haply it came to warn me of thy
danger, and to save _my_ life through _thine_--then go, leave me while
yet I have power to say--_leave me_!”

The Missionary heard her in uncontrolled emotion; but without any faith
in a fancied event, which he deemed but the vision of her own disordered
imagination, influenced by the agitation of her feelings, by the hour,
the scene, and by the fanaticism and superstitious horrors which still
governed her vacillating mind: but he saw that there was evidently, at
that moment, an obstinacy in her illusion, a bigotry in her faith, it
would be vain to attempt to dissipate or to vanquish, until a calmer
mood of thought and feeling should succeed to their present tumultuous
and unsettled state. Less surprised at the nature of her vision, than at
the peculiar result of its influence, he could not comprehend the
miracle by which she submitted to an eternal separation, at a moment
when his mind, broken and enervated, sunk under the tyranny of a passion
which had just reached its acmé. But he knew love only as a man, and
could not comprehend its nature in the heart of a woman:--with him the
existing moment was every thing, but her affection took eternity itself
into its compass; and though she could have more easily parted with her
life than with her lover, yet she did not hesitate to sacrifice her
felicity to his safety, to his glory, and to the hope of that eternal
reunion which might await two souls, which crime had not yet degraded;
for her tolerant, but zealous, religion, shut not the gates of Heaven
against all who sought it by a different path; and consecrating a human
feeling, in ascribing to it an immortal duration, love itself enabled
her to make the sacrifice religion demanded. The Missionary sought not
to subdue the influence of that wild and fervid imagination, which now,
he believed, held the ascendant; but he sought to combat the resolution
it had given birth to--and gazing on a countenance, where the enthusiasm
of religion still mingled with the expressions of tenderness and
passion, he said,

“Wondrous and powerful being! equally fatal in thy weakness and thy
force, in thy seducing softness, and resisting virtue: wilt thou now,
thus suddenly, thus unprepared, abandon me? now, that thou hast
trampled on my religion and my vows; now, that thou hast conquered my
habits of feeling, my principles of thinking, subdued every faculty of
my being to thy influence, and bereft me of all, save that long latent
power of loving passionately--that tyrannic and dreadful capability of
an exclusive devotion to a creature frail and perishable as myself, by
which thou hast effected my ruin, and changed the very constitution of
my nature?”

“Oh, no!” returned Luxima, endeavouring to conceal her tenderness and
her tears; “oh, no! Part we cannot. Go where thou mayest, my life must
still hang upon thine! my thoughts will pursue thee. Indissolubly
united, there is now but one soul between us. But, O father! to preserve
that soul pure and untainted--the human intercourse, that dear and fatal
symbol of our eternal union, ought, and can, no longer exist; the voice
of God and the law of man, alike oppose it: let us not further provoke
the wrath of both, let us remember our respective vows, and immolate
ourselves to their performance.” She arose as she spoke. The tears stood
trembling in her inflamed eyes, and that deadly sickness of the soul
which ushers in the moment of separation from all the heart holds
dearest, spread its livid hues over her cheek, its agony of expression
over her countenance.

“Woman! woman!” exclaimed the Missionary, wildly, and seizing her
trembling hands, “give me back my peace, or remain to solace me for its
loss; give me back to the Heaven from which you have torn me, or stay,
stay, and teach me to forget the virtue by which I earned its
protection. While yet a dreadful remembrance of my former self remains,
you dare not leave me to horror and remorse! You dare not, cold, or
cruel, or faithless, as you may be, you dare not say, ‘This moment is
our last.’ O Luxima! Luxima!”--Overcome by a sense of his weakness, he
drooped his head upon her hands, and wept. Had not the salvation of his
life been the purchase of her firmness and her resistance, Luxima would
have granted to the tears of love, what its ardour or its eloquence
could now have obtained: but she knew the danger of remaining longer,
or of again meeting him in a place, where they had either been
discovered by the jealous guardians of her rigid order, or from which
they had been warned by a divine intimation. Mingling her tears with
his, after an affecting pause, she said, in a low voice, and scarcely
articulate from contending emotions,

“To-morrow, then, we shall again meet, when the sun sets behind the
mountains: but not here--not here! Oh, no! These shades have become
fearful and full of danger to my imagination. But if thou wilt repair to
the western arcades of the great banyan-tree, then----” The words died
away on her trembling lips, and she cast round a wild and timid look,
as if some minister of Heaven’s mercy was near to forbid an appointment,
which might be, perhaps, pregnant with destruction to both.

“_And then_,” repeated the Missionary, with vehemence and with firmness,
“we meet to part _for ever_!--or--_to part no more_!”

Luxima, at these words, turned her eyes on him, with a look of love,
passionate and despairing--then, folding her hands upon her bosom, she
raised those eloquent eyes to Heaven, with a glance of sweet and holy
resignation to its will. This seraph look of suffering and piety
operated like a spell upon the frantic feelings of her lover. The arms,
extended to detain her, fell back nerveless on his breast. He saw her
move slowly away, resembling the pensive spirit of some innocent
sufferer, whom sorrow had released from the bondage of painful
existence. He saw her light and perfect form, faintly tinged with the
moon-ray, slowly fading into distance, till it seemed to mingle with the
fleecy vapours of the night: then he felt as if she had disappeared from
his eyes for ever, and, turning to her image in his heart, he gave
himself up to suffering and to thought, to the alternate influence of
passion and remorse.




CHAPTER XII.


The habit of suffering brings not always with it the power of endurance;
the nerves, too frequently acted on, become morbid and less capable of
sustaining the pressure of a reiterated sensation; and the mind, no
longer able to support or to resist a protracted conflict, sinks under
its oppression, or by some natural impulse abandons the object of its
painful cogitation, and finds relief in the effort of seeking change.

The Missionary had reached the crisis of passion, the feverish paroxysm
of long-combatted emotions. He had reached the utmost limits of human
temptation and human resistance, and shuddered at the risk he had run
and the peril he had escaped. He resembled a wanderer in an unknown
land, who reaches a towering and fearful eminence; who beholds at a
single glance the dangers he has passed, and those he has still to
encounter; and who endeavours to regulate his future course by the
inferences of his past experience. That wild delirium of the senses
which left him an unpractised victim to their tyranny, subsided in some
degree with the absence of that tender and enchanting object who
distanced all that his fancy had ever dared to picture of woman’s
loveliness or woman’s love; and his mind, comparatively enabled to
think and to decide, with something of its former tone and vigour, gave
itself up to a meditation which had for its subject the consequences of
that fatal avowal by which he had so irretrievably committed his
character and his profession. The mysterious veil which the cold pure
hand of religion had flung over his feelings, was now for ever
withdrawn, and the frailties of a being once deemed infallible, the
passions and weaknesses incidental to his nature as being human, were
not only exposed to himself, but were betrayed to others; and to the
followers of Brahma and Mahomet, the apostle of Christianity appeared
alike frail, alike subdued by passion and open to temptation, as he on
whom the light of revealed truth has never beamed. He felt that he had
dishonoured the religion he professed, by making no application of its
principles to his conduct in the only instance in which his virtue had
been put to a severe test; and that the doctrine of opinion had failed
practically in its influence upon the interests and feelings of
self-love. He could no longer conceal from his awakened conscience, that
the proselyte his zeal had sought for Heaven, had become the object of a
human passion; of a passion, imprudent in the eye of reason, criminal in
the eye of religion; and which, in its nature and consequences, was
scarcely referable to any order, or to any state of society; for, by the
doctrines of their respective religions, by the laws and customs of
their respective countries, they could never be united by those
venerated and holy ties, which regulate and cement the finest bonds of
humanity, and which obtain from mankind, in all regions of the earth,
respect and sanction, as being founded in one of the great moral laws of
nature’s own eternal code. No Brahmin priest could consecrate an union,
sacrilegious according to his habits of thinking and believing. No
Christian minister could bless an alliance formed upon the violation of
vows solemnly pledged before the altar of the Christian’s God. If,
therefore, human opinion was of moment to one, whose secret ambition to
obtain its favour had rendered even _religion_ subservient to its
purpose; if the habits, the principles, and the faith of a whole life,
held any power over conduct and action in a particular instance; if
self-estimation were necessary to the self-love of a proud and lofty
character, between the Christian Priest and Heathen Priestess was placed
an insuperable bar, which if once removed, risked their exposure to
infamy and to shame in this world, and offered, according to their
respective creeds, eternal suffering in the next. But the alternative
was scarce less dreadful. In the first instance it was deemed
impossible, for it was immediate and eternal separation! Reason
dictated, religion commanded, even love itself, influenced by pity,
admitted the terrific necessity. Yet still passion and nature struggled,
and resisted, with an energy and an eloquence, to which the heart, the
imagination, and the senses, devotedly listened. Oh! it is long, very
long, before the strongest mind, in obedience to the dictates of
prudence and of pride, can dismiss from its thoughts the object of an
habitual meditation, before it can strike out some new line of
existence, foreign to its most cherished sentiments and dearest views.
It is long, very long, before we can look calmly into the deserted
heart, and behold unmoved a dreary void, where late some image erected
by our hopes, filled from the source of pleasure, every artery with the
tide of gladness. It is difficult for human reason to argue away
passion, by cold and abstract principles, and to substitute the torpor
of indifference for the pang of disappointment; but it is still more
difficult for human fortitude, though actuated by the highest human
virtue, to tear asunder the ties of love, in all their force and vigour,
ere habit may have softened their strength, or satiety relaxed their
tension. To effect this sudden breaking up of the affections, ere they
have been suffered gently to moulder away in the mild and sure decay of
consuming time, the silent, certain progress of mortal oblivion, some
power more than human is requisite.

On the luxurious shores of the confluence of the streams, with the light
of heaven dying softly round them, the air breathing enjoyment, and the
earth affording it, the stoicism of the man would not perhaps have
continued proof against the charms of the woman. But in darkness, in
solitude, and in silence, in a cavern cold and gloomy, religion
borrowed a superadded influence from the impression of the senses; and
at the foot of the cross, raised by his own hands in the land of the
unbelieving, and faintly illuminated by the chill pure rays of an
approaching dawn, that season of the day so solemn and so impressive,
when passion slumbers, and visions of fear and gloom steal upon the
soul, did the Christian Missionary vow to resign for ever, the object of
the only human weakness which had disgraced his sinless life. The vow
had passed his lips; it was registered in heaven; and nature almost sunk
beneath the sacrifice which religion had exacted.

The great immolation resolved on, all that now remained to be effected,
was to fly from a spot which he had found so fatal to his pious views,
and to pursue the holy cause of the Mission in regions more favourable
to its success; but the energy of zeal was subdued or blunted, and a
complexional enthusiasm, once solely directed to the interests of
Christianity, had now found another medium for its ardour and activity.
Scarcely knowing whither to direct his steps, he mechanically inquired
from a Goala, whom kindness that morning brought to his grotto with some
fruit, the road, which at that season, the caravan passing through
Cashmire from Thibet, usually took. The information he received tended
to facilitate his departure from Cashmire, for the caravan had halted in
the district of Sirinagur.

To behold Luxima for the last time was now all that remained! But the
feelings of tenderness and despair, with which this trying interview was
contemplated, plunged him in all the pangs of irresolution; vibrating
between desire and fear, between the horror of leaving her, unprepared
and unexpecting their eternal separation, or of beholding her in love
and in affliction, expressing in her beautiful and eloquent countenance,
the agony of that tender and suffering heart which, but for him, had
still been the asylum of peace and happiness.

At last, a day of conflict and of misery, alternately devoted to an
heavenly and to an earthly object, now passed in tenderness and grief,
and now in supplication and in prayer, hastened to its conclusion! The
sun had set--a few golden rays still lingered in the horizon, and found
a bright reflection on the snows which covered the mountains of Thibet.
It was the hour of _the appointed interview_! The Christian prostrated
himself for the last time before the altar, and invoked the protection
of Heaven to support him through the most trying effort of his life; to
subdue the hidden “man of the heart,” and, upon the ruins of a frail and
earthly passion, to raise a sentiment of hope and faith, which should
point alone to that eternal recompense reserved for those who suffer and
who sustain, who are tempted and who resist. He arose, sublimed and
tranquillized, from the foot of the altar. Religion encompassed him
with her shield, and poured her spirit on his soul. He took from the
altar the Scriptural volume, and placed it on his bosom; and grasping in
his right hand the pastoral crosier, he paused for a moment, and gazed
around him; then proceeding with a rapid step, he passed, for the last
time, the rude threshold of a place which had afforded him so sweet and
so fatal an asylum, which had so often re-echoed to his sighs of
passion, and resounded to his groans of penitence. Yet once again he
paused, and cast back his eyes upon this beloved grotto: but the faded
wreath of the Indian Priestess, suspended from one of its projections,
caught his glance. He shuddered. This simple object was fatal to his
resolutions--it brought to his heart the recollection of love’s
delicious dawn; the various eras of its successive and blissful
emotions. But he wished to meet _her_, on whose brow this frail memento
had once exhausted its odours and its bloom, as he had first met her,
with eyes so cold, and thoughts so pure and so free from human taint,
that even Religion’s self might say, “A communion such as this belongs
to Heaven!” Yet he withdrew his eyes with a long and lingering look, and
sighed profoundly as he retreated. He reached the arcade of the banyans,
as the sunbeam reflected from the mountains threw its last light on a
dark bower of branches, beneath whose shade he beheld the Indian
Neophyte. She was kneeling on the earth, pale, and much changed in her
appearance, and seemingly invoking the assistance of Heaven with fervid
devotion. No consecrated flower bloomed amidst the dark redundancy of
her neglected tresses. No transparent drapery shadowed, with folds of
snow, the outlines of her perfect form: her hair, loose and dishevelled,
hung in disorder round her; and she was habited in the dress of a
Chancalas, or _outcast_--a habit coarse and rude, and calculated to
resist the vicissitude of climate to which such unhappy wanderers are
exposed. A linen veil partly shaded her head: her muntras were fastened
round her arm with an idol figure of Camdeo: from the dsandam which
encircled her neck, was suspended a small cross, given to her by the
Missionary; and those symbols of faith and of idolatry expressed the
undecided state of her mind and feelings, which _truth_ taught by
_love_, and _error_ confirmed by _habit_, still divided--equally
resembling in her look, her dress, and air, a Christian Magdalene, or a
penitent Priestess of Brahma.

In this object, so sad and so touching, nothing appeared to change the
resolutions of the Missionary, but much to confirm them. It was a fine
image of the conquest of virtue over passion--and the most tender of
women seemed to set a bright example to the firmest of men. Yet, when
Luxima beheld him, a faint colour suffused her cheek, her whole frame
thrilled with obvious emotion. She arose, and extended her trembling
hand--but he took it not; for her appearance awakened sensations of love
and melancholy, which, when they mingle, are of all others the most
profound; and casting down his eyes, he said,

“I am come, my daughter, in obedience to thy commands, to behold thee
for the last time, and to give thee up exclusively to Him, whose grace
may operate upon thy soul, without the wretched aid of one so frail and
weak as I have proved. Thou wearest on thy breast, the badge of that
pure truth which already dawns upon thy soul. Take also this book--it is
all I have to bestow; but it is all-sufficient for thy eternal
happiness.” He paused, and the emotion of his countenance but ill
accorded with the coldness of his words.

Luxima took the book in silence: something she would have said, but the
words died away on her trembling lips; and she raised her eyes to his
face, with a look so tender, and yet so despairing, that the Missionary
felt how fatal to every resolution he had formed, another such look
might prove.

Averting his eyes, therefore, and extending his hands over her head, he
would have spoken--he would have blessed her--he would have said,
“Farewell for ever!” but the power of articulation had deserted him.
Again he tried to speak, and failed; his lips trembled, his eyes grew
dim, his heart sickened, and the agonies of death seemed to convulse his
frame. Luxima still clung to his arm. Had the lifeblood flowed from her
bosom, beneath the sacrificial knife, her countenance could not have
expressed more acute anguish. He sought, by a feeble effort, to release
himself from her grasp: but he had not power to move; and the mutual
glance which mingled their souls at the moment they were about to part
for ever, operated with a force they had no longer power to resist.
Faint and pale, Luxima sunk on his bosom. At that moment, sounds came
confusedly on the winds, and growing louder on the ear, seemed to
pierce the heart of the Indian. She started, she trembled, she listened
wildly; and then, with a shriek, exclaimed,

“So soon, so soon, does death overtake me. Now then, now, farewell for
ever! Leave me to die, and save thyself!” As she spoke, she would have
fallen to the earth, but that the Missionary caught her in his arms. All
the powers of life seemed to rush upon him; a vague idea of some
dreadful danger which threatened the object of his pity and his love,
roused and energized his mind and nerved his frame. He no longer
reasoned, he no longer resisted. Obedient only to the impulse of the
immediate feeling, he bore away his lifeless charge in his arms, and
plunging into the deepest shades of the banyan, endeavoured to reach a
dark pile of towering rocks, whose sharp high points still caught a hue
of light from the west, and among whose cavities he hoped to find refuge
and concealment. The mists of evening had hid from his view a mighty
excavation, which he now entered, and perceived that it was the
vestibule of an ancient Pagoda: its roof, glittering with pendent
stalactites, was supported by columns, forming a magnificent colonnade,
disposed with all the grand irregularity which Nature displays in her
greatest works, and reflecting the images of surrounding objects, tinged
with the rich and purple shade of evening colouring. This splendid
portico opened into a gloomy and terrific cavern, whose
half-illuminated recess formed a striking contrast to the exterior
lustre. Pillars of immense magnitude hewn out of the massive rocks, and
forming an imperishable part of the whole mighty mass, sustained the
ponderous and vaulted ceiling: receding in the perspective, they lost
their magnitude in distance, till their lessening forms terminated in
dim obscurity, and finely characterized the awful mystery of the
impervious gloom. Idols of gigantic stature, colossal forms, hideous and
grotesque images, and shrines emblazoned with offerings, and dimly
glittering with a dusky lustre, were rudely scattered on every side. For
the Missionary had borne the Priestess of Brahma to the temple in which
she herself presided: the most ancient and celebrated in India, after
that of Elephanta. This sanctuary of the most awful superstition, worthy
of the wildest rites of a dark idolatry, was now wrapt in a gloom,
rendered more obvious by the faint blue light which issued from the
earth, in a remote part of the cavern, and which seemed to proceed from
a subterraneous fire[11], which burst at intervals into flame, throwing
a frightful glare upon objects in themselves terrific.

The Christian shuddered as he gazed around him: but every thought, every
feeling of the lover and the man, was soon concentrated to the object
still supported in his arms, and who he believed and hoped, in this sad
and lonely retreat, had nothing to apprehend from immediate danger. Life
again reanimated her frame, but she was weak and faint, and an
expression of terror was still marked on her features. He placed her
near a pillar, which supported her drooping form, and flew to procure
some water from a spring, whose gushing fall echoed among the rocks;
when the sound of solemn music, deep, sad, and sonorous, came upon the
wind, which at intervals rushed through the long surrounding aisles of
the cavern, disturbing with their hollow murmurs the deathlike silence
of the place. The Missionary listened: the sounds grew louder; they were
no longer prolonged by the wind; they came distinctly on the ear; they
were accompanied by the echo of many footsteps; and hues of light thrown
on the darkness of the rocks, marked the shadows of an approaching
multitude. The Missionary rushed back to his charge: she had raised her
head from the earth, and listened with the air of a maniac to the
increasing sounds.

“Unfortunate as innocent,” he said, encircling her with his extended
arms, “there is now, I fear, no refuge left thee but this. O Luxima! thy
danger has reunited us, and I am alike prepared to die for or with
thee.” As he spoke, a blue phosphoric light glanced on the idols near
the entrance of the Pagoda: it proceeded from a large silver censer,
borne by a venerable Brahmin, who was followed by a procession of the
same order, each Brahmin holding in his hand a branch of the gloomy and
sacred ocynum, the symbol of the dreadful ceremony of _Brahminical
excommunication_. The procession, which passed near the pillar, by whose
deep shadow the unfortunate victims who thus had rushed upon
destruction, stood concealed, was closed by the venerable Guru of
Cashmire; he was carried in a black palanquin, and his aged countenance
was stamped with the impress of despair. The Brahmins circled round the
subterraneous fire, each in his turn flinging on its flame the leaves of
the sandaltree and oils of precious odour. The kindling flames
discovered on every side, thrones, columns, altars, and images; while
the priests, dividing into two bands, stood on each side of the fire,
and the Guru took his place in the centre of his disciples.

All now was the silence of death, and the subterraneous fire spread
around its ghastly hues: the chief of the Brahmins, then prostrating
himself before the shrine of Vishnu, drew from his breast the volume of
the sacred laws of MENU, and read the following decree, in a deep and
impressive voice: “Glory be to Vishnu! who thus speaks by the mouth of
his Prophet Menu[12]. He who talks to the wife or the widow of a
Brahmin, at a place of pilgrimage, in a consecrated grove, or at the
confluence of rivers, incurs the punishment of guilt; the seduction of a
guarded Priestess is to be repaid with life: but if she be not only
guarded, but eminent for good qualities, he is to be burnt with the
fires of divine wrath!” At these words the solemn roll of the tublea,
or drum of condemnation, resounded through the temple; and when the
awful sound had died away in melancholy murmurs, two Brahmins coming
forward, made their depositions of the guilt of the chief Priestess of
the temple. They deposed, that, passing near the sacred grove which led
to the pavilion of the Priestess, they observed issuing from its shades
the Mogul Prince Solyman--that, induced by their zeal for the purity of
their sacred order, they repaired at the same hour on the following
evening to the place of her evening worship, where they had discovered
the Brachmachira, not indeed as they had expected, with the worshipper
of Mahomet, but with a Frangui or Impure, who had already endeavoured
to seduce some of the children of Brahma to abandon the God of their
fathers; that they found her supporting the infidel in her arms--a
circumstance sufficient to confirm every suspicion of her guilt, and to
call for her excommunication, or forfeiture of cast. The sanctity, the
age and reputation of the Brahmins, gave to their testimony a weight
which none dared dispute. It was now only reserved for the Guru to
pronounce sentence on his granddaughter. He was supported by two Yogis.
A ghastly and livid hue diffused itself over his countenance; and in his
despairing look were mingled with the distracted feelings of the doting
parent, the superstitious horrors of the zealous Priest. Thrice he
essayed to pronounce that name, hitherto never uttered but with triumph;
and to heap curses upon that beloved head, on which blessings and tears
of joy had so often fallen together. At last, in a low, trembling, and
hollow voice, he said,

     “Luxima, the Brachmachira of Cashmire, Chief Priestess of the
     Pagoda of Sirinagur, and a consecrated vestal of Brahma, having
     justly forfeited cast, is doomed by the word of Brahma, and the law
     of Menu, to become a Chancalas, a wanderer, and an outcast upon
     earth!--with none to pray with her, none to sacrifice with her,
     none to read with her, and none to speak to her; none to be allied
     by friendship or by marriage to her, none to eat, none to drink,
     and none to pray with her. Abject let her live, excluded from all
     social duties; let her wander over the earth, deserted by all,
     trusted by none, by none received with affection, by none treated
     with confidence--an apostate from her religion, and an alien to her
     country, branded with the stamp of infamy and of shame, the curse
     of Heaven and the hatred of all good men[13].”

The last words died on the lips of him who pronounced them; and the
unfortunate grandsire fell lifeless in the arms of his attendants. The
conch, or religious hell, was then blown with a blast so shrill and
loud, that it resembled the sound of the last trump; the tublea rolled,
and was echoed by endless reverberations; hideous shouts of
superstitious frenzy mingling their discordant jar, ran along the mighty
concave like pealing thunderbolts, until gradually these sounds of
terror fainted away in sobbing echoes; and the awful procession departed
from the temple to the same solemn strains, in the same order in which
it had entered it. All was again silent, awful, and gloomy; like the
night which preceded creation, or that which is to follow its
destruction. The subterraneous fires still faintly emitted their flame
above the surface of the earth, and threw their mystic light on the
brow of the excommunicated Priestess. She lay lifeless on the earth,
where she had fallen during the conclusion of the ceremony of her
excommunication, with a shriek so loud and piercing, that the horrid
crash of sounds, which at that moment filled the Pagoda, could alone
have drowned her shrill and plaintive voice, or prevented the discovery
of her situation to the ministers of the temple. The Missionary knelt
beside her, watching, in breathless agony, the slow departure and fading
sounds of the procession. When all was still, he turned his eyes on the
Outcast; he saw her lying without life or motion, cold and disfigured,
and, save by him alone, abandoned and abhorred by all. Thus lost, thus
fallen, he beheld her in a place where she had once received the homage
of a deity: he saw her an innocent and unoffending victim, offered by
himself, by his mistaken zeal and imprudent passion, on the altar of a
rigid and cruel superstition: his brain maddened as he gazed upon her,
for he almost believed her tender heart had broken its life-chords,
under the pressure of feelings and sufferings beyond the power of human
endurance; and, in this dreadful apprehension, all capability of thought
or action alike deserted him. Alike bereaved of reflection or resource,
alike destitute of effort or energy, he remained mute, agonized, and
gazing on the object of his tenderness and his despair. At last a sigh,
soft, yet convulsive, breathed from the lips of Luxima, and seemed to
operate on his frame like electricity: it was a human sound, and it
dispelled the dead-like silence of all around him; it was the accent of
love and sorrow, and his heart vibrated to its respiration. He raised
the sufferer in his arms; he addressed to her soothing murmurs of love
and pity, of hope and consolation. At the sound of his voice, she raised
her eyes, and gazed, with a look of fear and terror, round her, as if
she expected to meet the forms, or to hear the voices, of the awful
ministers of her malediction; but the moment which succeeded was cheaply
purchased, even by its preceding horrors. She turned back her languid
eyes in despair, believing herself abandoned alike by Heaven and earth,
but she fixed them in transport on him who was now her universe; her
whole being received a new impulse from the look which answered to her
own.

“Thou art safe! thou art near me!” she exclaimed, in a sobbing accent;
and, falling on his shoulder, she wept. Some moments of unbroken silence
passed away, devoted to emotions too exquisite and too profound to be
imaged by words. Where a true and perfect love exists, there is a
melancholy bliss in the sacrifices made for its object; and the tender
Indian was now soothed, under her affliction, by the consideration of
him for whose sake she had incurred it: for to suffer, or to die, for
him she loved, was more precious to her feelings, than even to have
enjoyed security and life, independent of his idea, his influence, or
his presence. But equal to sustain her own miseries, she was overpowered
by the fate which remotely threatened him; and in a moment when her
affection rose in proportion to the peril he risked for her sake, she
resolved on the last and greatest sacrifice the heart of woman could
make to effect his safety, by again urging his flight, and resigning him
for ever. Gazing on him, therefore, with a melancholy smile, which love
and agony disputed, she said, “My father and my friend! a creature
avoided and abhorred by all, labouring under the curse of her nation and
the wrath of Heaven, has no alternative but to submit to a fate, which
she can neither avert nor avoid: but for thee, who hast incurred the
penalty of a crime, of which thou art innocent, and which thy pure soul
abhors, a life of safety and of glory is yet reserved. A law, which
seems dictated by cruelty, is always reluctantly executed by the gentle
and benevolent Hindus; and they shudder to take the life which they yet
forbear not to render miserable. Provoke not then their wrath by thy
presence, but fly, and live for those most happy and most blessed, who
shall meet thy looks and hang upon thy words. For me, my days are
numbered--sad and few, they will wear away in some trackless desert;
where, lost to my cast, my country, and my fame, death, welcome and
wished for, shall yet find my soul wedded to one deathless bliss, the
bliss of knowing I was beloved by thee.” As she spoke, her head drooped
on the trembling hands which were clasped in hers; her tears bathed
them. A long and an affecting pause ensued.

A thousand feelings, opposite in their nature and powerful in their
influence, seemed to struggle in the bosom of the Missionary: a thousand
ideas, each at variance with the other, seemed to rush on and to agitate
his mind. At last, withdrawing the hand which trembled in hers, and with
the look and voice of one whose soul, after a long tumultuous conflict,
is wound up to unalterable resolution, he said, “Luxima, I am a
Christian, and a priest, and I am bound by certain vows to Heaven, from
the observance of which no human power can absolve me; but I am also a
man; as such, led by feeling, impelled by humanity, and bound by duty,
to aid the weak and to succour the unfortunate:--but when I am myself
the cause of sorrow to the innocent! of affliction to the
unoffending!--O Luxima!” he passionately added, “lost to thee for ever,
as lover or as husband, thinkest thou that I can also abandon thee as
pastor and as friend? Hast thou then, my daughter, the courage to leave
for ever the temples of thy God, and the land of thy forefathers? Art
thou so assured of thyself and of me, as to follow me through distant
regions, to follow me as my _disciple only_; to take up the cross of
Christianity, and to devote what remains of thy young and blooming life
exclusively to Heaven? Luxima, wilt thou follow me to Goa?”

“Follow _thee_?” wildly and tenderly repeated the Indian. An hysteric
laugh burst from her lips, a crimson blush rushed over her face, and
again deserting it, left it colourless. “Follow thee! O Heaven! _through
life to death_!”

The Missionary arose: he averted his eyes from the fatal eloquence of
hers: he paced the temple with an unequal but rapid step; he seemed
wrapt in thoughts wild and conflicting. At last, turning to Luxima, he
fixed his eyes on her face, and said, with a voice firm, solemn, and
impressive, “Daughter, it is well! from this moment I am thy guide on
earth to heaven--no more!”

“No more!” faintly repeated Luxima, casting down her looks and sighing
profoundly. Then, after a short pause, the Missionary extended his hand
to raise her; but suddenly relinquishing the trembling form he
supported, he moved away. Luxima, with a slow and feeble step, followed
him to the entrance of the temple; but, as they reached together the
extremity of the cavern, the blue light of the subterraneous fire
flashed on an image of Camdeo, her tutelar deity. She started,
involuntarily paused before the idol, and bowed her head to the earth.

The Missionary threw on her a glance of severe reproof, and, taking her
hand, would have led her on; but this little image had touched on the
chord of her most profound feelings, and awakened the most intimately
associated ideas of her mind.

“Father,” she said, in a timid supplication of look and voice, “forgive
me; but here, in this spot, no less an idol than that at whose shrine I
bow--my nation’s pride and sex’s glory--here did I devote myself to
Heaven; and becoming the Priestess of mystic love, here did I renounce,
by many a sacred vow, all human passion and all human ties.”

“Luxima,” he replied, still leading her on, “such as were thy vows, such
_are_ mine; let us alike keep them in our recollection, and renew them
in our hearts. O my daughter! let us more than tacitly renew them in our
hearts; let us together kneel, and----”

“_But not here, father!_” tremulously interrupted Luxima, looking
fearfully round her--“not here!”

“No,” he replied, and shuddered as he spoke, “not here!”

In silence, and with rapid steps, they passed beneath the frowning and
gigantic arch, which hung its ponderous vault above the threshold of the
Pagan temple; to its impervious gloom, its mysterious obscurity,
succeeded the sudden brightness of the moonlight glen, in whose lovely
solitudes the awful pile reared its massive heights, to intercept the
rising, or catch the parting beam of day. Here the proscribed wanderers
paused; they listened breathlessly, and gazed on every side; for danger,
perhaps death, surrounded them: but not a sound disturbed the mystic
silence, save the low murmurs of a gushing spring, which fell with more
than mortal music from a mossy cliff, sparkling among the matted roots
of overhanging trees, and gliding, like liquid silver, beneath the
network of the parasite plants. The flowers of the Mangoosten gave to
the fresh air a balmy fragrance. The mighty rocks of the Pagoda, which
rose behind in endless perspective, scaling the heavens, which seemed to
repose upon their summits, lent the strong relief of their deep shadows
to the softened twilight of the foreground.

“All is still,” said the Missionary, pausing near the edge of the
falling stream, and relinquishing the hand he had till now clasped; “all
is still, and spirits of peace seem to walk abroad, to calm the tumult
of human cares, to whisper hope, and to inspire confidence. My
daughter, eternity is in these moments. The brief and frail authority of
man, reduced to its own insignificance, holds no jurisdiction now, and
the spirit ascends free and fearless to the throne of its Creator.” The
Missionary stood gazing on the firmament as he spoke, his soul mingling
with the magnificent and sublime objects he contemplated; then, turning
his eyes on Luxima, he was struck with the peculiar character of her air
and person. She looked, as she stood at a little distance, half hid in
the mists of shade, like some impalpable form, which imaged on the air
the spirit of suffering innocence, in the first moment of its ascent to
heaven. Her head was thrown back, and a broken moonbeam, falling
through the trees, encompassed it with a faint glory: the tears of human
suffering had not yet dried upon her cheek of snow; but it was the only
trace of human feeling visible: her soul seemed to commune with him of
whom it was an emanation.

“Luxima,” said the Missionary, approaching her, “the moment of thy
perfect conversion is surely arrived: in spirit thou belongest to Him
who died to save thee; be then his also by those rites, which, in a
place like this, he thought it not beneath him to receive, from the
hands of one by whom he was preceded, as the star of the morning ushers
in the radiance of the rising sun. O my daughter! ere together we
commence our perilous and trying pilgrimage, we have need of all the
favour which Heaven’s mercy can afford us, for we have much to dread,
from others and ourselves; let then no tie be wanting which can bind us
faster to virtue and religion. Luxima, innocent and afflicted as thou
now art, pure and sublime as thou now lookest, feelest thou thyself not
worthy to become a Christian in form as in faith?”

“If _thou_ thinkest me not unworthy,” she replied, in a low voice, “that
which thou art, I am willing to be.”

The Missionary led her forward, in silence, to the edge of the spring,
and blessing the living waters as they flowed, he raised his consecrated
hands, and shed the dew of salvation upon the head of the proselyte,
pronouncing, in a voice of inspiration, the _solemn sacrament of
baptism_. All around harmonized with the holy act; Nature stood sole
sponsor; the incense which filled the air, arose from the bosom of the
earth; and the light which illuminated the ceremony, was light from
heaven.

A long and solemn pause ensued; then the Missionary, clasping and
holding up the hands of Luxima in his, said, “Father, receive into thy
service this spotless being; for to thy service do I consecrate her.”

A beam of religious triumph shone in the up-turned eyes of the
Missionary. The conversion of the Priestess of Brahma was perfected, and
human passion was subdued. “Daughter of heaven!” he said, “thou hast now
nothing to fear; and I, on this side eternity, have nothing to hope.” As
he spoke the last words, an involuntary sigh burst from his lips, and he
turned his eyes on the Christian vestal; but hers were fixed upon the
Pagoda, the temple of her ancient devotion. Her look was sad and wild;
she seemed absorbed and overwhelmed by the rapidity of emotions which
had lately assailed her. “Let us proceed,” he said, in a softened voice,
“if thou be able; let us leave for ever the monument of the dark
idolatry which thou hast abjured.” As he spoke, he took her arm to lead
her on; but he started, and suddenly let it fall, for he found it was
encircled with the muntra, or Brahminical rosary, from which the image
of Camdeo was suspended. “Luxima,” he said, “these are not the ornaments
of a Christian vestal.”

Luxima clasped her hands in agony; the tears dropped fast upon her
bosom; and she fell at his feet, exclaiming, in a voice of tenderness
and despair, “Oh! thou wilt not deprive me of these also? I have nothing
left now _but these_! nothing to remind me, in the land of strangers, of
my country and my people, save only these: it makes a part of the
religion I have abandoned, to respect the sacred ties of nature; does
my new faith command me to break them? This rosary was fastened on my
arm by a parent’s tender hand, and bathed in Nature’s holiest dew--a
parent’s tender tears: hold not the Christians relics, such as these,
precious and sacred? Thou hast called thy religion the religion of the
heart; will it not then respect the heart’s best feelings?” A deep
convulsive sob interrupted her words; all the ties she had broken
pressed upon her bosom, and the affections of habit, those close-knit
and imperishable affections, interwoven, by time and circumstance, with
the very life-nerves of the heart, bore down for the moment, every other
passion. The Outcast, with her eyes fixed upon the religious ornaments
of her youth, wept, as she gazed, her country, parents, friends--“and
would not be comforted.”

The Missionary sighed and was silent: he sighed to observe the strong
influence of a religion, which so intimately connected itself with all
the most powerful emotions of nature and earliest habits of life; and
which, taking root in the heart, with its first feelings, could only be
perfectly eradicated by the slow operation of expanding reason, by the
strengthening efforts of moral perception, or by the miraculous effects
of divine grace, and he was silent; because, the appeal which the tender
and eloquent Indian made to his feelings, found an advocate in his
breast it was impossible to resist. Instead, therefore, of reproving
her emotion, he suffered himself to be infected by its softness, and
mingled his tears with hers.

The grief of Luxima subsided in the blessed consciousness of a sympathy
so precious, so unexpected; and love’s warm glow dried up the tear,
which the grief of natural affection shed on the cheek of the Outcast.
“Thou weepest for me,” she said, chasing away the trembling drops which
hung in her up-turned eyes; “and in the indulgence of a selfish feeling,
I hazard thy safety and thy life! That cruel, that accusing Brahmin, who
has watched my steps to my destruction, whom I mistook last night for
the vision of that God he too zealously serves--may he not even now
lurk in these shades; or may he not, when we are vainly sought for in
our respective asylums, seek us here?--O my father! forgive these tears.
But it was the tenderness of him who lately cursed me; it was my aged
grandsire, whom I have dragged to death and covered with shame (for
something of my infamy must light on all my kindred); it was he who,
with the morning’s dawn, sent me the tidings of my approaching fate, and
bade me fly and shun it: he would not see, he would not hear me; nor
dare he breathe my name, but to heap curses on my head. But for this
timely tender warning I should have else been hunted, like some noxious
reptile, to wilds and wastes, there to die and be forgotten. All day I
lay concealed amidst the shades of the impervious banyan, to wait thy
coming with the evening sun, to bid thee a last farewell, and urge thee
to save thyself by an immediate flight; but by a miracle, wrought
doubtlessly by thy God for thee, that which seemed to lead us to
destruction, became the wondrous mean of preservation; and we found
safety where we could only hope for death.”

“Luxima,” said the Missionary, “let us believe that He, who alone could
save us, still extends around us the shelter of his wing. Let us, while
yet thou hast strength, fly these fatal shades. Behind those
pine-covered rocks, which the moon now silvers, there lies, I know, a
deep and entangled glen, which, I have heard, is held in superstitious
horror, and never approached by pious Hindus. This glen leads to Bembar,
by many a solitary path, made to facilitate the march of the caravan
from Thibet to Tatta, at this season of the year[14]. It was but
yesterday, some straggling troops, belonging to the caravan, passed
through the valley, and halted at no great distance hence, to traffic
with the Cashmirian merchants: these, as they often halt, we may
overtake in some lone way, out of the view of thy intolerant
countrymen.” While he spoke, they had proceeded on, and reached the
entrance to a ravine in the rocks, which, dark and tremendous, seemed
like a closing chasm above their heads, threatening destruction; but,
when they had reached its extremity, they found themselves in a
delicious glen, through whose trees were discernible the crescent
banners of the Mogul camp; and the sky-lamps, which marked the outposts
of the midnight guards. At this sight, the prophetic warning and
generous offers of the gallant Solyman rushed with equal force to the
minds of the wanderers; but both remained silent--Luxima, from an
instinctive delicacy, which mocked the refinement of acquired sentiment;
the Missionary, from a feeling less laudable and less disinterested.
Both involuntarily turned their eyes on each other, and suddenly
withdrawing them, changed colour; for, in spite of the awful vows since
made, and the virtuous resolutions since formed, the hearts of each
throbbed responsively to the dangerous recollection of that fatal scene,
to which the unexpected presence of the Mogul Prince had given birth.

Ere the mild and balmy night had passed its noon, the weary proselyte,
exhausted equally from fatigue of mind and body, felt that she would be
unable to proceed, if she snatched not the invigorating refreshment of a
short repose. The Missionary, with tender watchfulness, was the first
to observe her faltering steps, and sought out for her a mossy bank,
cradled by the luxuriant branches of a mango-tree; and, withdrawing to a
little distance, he at once guarded her slumber and gave himself up to
meditate on some precise plan for their future pilgrimage; which, if
they could overtake the caravan, whose track they had already
discovered, would be attended with but few difficulties. Yet he dared no
longer seek “the highways and public places,” to promulgate his
doctrines, and to evince his zeal. Withheld less by a principle of
self-preservation than by his fears for the safety and even life of his
innocent proselyte; he also felt his enthusiasm in the cause weakened,
by the apparent impossibility of its success; for he perceived that the
religious prejudices of Hindostan were too intimately connected with the
temporal prosperity of its inhabitants, with the established opinions,
with the laws, and even with the climate of the country, to be
universally subverted, but by a train of moral and political events,
which should equally emancipate their minds from antiquated error, in
which they were absorbed, and which should destroy the fundamental
principles of their loose and ill-digested government. He almost looked
upon the Mission, in which he had engaged, as hopeless; and he felt that
the miracle of that conversion, by which he expected to evince the
sacred truth of the cause in which he had embarked, could produce no
other effect than a general abhorrence of him who laboured to effect it,
and of her who had already paid the forfeit of all most precious to the
human breast, for that partial proselytism, to which her affections,
rather than her reason, had induced her. Yet, when he reflected that he
should return to Goa, the scenes of his former triumphs, followed only
by one solitary disciple, and that disciple a young and lovely woman,
his mind became confused, and he trembled to dwell on an idea fraught
with a thousand mortifying and cruel recollections. The dawn had already
beamed upon his harassing vigils, when Luxima stood before him,
resembling the star of the morning, bright in her softness, the mists
of a tender sadness hanging on the lustre of her looks. The Missionary
was revived by her presence; but the sweet and subtle transport, which
circulated through his veins, as he gazed on the being who now
considered him as her sole providence, he endeavoured to conceal beneath
a tranquil coldness of manner, which the secret ardour of his feelings,
the delicacy of his situation, and the pure and virtuous resolutions of
his mind, alike rendered necessary and laudable.

As they proceeded, he spoke to her of the plans he had devised, and of
his intention of placing her in a religious house when they arrived at
Goa. He spoke to her of the false religion she had abandoned, and of
the pure faith she had embraced.

Luxima answered only by gentle sighs, and by looks, which seemed to say,
“Whatever may be my future destiny, I am at least _now_ near you.”

The Missionary sought to avoid these looks, which, when they met his
eye, sunk to his heart, and disturbed his best resolutions; for never
had his Neophyte looked more lovely. Supported by a white wand, which he
had formed for her, of a bamboo, she moved lightly and timidly by his
side, like the genius of the sweet and solitary shades, in which they
wandered. The course of the rivers, the variation of the soil, and the
beacons held out to them by the surrounding mountains, with whose forms
they were well acquainted, were their guides; while the milk of the
young and luscious cocoa-nut, the cheering nectar extracted from the
pulp of the bilva-fruit, and the rice, and delicious fruits, which on
every side presented themselves, afforded at once nutrition and
refreshment[15]. Sometimes catching, sometimes losing, the faint track
of the caravan, the conviction of increasing safety, and the certainty
of overtaking it at Bembar, left them scarcely a fear, and scarcely a
hope, on the subject. For to wander through the lovely and magnificent
valley of Cashmire, was but to loiter amidst the enjoyments of Eden; and
to proceed by each other’s side--to catch the half-averted eyebeam,
which penetrated the soul--to observe the sudden glow which mantled on
the cheek--to participate in the same blissful feeling, and yet to
heighten, by submitting it to the same pure sense of virtue, was a state
of being too exquisite not to obliterate, in its transient enjoyment,
the memory of the past and the apprehension of the future. Restrained
and reserved even in the intimacy of their intercourse, they sought to
forget the existence of a passion it was now so dangerous to cherish.
The Missionary was regulated by religion and by honour; the Indian, by
sentiment and by instinctive delicacy. Solicitude tempered by reserve,
tenderness blended with respect, distinguished the manner of the Priest.
Modesty, which shrunk from the appearance of intrusion; and bashfulness,
trembling to betray the feelings it guarded, marked the conduct of the
Neophyte. Silent, except on subjects of religious sublimity, a look,
suddenly caught and as suddenly withdrawn, alone betrayed their
dangerous secret. They were frequently parted during the ardours of the
day, which prevented their continuing their journey; and sometimes, when
the night-dews fell heavily, the guardian Priest sought out for his
weary charge a grassy couch, where the madhucca had spread its downy
leaves; or where a luxurious and perfumed shade was afforded by the
sephalica, whose flowers unfold only their bloom and odour to the sighs
of night, and droop and wither beneath the first ray the sun darts o’er
their fragile loveliness: while _he_, not daring, even by a look, to
violate the pure and seraph slumber of confiding innocence, waked only
to guard her repose; or slept, to woo to his fancy the dream, which too
often, in illusive visions, gave to his heart her whom waking he
trembled to approach. When they arose, the twilight of the dawn
conducted them to the respective bath, which innumerable springs
afforded; and, when again they met, they offered together the incense
of the heart to Heaven, and proceeded on their pilgrimage. The path they
had taken was so sequestered, that they seldom risked discovery; but
when, amidst the haze of distance, they observed a human form, or caught
a human sound, they plunged into the umbrage of the surrounding shades,
until the absence of the intruder again gave them up to solitude and
silence. It was in moments such as these only, that the high mind of the
Missionary felt that it had forfeited its claim to the independence
which belongs to unblemished rectitude, and that the Indian remembered
she was an alien and an Outcast.

                          THE END OF VOL. II.

          S. GOSNELL, _Printer, Little Queen Street, London_.

FOOTNOTES:

[1] The new Emperor Aurengzebe had scarcely mounted his throne near
Delhi, when he was alarmed with intelligence of the march of Solyman
Sheko, by the skirts of the northern mountains, to join his father,
Daara, at Lahore.--Dow, 286.

[2] The Brahminical hell.

[3] Saint Catherine de Genes.

[4] It is thus Brahma is represented in his avatar of divine wisdom.

[5] Paraubahzah Vushtoo, or First Cause.

[6] The Indian Cupid is frequently represented armed with a flash of
lightning.

[7] Gungee, the presiding deity of the Ganges: she has eight vestal
attendants, which personify the eight principal rivers in Hindoostan.

[8] Flowers have always been the tasteful medium for the eloquence of
Eastern love: like the Peruvian quipas, a wreath, in India, is
frequently the record of a life.

[9] To quit life, before it quits them, is among the Hindus no uncommon
act of heroism; and this fatal custom arises from their doctrine of
metempsychosis, in which the faith of all the various casts is equally
implicit.

[10] This mystery is called the _Matricha-machom_. The Brahmins believe
that the soul is thus conducted to the brain, and that the spirit is
re-united to the Supreme Being.

[11] The vapour of naphtha which issues through the crevices of the
earth, is supposed to be the cause of the flame which is sometimes
observed in India. At Chittagong is a fountain which bursts into flame,
and which has its tutelar deities and presiding priests. When it is
purposely extinguished, it rekindles spontaneously.

[12] See translation of the Laws of Menu, by Sir William Jones.

[13] Such is the form of the Indian excommunication.

[14] “Selon les témoignages de tous les Katchmeriens, on voyoit partir
chaque année de le pays plusieurs caravans.”--_Voyages de_ BERNIER.

[15] “Il faut surtout considérer que l’abstinence de la chair des
animaux est une suite de la nature du climat.”--_Essai sur les Mœurs des
Nations, &c. &c. &c._








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